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[PG 13]

CAN'T CHOOSE

by Lucia

(sequel to "Tomorrow and Tonight")

The traffic finally started moving, and I continued my journey to work.

When I eventually reached the office, I slipped in trying to go un-noticed, but my attempts failed when John saw me.

“ Lucia, can I have a word with you in my office straight away please? ” he asked.

“ Sorry John, very busy…must dash! Speak to you later!” I replied rushing towards my office.

“ uhhh… Lucia…?” I heard John call from behind me.

“ John, I really am busy… I’ve got a lot of… a lot of filing to do. Bye!” I said, shutting my office door in his face.

“ It suprises me that you’ve still got your job, when you act like that towards your boss, if I was like that with Louis, he’d kill me!!” said a voice behind me. I smiled as I felt his arms slip around my waist, and his lips on my neck.

“ Well…… it’s my charm you see, he just doesn’t want to let me go, or to lose the best member of the office he’s ever had!” I said, stroking his hand softly.

“ I can understand why he doesn’t want to let you go, I don’t either!” he said, pulling me closer to him.

“ But your going to have to for now, I do have a job to do! So do you for a matter of fact. Why aren’t you in the studio with the other lads………?” I asked, pulling myself out of his embrace.

“ uhhhhh… well I just wanted to come and say good morning to you, and give you this…” he said, pulling a single red rose from behind his back.

“ that’s really sweet of you! Thankyou!” I said taking the rose from him, and placing it on my desk, next to a photo of Nicky and me.

“ And not forgetting this…” he said, pulling me into a passionate kiss. We were interuppted by a knock on my door. I pulled away reluctantly.

“ Who is it!?” I called, through the door.

“ It’s Sarah, uhhhh… Nicky’s in reception for ya. I think he said it was important!” came Sarah’s voice.

“ What’dya mean Nicky’s in reception?” I asked, walking to the door, to speak to Sarah.

“ Well…. he was in reception, but he’s here now…” she said, pointing to the stairs where Nicky had just appeared from, huffing and puffing.

“ Can’t you tell him… can’t you tell him that I’m not here yet!” I asked, desperately trying to find some way of him not finding Shane in my office.

“ Sorry Lu… he’s seen ya!!!” she said, as Nicky made his way over towards us.

“ Hey Sweetie!” said Nicky as he reached me, giving me a quick kiss.

“ Hi Nix, what are you doing here!?” I asked closing my office door, so he couldn’t see Shane.

“ Well, we’ve got the afternoon off today and I was wondering if you wanted to do something with me!?” He asked, pushing away a few strands of hair, from my face.

“ Honey, you know I’d love to…”

“ But?” he cut in.

“ But… well… John’s in a really bad mood with me today, cos’ I got in late… and well, I’ve got a lot of work to do today!”

“ Why don’t you just ask John, he seems a reasonable sort of bloke, I’m sure he’d let you have the afternoon off!” said Nicky, just as John came round the corner.

“ Give who the afternoon off?” he asked.

“ Lucia…” Nicky replied, smiling at me.

“ Yeah sure, why not! Be sure to come in early tomorrow!” said John, disappearing once more around the corner.

“ See, now you have the afternoon off too! So what do you wanna do!?” he asked, smiling like a cheshire cat, obviously pleased with himself!!

“ How about we just stay in, curl up on the sofa together, and then go out with the lads later to a club or something!?” I suggested.

“ Sounds grand! I’ll see you around 2 then!?” he asked.

“ Yeah! Speak to you later!” I replied. He turned round to walk away, but changed his mind suddenly.

“ Lu… I love you!” he said, pulling me into a kiss.

“ I love you too Nix!” I said, pulling away from him and smiling cheekily, “ Now go before Louis kills you!” I added, pushing him off in the direction of the stairs.

“ Ok, ok!” he said, dodging between desks as he ran towards the stairs. As he reached them he turned round, and blew me a kiss. I smiled as he disappeared, and I walked back into my office.

“ Shane honey, he’s gone!” I said, walking towards Shane, when I noticed him holding the photo of Nix and me, on our wedding day.

“ Shane!? Are you ok?” I asked, taking his hand, and gently stroking it.

“ Why did you marry him?” he asked.

“ What?”

“ Why did you marry Nix, when you knew he’d been with other people, almost all the time you were with him, why did you marry him when you knew what I felt for you?” he asked staring intently at the picture.

“ I thought once Nix and me were married, he’d stop cheating on me, that he’d be truly faithful to me. And you only told me of your feelings for me, the night before the wedding!” I said, as the memory of that night came back to me……

~*Flashback*~

I watched as Bryan, Kian, Mark and Nicky headed towards the door, slightly tipsy already. Shane waited until the others had gone out to the car.

“ Shane, take care of Nix for me, and have a good time!! No taking him half way across the country or whatever!! I want him on time to the church tomorrow!!!” I said gathering him in a hug.

