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MISSING YOU

by Lajla

Oh baby, I’m missing you

We used to love so strong

Tell me where did we go wrong

Oh baby, I’m missing you

They say I’ll learn to forget

But it sure ain’t happened yet

A tall, blond man was standing by the window with a glass of Whiskey in his hand, lost in his own thoughts.

“You’re thinking about her again, aren’t you?” – a strong voice brought him back to reality.

“You know me too well, Nicky.” – the man replied, sighting.

“Kian, I know it hurts, I’ve been there. But the pain does go away. Give it some time and you’ll see.” –

Nicky said patting his friend on the shoulder.

“I’m not so sure about that. How do you get over someone like Claire? You can’t, Nicky. At least I can’t.” –

Kian said sadly, looking back through the window.

“Time’s a healer, mate. It really is, no matter how absurd it might seem to you right now. Trust me, Kian.”

- he said gently.

Kian didn’t answer him, he just gave him a smile. He didn’t believe he could ever get over Claire, his one-year girlfriend who left him a week before. And she didn’t even gave him a proper reason why was she leaving, she just said it’s better for both of them. ‘What did she mean by that?’, Kian thought, as he made his way out of the hotel. He needed to get out, he had to try and find her. It was the least he could do. After all, he couldn’t just sit around the room, thinking about her. He knew he had to stop thinking about her eyes, her lips, her shiny hair, her warm heart. He knew it hurt him more thinking about her, but he just couldn’t help it. Whether he was doing a photo-shoot or an interview, Claire kept coming back in his thoughts. He couldn’t even concentrate on anything, whether it was performing, dancing, recording a song, he couldn’t even write a bloody autograph without thinking of her!

Been checking all the places

Where we used to go

Been looking for your face

Inside the crowd

I’ve been talking to the people

That we used to know

But nobody wants to say

Where you hang out

And when I call your phone

Seems like you’re never, ever home

And you don’t return my calls

It tears me up

It’s breaking up my heart

Kian went inside a pub where he and Claire used to hang out. He was hoping he would see her there, but no luck. She was no-where to be seen. Just as he was about to walk out of the pub, he heard a familiar voice calling him.

“Kian! Over here!”

Kian turned around and saw Michael, their mutual friend.

“Hey Mike, how you doing?”

“I’m great, man, how are you?”

“Ah, not so good. Claire left me.” – he said sadly.

“Yeah, I heard that. I‘m sorry, mate.” – he said, cursing himself for asking that question.

“So am I.” – he said looking at the ground. – “Listen, Mike, do you maybe know where I can find her?” – he

said, his eyes full of hope.

“Kian, you know you’re my friend and I love you, man, but she kinda asked me not to say where she is.” –

Mike said, feeling awkward.

“So, you do know where she is?” – Kian said as if he didn’t hear the end of Mike’s sentence.

“Yeah, I do, but I can’t tell you. I made a promise to her. I’m sorry, mate. I know how it feels.” – he said

sincere.

“Seems that although everybody knows how it feels, nobody is willing to help!” – he blurted out, getting a

bit mad, because no-one wanted to tell him where she was.

“Kian, I’m sorry, I……” – Mike was taken aback by his remark.

“Save it, Mike!” – he said turning to the exit.

He knew Mike wasn’t the one to blame, but he had all this anger inside of him and he needed to get it out on somebody.

Oh baby, I’m missing you

We used to love so strong

Tell me where did we go wrong

Oh baby, I’m missing you

They say I’ll learn to forget

But it sure ain’t happened yet

He kept on walking until he reached a small park, where he sat down on a bench. He took out his mobile phone and for the third time that day, dialled the number he knew by heart. Just like those three times before, an answering machine could be heard on the other line.

“Claire, it’s me. Please, call me. I can’t go on like this anymore, it’s tearing me apart. I can’t work, I can’t

sleep, I can’t eat. I don’t do anything except thinking about you!” – he said on the verge of his tears. He took a deep breath to calm down before he started to talk again. He didn’t want to cry. – “Baby, please, can’t we work this out? Just tell me what did I do wrong, and I’ll do my best to make it right! Please, Claire, I’m begging you. Don’t do this to us, you know……” – he couldn’t even finish the sentence, the sound interrupted him, which meant that the limited time for leaving the message was over.

