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I DON'T EVER WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN

by Lajla

- “Coming!” – Shane yelled when his door-bell rang one morning while he was still in bed with his girlfriend

Anna. He put on his dressing-down and gave Anna a kiss on the cheek. She looked so peaceful sleeping. ‘God, I love her!’, he thought.

- “Mr Filan?” – the postman said when Shane opened the door.

- “Yes.”

- “Here you go.”

- “Thank you.” - Shane took the envelope from the postman and closed the door. He sat down and looked at

the envelope in his hand.

- “Funny, no address.” – he said out loud. – “Oh well. . . .” – he opened it and pulled out a white piece of paper

with a familiar hand righting, but that thought soon slipped his mind. He started reading the letter. . . .

Early one morning while you were asleep
I received a letter, but there was no address
So I paid it no mind, in fact, I wanted to send it back
But something that I was feeling said open it
It said "Dear Reader, once close friend of mine
Hope that this letter finds you in time
Cos your love is ending
And my life's just beginning
With a woman that I know you hold dear to you"
And it made me wanna say

“Shane, I’m sorry you have to find out this way, but trust me, I had no choice. I won’t say my name, even though it will all come out in time. It’s about Anna. She doesn’t love you anymore, but she doesn’t have the heart to tell you that. She thinks it would ruin you. And believe me, I care about you, but I have to think of myself, too. Anna and I love each other and have been secretly seeing each other for 4 months now.” – Shane quietly gasped. Was this a joke? Was someone playing a joke on him? If they were, it wasn’t very funny. He continued reading the letter, but he couldn’t really concentrate. All he could think about was that Anna was cheating on him. – “I know you’ll be hurt, but please understand. We love each other and want to spend the rest of our lives together. We wanted to tell you the truth so many times, but each time Anna decided it was better not to, because she didn’t want to hurt you. She doesn’t know I wrote this letter, so don’t blame her. Please, it honestly wasn’t her idea. It isn’t our fault we fell in love!” – Shane was shocked, but he continued reading it. The fact that the hand righting was familiar to him made him think harder where did he see a word ‘love’ written like that before. The letter ‘l’ was a capital letter, even though it wasn’t the beginning of the sentence, and the curve at the end of the letter ‘e’ was kinda weird. He knew he saw that somewhere before, but where? – “You remember all those times you were telling us how much you love her and how her touch makes you feel like you can do anything? Well, I didn’t really understand what you were saying. . . .until I felt it myself.

So, I only hope you won’t judge us, but this is something we have to do in order to be happy. You have to believe me, Shane, I never, EVER meant to hurt you. You’re like a brother to me. We’ve been through so much together, and I understand that in one hand, it may not be fair of me to break your heart like this, but on the other hand, we have to do this. We want nothing more than to be able to enjoy in our love freely. So, I hope you’ll understand, and won’t shut us out of your life. Remember we both care about you. Please, Shane, at least try to be happy for us.”

I don't ever wanna see you again
But I stuck by you till the end
And my conscience is clear
And I can move on from here
But I wish I could say the same for you baby
I don't ever wanna see you again
Tell me why did it have to be my best friend
That you were messing round with
I didn't wanna notice it
I was true to my love for you

Shane leaned back on the chair. ‘What the hell was that?’, he asked himself. Anna was cheating on him. And with a good friend of his. He started thinking who could it be. All sorts of names went through his head when he remembered his band mates. It had to be one of them! ‘Who is it? Nicky?’, he said to himself, ‘No, he would never cheat on Georgina. Mark? I don’t think he would do that to me, he’s not that kind of a person. Maybe it was Bryan? What the hell am I say, he just became a father! The only one left is Kian. But no, we know each other since we were 12, it couldn’t be him. So, who is it?’ He looked towards the bedroom, got up and started walking towards it. ‘Only one way to find out.’, he said to himself, as he entered the room.

He looked at Anna. She looked like an angel sleeping. How could he hate her? He couldn’t. All he felt for her was love. An unconditional love, that would always burn inside of his heart.

He slowly laid down on the bed next to her, careful that he doesn’t wake her up.

- “Why are you doing this to me?” – he whispered. – “I thought everything was doing great for the two of

us. You never told me you were unhappy with me.” – Shane could feel a single tear falling down his cheek. He didn’t make any effort to wipe it off. – “I love you, baby. Why do you have to hurt me?”