“ I promise I’ll look after him!” he said, laughing.

“ Good! Now go on, the others are waiting!” I said pushing him towards the door.

“ Wait Lu… I need to tell you something, if I don’t tell you tonight, I’ll never be able to tell you…” Shane said, his tone serious.

“ Go on then!”

“ Ever since Nix introduced me to you 2 years ago, I’ve had feelings for you… Lu… I love you, not as a friend, but how Nix should love you!” ( authors note: does that makes sense!? ) said Shane. Just at that time, Bryan, walked in and pulled Shane out to the car.

“ Come on Shane, get your bloody Irish arse out here!”

I watched as Bryan pulled Shane into the backseat. As the car drove off, I saw Shane staring back at me………

~**~

“ Oi Lu!… can you hear me!??” asked Sarah, smacking me round my head.

“ Owwww… What did you do that for!?” I asked, rubbing the spot where she hit me.

“ I’ve been talking to you for the past 5 minutes, and all you’ve been doing is staring into space, it was driving me crazy!!” Sarah said.

“ Oh sorry, I’ve got other things on my mind!” I said smiling at my best mate.

“ Do you wanna talk about it?” she asked.

“ Hmmm… talk about what?”

“ What’s on your mind…”

“ It’s Shane… he asked me to… to choose between him and Nix… I don’t know what to do I love them both, what should I do Sarah!?” I asked her.

“ Follow your heart, hun, follow the direction it’s pointing in!”

“ If I knew what bloody direction it was pointing in, I wouldn’t have to ask for your advice!” I said angrily.

“ Well, why don’t you think about who makes you happier, Shane or Nix… you know who I’d go for girl!” I smiled at that, she always knew how to cheer me up, which was why she was such a good friend, even if she was a violent cow!

“ Thanks Sarah! I’m gonna go home now, Nix is waiting!” I said getting up from my seat.

“ Oh alright, speak to you tomorrow then!” she said.

“ Yeah tomorrow.” I replied, grabbing my bag, and after smiling at Sarah briefly before I left.

As I unlocked the front door, I heard the sound of the T.V in the living room, and movement in the kitchen.

“ Hi honey!” I said, as I walked into the kitchen. At the sound of my voice, Nix turned round and smiled broadly.

“ Hey sweetie! Your home early!” he said, wrapping his arms around my waist.

“ Am I? Never mind, that means we get to spend more time with each other… alone!” I said, wrapping my arms around his neck.

“ Hey Nic, are you coming in or what!?” called a voice from the living room, which unmistakingly belonged to Bryan.

“ Yeah Nic, hurry up with them beers!” called Mark.

“ You invited the guys round?” I asked, quite pissed off by it.

“ Not as such, they sort of invited themselves!” he said sheepishly, “ I know you wanted some time on our own, but they are our best mates Lu…” he said, giving me his puppy dog look. I instantly weakened.

“ It’s alright Nix… just let me go change!” I said, heading towards the stairs.

When I reached the top of the stairs, I walked straight to our bedroom. Shrugging myself out of my jacket, I reached into my wardrobe for some “ comfy “ clothes. Half-way through getting changed, there was a knock on the door.

“ Who is it?” I called, quickly pulling on my jeans, and doing up the zip.

Silence.

“ Nix is that you!?” I asked.

Silence. I opened the door to find no-one there.

“ Hello? Is anyone there? Bryan is that you, cos’ if it is I’m gonna kick your annoying Irish arse out of my house!” I said loudly, slightly annoyed that someone was playing games. I walked out onto the landing, expecting Bry to jump out at me from somewhere.

“ Lu… did you call me?” Shouted Bryan from the bottom of the stairs…

“ uhhhh… no Bry… I was just cursing this box, cos’ I tripped over it!!” I said, pointing at the floor.

“ uhhh.. but Lu, there isn’t a box there!” he said, “ is it invisible or something!?” he asked, trying to stiffle his laughter.

“ yeah Bry it’s invisible, just like your brain!” I said, walking back into my bedroom, and slamming the door behind me.

I collapsed onto my bed, tucking my knees up to my chin. It hurt me so much inside, that Shane wanted me to choose. I knew I’d have to someday, because it wasn’t fair on Shane and Nix or on me, but I didn’t want to have to choose.

I closed my eyes, trying to push the thoughts to the back of my mind. I heard the door open and shut quietly, then footsteps walking over towards the bed.

“ Lu… honey, are you alright?” asked Nix, sitting down next to me on the bed, “ It’s just Bryan said you seemed upset about something…”

“ I’m fine Nic, just tired that’s all…” I said, reaching out for his hand, and bringing up to my lips, kissing it softly.

“ You should get some rest then… I’ll leave you to sleep…” Nix said, starting to get up, until I pulled him back down.

“ Stay with me Nix, please…”

“ Ok…” he said softly, lying down next to me on the bed, and wrapping his arms around me…

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