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WAS IT SOMETHING I DIDN'T SAY by Lajla
Spending
another night alone Wondering
when I’m gonna ever see you again Thinking
what I would give to get you back, baby He
was sitting behind a small table in the corner of a Dublin pub, holding a
glass of Whiskey in his left hand. He was remembering the things that
happened to him in the last year. Just a little over a month ago he had it
all. He was famous, he made his dream of singing come true, he had his
friends beside him, he had money, people loved him, but most of all, she
loved him. She. His one and only true love, his Michelle. And he blew it
all, but the thing he regretted losing most was Michelle. He loved her
more than anything, but he was just the kind of guy who didn’t let his
feelings show. He knew now that was his biggest mistake. I
should have told you how I felt then Instead
I kept it to myself, yeah I
let my love go unexpressed Till
it was too late It
wasn’t that he didn’t love her, he did. He just never showed it that
much. He thought she knew, he thought he doesn’t have to prove his love
for her. But that wasn’t enough to Michelle. She couldn’t take it
anymore. She did love him, but he pushed her away. So one day, she just
left without a word. Just like that. Her leaving broke his heart in
thousand little pieces and shattered all of his dreams and hopes. He quit
Westlife, he couldn’t live one more day pretending everything was
alright, when he knew nothing was alright. He couldn’t stand fake smiles
around him anymore, it made him sick. He locked himself in his house,
didn’t even let his friends or family get near him. The only time he
left the house, was to go to the nearby pub, to drown his sorrows in
booze. It didn’t help much though, the image of her kept coming in front
of his eyes. Her beautiful smile, a smile that could light up the room.
And her eyes……her beautiful green eyes that no-one could help falling
in love with. Those green eyes were the main reason why he fell in love
with her. And her personality……well, she was the greatest person he
ever met. And once, he had all that. It was his. But not anymore, he lost
it all because of his stupid pride. Hell, it wasn’t even a pride, it was
just a fear of letting his emotions show. Was
it something I didn’t say When
I didn’t say ‘I love you’ Was
it the words you never heard All
those words I should have told you All
those times, all those nights
When
I had the chance to Was
it something I didn’t say Bryan
looked up when he heard a door of the pub opening. His eyes grew bigger by
the sight. It was her, his Michelle. She
noticed him, but quickly looked away startled and she was about to go out,
when he got up. -
“Michelle,
wait, please!” -
“What
it is, Bryan? I have nothing to say to you anymore.” – she said, still
not looking at him. -
“Please,
look at me. I still need you, baby.” – he said softly once they were
facing each other. -
“Don’t,
Bryan, please. Just don’t.” – she said sadly, knowing nothing he
says or does will change her mind. -
“Just
give me 5 minutes, that’s all I’m asking.” – he pleaded. -
“It
won’t change anything, Bryan.” -
“Then
you have nothing to lose, have you? Please, just 5 minutes.” She
sat down hesitating. She didn’t think that was such a good idea, but she
was still weak on Bryan, she still loved him. He just looked at her,
without saying a word. -
“I’m
sorry……” – he finally broke down. -
“It’s
too late, I’m sorry……” – she said, tears rolling down her
cheeks. It tore her apart seeing Bryan like this. -
“It’s
not too late! Please, give me another try. I promise I will……” -
“Don’t,
Bryan.” – she said softly putting her finger on his lips. –
“Don’t do this to me now. I’m sorry, but you
should’ve thought about it sooner.” – she said getting up. Bryan
broke down in tears, he couldn’t take it anymore. Michelle started going
towards the door, she couldn’t stand watching her only love in such
pain. But she knew what she had to do. Suddenly,
Bryan looked up. -
“Michelle!” She
looked at him, not sure if it was such a smart thing to do. -
“Just
tell me one thing.” – he started. – “Was it something I didn’t
say?” Always
assumed that you’d be there Couldn’t
forsee the day you’d ever be leaving me How
could I let my world slip through my hands, baby -
“You
still don’t get it, do you?” – she said sympathetically. – “If
you didn’t understand it then, how can you now?”
– she turned around and was just about to step out of the pub when she
heard his deep voice saying- -
“Please,
Michelle, tell me!” – she stopped. – “Just tell me what did make
you walk away?” She
looked at him. She felt so sorry for him, he looked like a little baby,
crying. She walked over to him, sat down, and sighted. -
“All
it took was three words, three little words. I love you. That was all. I
needed to hear that once in a while,
Bryan. I wasn’t sure what you were feeling, and I couldn’t take any
more nights thinking do you love me, or am I just a phase to you.” I
took for granted that you knew, yeah All
of the love I had for you, yeah I
guess you never had a clue Till
it was too late You
walked away -
“I’m
sorry, baby. I didn’t know……” -
“I
know, honey, it’s not your fault.” – she said softly, putting her
hand on his. – “But I can’t pretend everything’s
OK. I have someone else now. Someone who loves me, and who shows his
feelings to me. That’s what I need, Bryan.” – she said crying. He
looked at her sadly, tears making their way down his cheeks. -
“Baby,
just tell me one more thing. Did I push you into his arms?” – he said
looking at her, trying to find an
answer in her eyes. She
looked down. What was she supposed to do? She knew that if Bryan told her
more he loved her, this would never happened. Yes, Bryan pushed her into
Jason’s arms. But she couldn’t hurt him anymore. She looked up, he
looked so fragile. She forced a smile, taking his big hands into her
little, and softly said- -
“No,
honey, it wasn’t your fault. It was me, I needed something different.” Bryan
looked down. He knew she was lying. She had such a good soul, never
wanting to hurt anyone. How could he have been such an idiot to give up on
her? How could he hurt her like that? How? -
“I
better go now. We’ll meet again, maybe.” – she said getting up. –
“I still care about you, Bryan. I honestly
do.” All
the words were in my heart They
went unspoken But
I never let you hear me -
“Michelle,
please remember, no matter what happens……I did love you, even though I
didn’t show it. I still do.
And to be honest, I think I always will.” He
was crying, she was crying. She hugged him tightly, kissed him on the
cheek, and whispered into his ear- -
“I
know baby, I forgive you.” That
was all he needed to hear. To hear that his true love doesn’t hate him.
If he couldn’t have her, that was enough for him. He
watched her walk away from him. Walk out of his life, forever. He
knew now what those people were saying was true…… You never know what
you have until you lose it…… He knew that now…… Lyrics:
Was It Something I Didn’t Say by 98°
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