Anna started waking up. Shane quickly sat on the bed, and turned his back to her. Anna opened her eyes and saw him.

It took me a minute to wake up and see
What the love of my life was doing to me
I wanted to lay down and die
Cos my pride wouldn't let me cry
Some how I knew I had to get over it
He said he couldn't understand until he felt your touch
Now he can see why I love you so much
And that's so unfair
I never thought I'd have to share
Your love that I thought was given to only me
And that's why

- “Hey baby. You’re up already.” – when he didn’t answer her, she continued. - “What’s wrong, sweetie?” –

she woke up a bit and looked at Shane.

- “This.” – he handed her the letter, she read the first few lines and she exactly what it was. ‘Damn it! I

told him not to send him anything!’, she thought.

- “Shane, I can explain this.”

- “I don’t think there’s anything to explain, Anna. You cheated on me for the past 4 months. And like that

wasn’t enough, it was someone I know! Who is it, Anna?” – he asked her, looking at her with his beautiful hazel-green eyes, which were full of pain right now..

- “I don’t think it matters, Shane. . . .” – she started saying when Shane interrupted her.

- “It doesn’t matter?? It doesn’t matter??? You fucking broke my heart, and now you’re telling me it

doesn’t matter??” – Anna was getting scared. She never saw him like this before. But then again, she never did something as horrible as this before. – “It matters, Anna!” – he lowered his voice when he saw the fear in her eyes. But his anger was still there. – “And you know why it matters? Because I loved you with all my heart, and you betrayed me! You went behind my back! What am I supposed to do? Forget it? What? You tell me, Anna. What am I supposed to do?”

- “I. . . .I don’t know. . . .Shane, I’m sorry, I really am. You gotta believe me, I never planned this to happen!

I’m so sorry. . . .”

- “Yeah, well sorry isn’t gonna do it this time. Y’know, maybe I would’ve even excepted it if only you told me.

But I found out from a bloody letter, Anna!” – he took the letter and crumpled it.

- “I wanted to tell you, Shane, I honestly did. But I was waiting for the right moment.” – Anna was crying.

- “And what would the right moment be? Maybe when we were making love? Or maybe when I was telling

you how much I love you and how much you mean to me? Or maybe when you told me you don’t want anybody else except me? What would be the right moment, Anna?” – he could hear his voice trembling. But he didn’t want to cry in front of her. He didn’t want her to see how much she hurt him.

- “Shane, don’t say that. . . .”

- “Why the hell shouldn’t I?? At night you were in my bed, making love to me, and then you would go to

your other lover and make love to him! Isn’t that right?? Now I finally know where did you go every morning when you sneaked out of my house, leaving me a bloody note! That’s always the easiest, isn’t it? Just ran away!” – he looked at her. She looked so fragile crying like that, and he felt the urge to hug her, but he knew he couldn’t. She hurt him. She hurt him deeply, and his pride was crushed. He couldn’t just walk over it. Not this time. – “Anna, please, just tell me who he is. I think you owe me that much.” – he said, lowering his voice and sighting.

- “I can’t, Shane, I’m sorry. I just can’t. I can only tell you that he’s not in the band with you.” – she couldn’t

even look him in the eye. She had to lie, for his sake.

He took a deep breath, and then got up. He started walking towards the bathroom.

- “I want you out of here when I come out.” – he said coldly as he closed the door, leaving Anna crying.

She soon realized he really meant it, and she quickly put her clothes on and left his house, still crying. . . .

And you say you loved me
Love must of been blind
Cos I sure didn't see this one coming
I once was blind but now I see
My best friend huh
They say keep the ones you love close
And your enemies even closer
But I can't win or lose you
Cos the one I thought was a friend to me
Ended up being my true enemy
Do we know the real pain you go through
Listen to me baby
I gave you everything, my love and my ring
And you, why you leading me
And I don't wanna see you again

