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(recipient)  salatina@juno.com
(subject)  Buffydom Submission
(Title)  Chosen
(Author's_Name)  GMB loves Angel
(Part_Number)  Part one
(Last_Part_of_Fic?)  no
(Part_of_Series?)  yes
(Series_Name)  Chosen
(Feedback_address)  objerkan@eunet.no
(Category)  Revisionist
(Keywords)  Spell makes Angels soul permanent. Buffy gets pregnant. Keeps it. Mother finds out.
(Teaser)  Buffy and Angel are having a baby...
(Disclaimer)
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Disclaimer: I do not own any of theese caracteres. They belong to Joss Whedon, who doesn't let them be together.

Spoiler: Season 2 ->

Content: A little sexual content, but I've tried my best to sensor it.

Authors note: Spell makes Angels soul permanent, Buffy gets pregnant...
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At school 

The school day was over, Kendra had left to go back to her own watcher. Willow was the only one left in her class room, which was chemistry. She had been chosen to clean up after an experiment they have had. Suddenly in front of her a man came out of nowhere. Willow jumped backwards at least three times.

- Hi Willow.

- Who are you? How did you get here? What do you want with me? she said with a very
scared voice.

The man held up his hands to show her he didn't want to harm her. He sat down motioned for her to sit down too. She sat down, her eyes not leaving him at all.

- I understand that you are a little scared, but I'm not here to harm you in any way.

- I asked who you are.

- I'm a spirit of destiny.

- Then what do you want with me. I'm not dying am I?

The man started to laugh.

- No, don't worry. I'm not here to tell you any bad news. I'm here to tell you good and to ask your help.

- My help? What do you want with my help?

- I need your help to forfill many peoples destiny.

- Why my help? I'm just a school girl.

- Because you are one of the chosen ones.

- Who are the chosen ones?

- Young people, all with a special gift who are supposed to meet and create a circle of immortal protectors who are supposed to help innocent people.

- Did you say immortal? I might be mortal, but I'm already helping people.

- Yes, but you are supposed to be a part of something bigger.

- Who are the others?

- Your friends, who knows about the slayer and a few more.

- How do you know about the slayer?

- I've already told you, I'm a spirit of destiny.

- But not all of my friends have a special gift.

- You're blind folded. It doesn't necessary mean that it's supernatural, it can be an other gift. Like hatching good plans or other knowledge's.

- I'm sorry.

- Don't be. You couldn't help it. Now, I can't keep answering your questions. It's time you do your share to make this come true.

- What do you mean?

- The helping part. You see. You are one of the keys for this to happen. You are the one to cast the spell.

- What spell?

- The spell to fully restore a soul.

- Why do I have to do that spell?

- Because, around the slayers seventeenth birthday a child shall be conceived of a good and a dark force.

- A child...?

- Don't interrupt me. That child shall be the main key to give all of the chosen ones their gifts. Once the child is delivered, the parents consisting of a slayer and a vampire shall receive their own gifts.

- A slayer and a vampire...? Buffy and Angel!?! Parents? When Buffy's seventeen. You can't ask me to help you make her pregnant even if it's by Angel, I mean... she's to young...

- You're only the one to restore his soul fully, but yes that makes him able to have children. And I can ask you this or a future much worse shall happen.

- What future?

- I'll give you a vision of that future.

The man put a hand on Willows shoulder and suddenly a vision appeared.
 
Buffy and Angel are standing in someplace which must have been his place. Angel is laughing, but Buffy's crying. Then Buffy is lying on her bed weeping. After Ms. Calendar is running through on of the school corridor, meeting Angel who breaks her neck and kills her. Then Buffy and Giles are standing besides what appears to be Ms. Calendars grave. Then the library appears, totally ruined. She and Xander are uncontious and Kendra's dead. Buffy is trying to make her wake up, but then a policeman tries to arrest her. She runs down the corridor. At the end Buffy and Angel are having a sword fight and something happens. Angel suddenly becomes himself and he and Buffy kiss. And then Buffy puts the sword into him and a statue and he is dragged into it. Then at the very end Buffy's on a bus leading out of Sunnydale...

- NO!!!

Willow couldn't believe what she just saw. Could that be the alternative end, no, no way. She looked at him and he just nodded.

- Yes, that's the future I'm trying to prevent because you are all the chosen ones.

- Ok, I'll do it, but do I have to keep it a secret to Buffy?

- Yes or she wont go through with it.

- But when can I tell her? If I'm to be immortal I can't keep it a secret to her for all eternity.

- I know. She is to know when the child is born. Then she gets the gift of immortality and he gets the gift of humanity.

- What about the rest of us?

- You are to continue life until all of the chosen ones are together, then all will receive the gift of immortality. So be careful.

- Ok, I will. Where is the spell? And when shall I cast it?

- As fast you can. We can't take any risks.

- But when will I get it?

- It's in your room, on your desk in an envelope. And so are the ingredients.

- Ok..?

And with that the man disappeared and Willow walked out on the hall with the new knowledge.

A month and a half later
At Buffys house

Buffy lied in her bed asleep. She stood up and walked through a door. And suddenly she was at a party at the Bronze. Nothing made sense. Willow sat at a table, talking to a monkey or a chimpanzee, Buffy wasn't sure. Willow waved at her and smiled, Buffy waved back. Then she turned around and saw her mother. Her mother looked empty at her.

