undesirable feelings

<body topmargin=0 leftmargin=0 marginheight=0 marginwidth=0> <table cellpadding=0 cellspacing=0 border=0 height="100%"><tr> <td valign="top" width=200 BGCOLOR="#000000" TEXT="#F7F7FF"> <bR> </td> <td valign="top" BGCOLOR="#000000" TEXT="#F7F7FF"> <div> <FONT SIZE="5" COLOR="#FFFFFF" FACE="Arial" ><B>modern society will burn!</B></FONT>    |     <A HREF="index.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="modern society will burn!"><U>home</U></A></div> <div> <A HREF="id111.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="pain of the earth"><U>pain of the earth</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id112.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="walking in line"><U>walking in line</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id113.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="happiness"><U>happiness</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id114.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="another war protest"><U>another war protest</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id115.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="cant wait for the wind"><U>cant wait for the wind</U></A>   |   <B>undesirable feelings</B>   |   <A HREF="id117.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="losing a love"><U>losing a love</U></A></div> <div> undesirable feelings</div> <div> i'm feeling inside out and upside down again,</div> <div> something is terribly wrong with me, </div> <div> i often feel like a dolphin swimming the ocean alone</div> <div> maybe its because a long while ago i decided not to trust no one, </div> <div> i told myself i would walk alone and fall alone and i have.</div> <div> i have fallen into a pit of sorrow for the world, </div> <div> im trying to climb out however the more i try the harder i fall.</div> <div> wonder if its all worth it! </div> <div> people tell to take a happy pill( thats insulting) take it why, </div> <div> so i can be a horse with blinders on. hell no, </div> <div> plus i dont like to ingest any ingredient i cant pronounce.</div> <div> laughter helps though,i love to laugh and make others laugh, </div> <div> but still the only cure i believe is death in which i await anxiously ,</div> <div> about nine years ago i said to myself i would kill myself with liquor and i just about did more than a few times,</div> <div> but now i dont want to do that, its taking the easy way out. </div> <div> i want to live , death is inevitable not everyone actually lives, but i worry im going to live out my years in this forsaken pit,</div> <div> my own personel hell, so to say.</div> <div> i feel like the weight of the world is on my back and it hurts ,</div> <div> its breaking me! this feeling thankfully isnt always around, but its back,</div> <div> hopefully tomorrow it will leave at least for a little while.</div> <div> denver aint that bad just another town ,its not whats bothering me something else is, </div> <div> something i cannot find, so i cant fix it!</div> <div> <IMG SRC="165c3170.jpg" border=0 width="707" height="535" ALIGN="BOTTOM" HSPACE="0" VSPACE="0"></div> <bR> <bR> </td> </tr></table></body>