…… a week later ……
Shane was starting getting used to living without Anna, but he just couldn’t get over her. She didn’t see her since that morning they had their last and biggest fight.
He had to admit he felt relieved when she told him the other guy isn’t Kian, Mark, Nicky or Bryan. But still, whoever wrote the letter, was one of his close friends. He used to think about it all the time at night. But he couldn’t think of anyone who could go behind his back.
        -       “Lads, you need to sign this!” – Anto said one day when Shane, Kian, Nicky, Bryan and Mark were chilling out in a hotel room, handing them an Irish flag. – “They’re putting together a contest and this is the 1^st prize.”
Mark was the first one to sign it, and he took his time. Then it was Bryan, who simply drew a smiley and signed ‘love, Bryan’. Then Bryan handed it to Kian, and he spent few minutes writing something.
       -        “Mark, you deutz!” – Kian said laughing, when he read what Mark wrote. – “Look at this, Shane!” – he said, handing it to Shane.
Shane read it and he also laughed, and then he started reading what the others wrote. His eyes fell on the word ‘love’. He quickly remembered the letter he got a week ago. ‘It’s the same hand righting!’, he said to himself. He quickly searched for the name of who wrote it. As he found it, he quietly gasped. When the initial shock which took a few seconds was over, he turned to look at him. To look at the man who betrayed him, together with the girl he loved.
       -         “You! You son-of-a-bitch!!”
       -         “Shane, what the hell is wrong with you?” – Kian yelled as Shane started going towards him, with all that anger in his eyes. – “What’s your problem?” – he asked when Shane didn’t react to his words.
       -         “You are my problem!! How could you, Kian? I trusted you!!”
       -         “What are you talking about?” – he was pretending he didn’t know what was Shane talking about, as he got up and with each step Shane got closer to him, he moved a step back.
       -         “Oh, you know very well what am I talking about!” – Bryan, Nicky, Mark and Anto were looking at them confused. – “You were the one who sent me that letter! You were the one who betrayed me, together with Anna! You were sleeping with her behind my back!”
      -          “Shane, are you sure? Calm down, mate!” – Nicky said, stopping him from taking another step forward.
      -         “Here, look at this!” – he said handing Nicky the letter he pulled out of his pocket, which he carried everywhere with him, in hope he would find out who the other guy is. And now he finally did find out. But he was starting to regret it. – “Look at the word ‘love’ in the letter, and then look at this!” – Shane said, picking up the flag and showing him Kian’s signature.
Nicky looked at the letter and then at the flag, and looked up.

I don't ever wanna see you again
But I stuck by you till the end
And my conscience is clear
And I can move on from here
But I wish I could say the same for you baby
I don't ever wanna see you again
Tell me why did it have to be my best friend
That you were messing round with
I didn't wanna notice it
I was true to my love for you

      -          “It’s the same.” – he said quietly.
      -          “There could be millions of other guys who write ‘love’ like that! Don’t be absurd!” – Kian said, defending himself, scared to death of what Shane could do to him. He never saw him angry like that before.
      -          “Oh, give me a break, Kian! How many guys write ‘love’ like that??” – Shane said showing him the flag. – “We all know that’s the way you always write it! How could you?” – suddenly all the anger in Shane’s eyes was gone. Instead, it was replaced by disappointment.
     -           “I’m sorry, Shane. We never planned it, it just happened.”
     -           “Kian, things like that don’t just happen.” – Shane said, calming down.
     -           “All I can tell you is sorry. And I really am sorry.”
Shane sat down, putting his head in his hands. The other guys didn’t know whether they should go comfort Shane because he lost his girlfriend and maybe one of his best friends in just a week, or whether they should go comfort Kian, cos he knew he blew it big time, because he was losing his best friend. So, all of them quietly left the room, leaving them to work it out on their own.
    -           “You’re sorry, Anna’s sorry. . . .even I’m sorry. I’m sorry for not seeing the signs.”
    -           “It’s not your fault, Shane.” – Kian said, sitting down next to him. – “Shane, can you be happy for Anna and me?” – he asked after few moments of silence. Shane looked at him.
   -           “I think I can.” – he said quietly after few seconds. A smile formed on Kian’s face. – “Yeah, I can be happy for you guys. I love you both, I can’t be mad at you, even if I wanted to.”
-            “You’re one in a million, Shane.” – Kian said, as they hugged.
-            “I know.” – Shane joked, trying to hide the fact that his voice was trembling. He hoped no-one saw the tear which rolled down him cheek, leaving a wet trace behind it. . . .

Lyrics: I Don't Ever Wanna See You Again by Uncle Sam

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