Title: to let her know
Author's name: loopy_1981
Author's email address:loopy_1981@yahoo.com
rating: pg
Disclaimer: i dont own them , its fiction its not real
dont sue!
pairing: willow/ giles

To let her know


Yet again another endless search for the information
which is needed to defend the sudden evil which has
appeared again, seeking, searing, book after book,
page after page. If it weren’t for the help of Xander
and willow my search would appear to be endless. Oh
willow she was what kept my Mind clear, of these
endless phrases. Turning yet another page I look over
it with hesitation hoping to find the answer. Wait the
book contains... yes this is it this is what we need.
I rush up to tell the good news to willow as Xander
escaped long ago. I found her fast asleep her head
resting on the keyboard her face so peaceful, her
eyelids twitching from the dream she is having, her
lips curled slightly upwards. I stand and watch her
sleep all the things she has been through by her
choice, where as Buffy was chosen to go through it
all. Willow was so fragile, I want to protect her form
all that is, but she has chosen to experience the
demons, and monsters. I love her so much and yet I
can't tell, taste or experience it. The boundaries of
love which are set by society. How can they wave her
under my nose and not let me feel her? I walk over to
her and brush her cheek with my hand I was able to
touch her when she didn't know, when I couldn’t know
if she accepted it or rejected it. I wonder at night
if things were different could we, would we simply
"be"? The answers I might never know. Her eyes flicker
open and she jolts up I didn't mean to frighten her,
she rambles something about frogs then wonders what am
I doing her, I'm lost in all that is her, her fiery
hair, her soft sweet voice, she forget where she was.
If only it was that easy to forget, but would I want
to? That I can answer by my self, no. I wouldn't want
to forget even if I could, she kept me sane, she made
my blood run hot and cold all at the same time, she
made me feel alive. The urge grows inside me day by
day to reach out and touch, all the years I had been
alive I had never wanted something so much then I want
her. Does she ever think of me? If only I could be
near her, but I can’t let these thoughts be known. I
reject the idea that if she happened to figure it out
that she might "wigg out" so Buffy refereed to it as.
She wouldn't I know she wouldn’t but she might. I hate
that I have to push my feelings away when all I want
to do is scream them out loud. Her eyes look at me
intensely, she brushes her hair out of her face I can
see the indentations from the keys and they simply
make her look adorable. I watch her lips as she
moistens them thinking how badly I want to kiss them
instead of acting on it I simply chicken out and tell
her I found it I found the answer we’d been searching
for