“God damn it!!” – he yelled angrily, throwing the phone somewhere in the bushes. He put his head in his

hands, wondering why did this had to happen to them? They were doing so fine together. What went wrong?

He knew that leaving all those messages on her answering machine and calling up to 5 times a day, wouldn’t make much difference, cos she was never answering and she was never returning his calls.

Slowly, tears started falling down his cheeks, one by one. He never thought he would cry over a girl, but there he was, crying over Claire, the only girl he ever truly loved.

I still have you picture

Hung around my room

They’re the only thing

That’s left of you and me

Girl, what can I do

To make you come back soon

And make it just the way

It used to be

Oh, is there someone new

Could never go on without you

Girl, I don’t wanna think about it

I can’t sleep at night

No, this can’t be right

Come back into my life

He didn’t know how, but he found himself back in his hotel room, sitting on the bed. He put his hand in his pocket, taking out his wallet. He opened it and took out two photos. One was of him and Claire together. Kian always thought she fitted perfectly in his arms. He looked at the other photo, on which was Claire alone, smiling the brightest and most beautiful smile Kian ever saw in his life. He felt as though he could do anything he wanted, as long as he had her by his side. But those thoughts were over, cos he knew she was no longer next to him.

He lay back on the bed, and started thinking why did she leave him. Could there be someone else involved? Maybe she met someone new? Or maybe she just couldn’t take the fact that he was never home, and that they saw each other once a month, if that. He couldn’t blame her for thinking that, but didn’t one year of their love mean anything to her? All those countless hours of them lying in each others arms in front of the TV, enjoying ever minute they had together. Whenever he had even couple of hours free, he would be by her side in a second, if wasn’t too far away from their home in Ireland.

Oh baby, I’m missing you

We used to love so strong

Tell me where did we go wrong

Oh baby, I’m missing you

They say I’ll learn to forget

But it sure ain’t happened yet

Kian started thinking about what Nicky told him earlier. That it would get better with time. Would it really? But Kian didn’t want to feel better without Claire, he didn’t even think it was possible. The only way he could be completely happy again, was with her. How could he get her back? He felt as though he tried every possible way to convince her to come back to him, but nothing seemed to work.

He remembered all those times when they were vowing each other that their love would never end, that they would always be together. Maybe it would be easier for Kian to at least know the reason of her leaving. But then again, maybe it wouldn’t. If she found someone else, someone better than Kian, he would be more hurt. He would be in bigger pain to know that she didn’t love him enough.

But something in his heart was telling him she did love him. He knew that their love would never, ever die. Something as strong as that could never really die. And Kian knew she felt the same. He knew eyes never lie. And all that love he saw in her eyes when she was telling him she loves him, couldn’t be wrong. He felt better thinking about that.

And deep down in his soul, he felt a little hope. A hope that the two of them would be together again. He knew that they would come across each other again, sooner or later. And he was ready to do whatever it takes, to have his Claire in his arms once again……

I know there’s a chance

For you and I

And I believe there’s no way

Our love could die

So no matter how long it takes

I’ll wait for you

And whatever it takes

I’ll be there for you

I’ll be there, I’ll be there

He picked up the phone with a smile, to make one last call before he had to do a photo-shoot. Few seconds later, an expected answering machine could be heard.

“Claire, this is one last call you’ll get from me. Well, at least until you’ll be ready to come back to me. I

know there’s a reason why you didn’t tell me why you were leaving, and I hope when you work out all the things you need to do, you’ll come back to me. And I’ll be right here, waiting for you. You can be damn sure in that. Baby, I love you and I don’t have any intension of losing you. So, I guess I’ll see you in a while, when you’ll be ready. Bye, sweetie, I love you!” – he said and hung up with a smile. He thought about it all for a second. He felt better. He had a feeling everything would be just right. It was only a matter of time.

Just as he was about to leave the room 15 minutes later, the phone rang. Kian picked it up, and smiled at the thought of who it could be.

“Kian?” – the voice he loved so much said……

Oh baby, I’m missing you

We used to love so strong

Tell me where did we go wrong

Oh baby, I’m missing you

They say I’ll learn to forget

But it sure ain’t happened yet

Lyrics: Missing You by Backstreet Boys

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