WestFiction- "I Really Miss You" by Chloe

Kian dialled the same number again, but before the answer machine came on he quickly placed the receiver down. What was he doing? It wasn't any good she wasn't coming back. He sighed as he thought he was going insane. Ever since Jessica passed away a month ago, he'd been in denial. Not quite believing it had happened, he was now sat by himself in yet another hotel room, on yet another westlife tour. Why, why had it happened to him? Why to his lovely Jessica. She was the only person he had ever loved and now she was gone. All his hopes and dreams shattered in an amount of minutes. His future seemed to be disappearing fast and all he could do was watch it go. He thought he was going to go insane, he didn't even have time to say goodbye and he felt guilty. All he had now was memories and that wasn't enough, he needed her. To smell her hair, caress her lips, tell her everything was ok. He picked up the phone in despair and dialled the number once more, he needed to hear her voice, and once again the answer machine turned on. As the message repeated a tear trickled down his cheek. 'You have reached Jessica's and Kian's apartment, thanks for calling, unfortunately were busy right now, please.....' Kian couldn't take it anymore, he slammed the phone down and fell back on the bed and cuddled the pillow. He lay there for what seemed like years, all he was thinking about was how they used too talk for hours on the phone, taking about absolutely anything, he smiled and wiped away the tears.

I'm writing to say - I had a wonderful day

Hangin' with my friends

But the memory dies as the sun reach the skies - I'm alone again

I wanna tell you the weather is fine

When the night comes around you were on my mind

And I wish you were here with me

Don't you know

Kian tossed and turned all night, the nightmares flooding back. He shot up as he heard her scream, sweat pouring down his face. He turned on the bedside lamp and searched his surroundings, thank god it was just a dream. He fell back on the bed shaking. He reached over to the bedside cabinet and grabbed the photo. He admired the picture infront of him. It was taken on their 1st annerversory. His finger traced the outline of Jessica's face. Oh how he missed her. He kissed his finger and placed it on her face. 'Sorry love, I miss you, you know, don't worry, we'll be together soon I promise.' He smiled and climbed out of the bed. He made his way over to the bathroom and switched the light on. He squinted as his eyes adjusted to the light, as his vision came clear, the cabinet came clear. He walked over and searched the cupboard. Sure enough, there were the aspirin. He took the bottle out of the cupboard and walked in the bedroom. He wrote a letter addressed to his family and the guys and slowly took the pills one by one. Slowly his world was surrounding by pain, slowly he started to slip into a world of darkness.

I really miss you

Yes I do - yeah

Shane had been worried about Kian, he knew he was hurting and decided to check on him before breakfast. He gently knocked on the door a couple of times, but there was no answer. He tried the handle and surely enough it opened. He let out a scream when he saw the motionless body lying on the floor. He ran over and saw the pill bottle on the floor next to him. He slapped Kian's face but still no movement, he frantically checked for his pulse but there was none. 'Oh Kian.' Shane let out a sob and fell to the floor. 'Why, Kian wh....' He was just going to finish of the sentence when he saw a little envelope on the bed, he scramble up and grabbed it. Surely enough it was addressed to him and the guys.

Dear Shane, Bryan, Mark & Nicky

Sorry, that’s all I want to say sorry! It's been hard ever since Jessica died and I can't take it anymore, since she's gone, I feel I have gone to. She was my world guys, well apart from westlife and I want to be with her, I hope you respect my wishes. Hope to see you soon you know in heaven

Miss you always

Love Kian

xxxxxxxxx

Shane just sat there as he realised what had just happened, not quite wanting to believe his best friend was gone. 'I'll miss you Kian.' just as he finished his sentence Bryan came running in the bedroom, but stopped still as he saw the two bodies on the floor. 'What the hell?'

I really miss you

Yes I do - yeah

I really miss you

oh yeah I do

I really miss you

Oh yeah I do

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