WestFiction- "I Need You" by Lajla

He was walking down some road, just thinking of everything that happened the past few months. How could’ve he been so stupid? To risk his only reason for living, his most precious possession, his one and only true love for……for few hours with some woman. A woman whom he didn’t even know her first name, let alone the way she looked. His head was still aching from yesterdays drinking, going in that woman’s hotel room, waking up in the morning next to a stranger, then going home to the girl of his dreams, the girl he loved more than anything in this world. The girl he hurt deeply……

*flashback*

- “How could you, Shane?! How??” – Natalie was crying. She lost the count of her tears. This was the third

time he came home the next morning, smelling of a woman’s perfume and drinking.

- “Honey, I’m sorry……” – was all Shane could say as he held his head in his hands.

- “Well, sorry isn’t gonna do it this time.” – Nat started saying as she wiped away the tears from the face.

That didn’t help much though. The tears just kept on coming…… - “This was the last one I can take, Shane.”

Shane looked up surprised as he heard that, although he knew this was going to happen.

- “Baby, you don’t mean that, do you?” – he asked her, getting up from the chair he was sitting in and

walking towards her. – “Please, tell me you don’t mean that……please……” – he was getting desperate now. He knew he was never gonna be able to live without her love, her touch, her soul……

Nat turned away from him, facing the window. She couldn’t stand watching him like that. Even though she loved him more than anything, it was hurting her more knowing he was lying to her. It wasn’t just her pride, it was her heart too. Her heart wouldn’t be able to survive one more cold and lonely night, lying alone in their bed, knowing the one she gave her heart to was in somebody else’s bed, probably drunk.

- “I do mean it, Shane. I can’t do this anymore……” – she started crying again. Shane put his hand on her

shoulder, and she took a step forward as tears were sliding down her face.

- “Nat, baby, I know we can get through this. I promise this was the last time, it will never……”

- “Don’t!” – she screamed as she turned to face him. – “Just don’t. Don’t tell me it will never happen again.

You said it the last time, remember? And the first time.” – she said her voice trembling. – “I do love you, Shane……”

- “Then don’t do this!”

- “I have to! I can’t take it anymore! I don’t think I can survive one more lonely night, thinking if something

has happened to you. I can’t take your drinking anymore. I can’t take your cheating, and most of all, I can’t take you lying to me anymore.” – tears were running down her cheeks and she was unaware of it. Crying has become everyday thing to her since the first time Shane cheated on her. – “You don’t know what I go through every night in bed. You don’t even notice it, but I cry myself to sleep. Every night, Shane. Every night.”

Now Shane was crying too, he was just standing there, looking at her and thinking how could he hurt someone as fragile as her, the only person he ever truly loved.

And I swear

I’ll be there

Anytime you want me to

I’ll be true

Here for you

Don’t leave me lonely

Cos I need you

- “Baby……”

- “No, Shane, don’t say anything. Don’t make it any harder to me, please. I……I……It’s over, Shane.” – she

said crying. Shane was staring at her, her words still not reaching to him.

- “Nat, don’t. Please don’t do this……You love me, don’t you?” – he said cupping her face in his hands, and

making her look at him. – “Don’t you?”

- “It makes no difference, Shane. Not anymore.” – she said sadly. That twinkle in her brown eyes was gone.

That spark which made Shane fall in love with her was gone. And he killed that spark. He. There was no-one else to blame but himself.

- “Natalie, honey, don’t do this to me, to us.” – he said holding on to the last straw. Nat looked at him

not really believing what she was hearing..

- “Excuse me?? To YOU??? What about what you’ve done to me??? Have you ever thought about that,

Shane?!? Have you???” – she was screaming at him. – “I can’t believe you can still stand here and tell me that I can’t do that to you after all the things you did to hurt me!! After all those nights I spent alone in bed, crying over you, while you were at some bimbo’s, not caring one bit about me!!”

- “Honey, that’s not true, I always cared about you……”

- “Oh, don’t even give me that ‘I care about you’ speech! We both know you don’t care about me, and you

probably never did! I can’t believe I trusted you! For God’s sake, Shane, you took my heart, and then just throw it away! How could you?? What did all those bimbo’s have that I don’t?? Huh? What? Just tell me that!” – she was crying, tears just wouldn’t stop.

Shane sank down on the floor, his head in his hands, wondering how could he have been such an asshole.

- “I don’t know, I don’t know……” – he kept repeating. – “Baby, I never meant to hurt you. Honestly……” – he

looked up and started going towards her when she coldly said-

- “Yeah, well I guess you should’ve thought about that sooner, haven’t you?” – there were no more tears left

to cry for her. And there were no emotions in her body. – “Get out, Shane.”

- “Nat……”

Baby how I wish you could forgive me

One more time

Baby living without you

Will tear me apart

When I know how it could have been

Let’s make a new start

And give love a chance to win

Cos baby I swear

- “Out!! I don’t ever wanna see you again! Get it?? Ever!” – she said as he stood at their front door. – “I

hope you’re happy now, Shane. I hope you’re happy for breaking my heart like no-one else could. Ironic, isn’t it? The only man I thought will never hurt me, the only man I ever loved has hurt me the most. Goodbye, Shane.” – and she slammed the door, leaving Shane standing there for a couple of minutes, then started wandering somewhere.
Natalie sank down on the floor, stared in the empty space in front of her as tears started sliding down her cheeks, one by one. Soon, she was crying her last cry……

*flashback ends*

Shane looked up only to see he was in Hazelwood, Nat’s favourite place. He sat down and stared in the water.

Why did he do it? Why? He loved Natalie more than anything, so why did he hurt her like that? He was the reason of her unhappiness, of her cold nights, lying alone in bed, crying. He did it all. He shattered her dreams into thousand little pieces without even noticing, without thinking twice about what he was about to do. ‘Damn all that drinking!’ – he threw the bottle of Whiskey he had in his hand, and it got smashed into a three. ‘It’s all your fucking fault!’ He knew it wasn’t the bottle, or all those nameless women, it was him. He was the only one responsible for his doings, and there was no-one else to blame but himself. He put his head in his hands and cried. Cried like he never cried before, because he knew he lost one thing in his life that was worth living for. He lost Natalie, his Natalie, his reason for breathing, his light at the end of a dark tunnel, the only thing that kept him going all these years. He lost the love of his life and it was forever this time. And he knew it. A muffled voice could be heard…… Or was it just the wind?

- “I need you, baby……”

Lyrics: I Need You by Westlife

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