Why the Curse?

What have i done
To deserve such pain
Have the karmas i have earned
Amounted to something this bad?

A curse so bad that it
Carries to my son?
What did my boy do
To be cursed to be mothered by me?

To never be able to give him anything
And to never be able to keep 
That which is everything to me

Teased by life and teased by love
Watching those around me have what
I am not allowed to have...
How can life be so cruel?

How i wish my son was sent somewhere else
He doesnt deserve the fate of being my son
Deaths sweet embrace would be heaven right now
But i cannot leave, as i am all my little son has...

So i sit in the living torture, living my 
Eternal punishment, and my heart breaks 
Further as i watch my poor son fated to be with me

But its fate's cruel joke, and there is nothing
I can do but watch and wait for my turn for death
To make its visit to me.