- Do you really think you're ready, Buffy?

- What? Buffy said.

Her mom dropped the plate she held in her hands and turned away. Buffy wondered what the hell was going on. Then she saw Angel and started walking towards him. Then suddenly Drusilla appeared from behind him and staked him.

- No! Angel!

She never got to touch him before he became dust. Drusilla just looked at her and then she opened her mouth and said:

- Happy birthday, Buffy...

Then she woke up all sweaty. She hurried to get dressed so she could go and see if he was ok. All she could hear in her head was Drusillas voice.

- Happy birthday, Buffy... happy birthday, Buffy...

At Angels house 

Angel heard a knock on the door. *Who could it be at this time* he wondered.

- Hold on, he said loud enough for whoever was at the other side of the door.

He opened it and revealed a very serious-looking Buffy.

- Hey, everything ok?

- That's what I was gonna ask you. You're ok, right?

- Sure, I'm fine. What's up?

Angel gestured for her to come in and she did. He put on a shirt.

- Um, I had this dream that Drusilla was alive.

- What happened?

- She killed you, right in front of me.

- It was just a dream. It wasn't real.

- It felt so real.

Angel stroke her face gently.

- It wasn't, I'm right here.

- Angel, it happened before. The dreams that I had about the Master, they came true.

- But still, not every dream you have comes true, I mean what else did you dream last night? Can you remember?

- I dreamt... I dreamt that Giles and I opened an office supply warehouse in Vegas.

- See my point?

- Yeah, I do, but what if Drusilla is alive? We never saw her body?

- She's not, but even if she was, big deal.

- But what if she...?

She didn't finish that sentence, because he kissed her.

- What if what?

- Sorry, were you talking?

She kissed him back. She wrapped her hands around his shoulders. He ran his hands through her hair. Then she broke away.

- I'm sorry, I... um... I have to go to school.

- I know.

She turned around and walked towards the door, but he followed and pulled her around to give her an other kiss. She ran her hand through his hair and the same did he.

- Oh god, you feel.., she moaned.

- You... you have to go to school.

- Right.

She backed towards the door. He followed.

- I know, this is me, I'm going...

They kissed even deeper. She moaned and he started kissing her neck, making her moan again. They gently broke away.

- You still haven't told me what you wanted for your birthday.

- Surprise me?

- Ok, I will...

He gave her a gentle kiss again.

- This is nice, she whispered. - I like seeing you first thing in the morning.

- It's bedtime for me...

- Then I like seeing you at bedtime... um... um... you know what I mean.

- I think so, what do you mean?

- I like seeing you, but the part in the end of the night, where we say good-bye, it's getting harder.

- Yeah... it is...

They kissed each other deeper and couldn't stop. Buffy jumped up and wrapped her legs 
around his waist. He put his hands around her so she wouldn't fall down and carried her towards the bed and lay her down. He continued kissing her. Then he broke away.

- What? she asked.

- You should go to school, we really shouldn't...

- I don't care about school, Angel. I wanna be with you.

- But...

- Stop being mister responsible and kiss me instead.

- Ok, I love you.

- I love you too.

He kissed her again and thought about why he was so stupid and put on that shirt as he took it off. When he had to break off the kiss as he pulled it off, Buffy pulled off her own shirt. Then their mouths found a way back to each other. She really loved touching his muscles. And he ran his hand through her hair and down her cheek as he kissed her. They rolled over to the side and started to unbutton each other jeans. After a few minutes they lied under the blankets, naked. He was very gentle and kissed her, making sure this was what she wanted. It was. 

Afterwards she fell asleep with her head on his chest. He fell asleep hearing her gentle sleeping breath.

It was near twelve o'clock when she woke up. She just made a glimpse of the clock at the table. She rose up quickly which woke Angel up.

- Oh my god.

- What? he asked tiredly.

- It's almost twelve o'clock I've missed more classes than I planned.

- You better go then.

- Yeah...

She got dressed he put on some clothes too. She kissed him good-bye.

- Angel?

- Yeah?

- You know what I said about it being hard saying good-bye in the evenings?

- Yeah?

- It's not getting easier.

- I know, but you better go.

- Yeah...

 At school 

Buffy made a quick stop at the girls room to fix her hair and clothes. Then she went to the library. She was a little blushed, but she could blame it on running to school, if she didn't come up with a better story. Apparently Xander and Willow were talking. She could see Giles in the back at his desk reading something that must have been a very funny book.

- Hey guys, she said, walking in.

- Buffy, Xander started. - I'm amazed you found the difficult path leading to school. Where have you been?

- Um... I overslept.

- Really, for five hours. That's believable. Wouldn't your mom wake you up if you overslept?

- Very funny, Xander. That would have happened if my mom hadn't overslept too. I woke her up when I woke up from a nightmare. Then it was ten o'clock and do you know how long it takes to get ready for school?

- Apparently two whole hours.

- Let me finish. Because of a very vivid nightmare I went to Angel to make sure he was all right. It took some time to tell him about the nightmare and I rushed from him and straight to school. Happy?

Giles looked at her.

- You said you had a nightmare. What was it?

- I... um... I dreamt that Drusilla was alive.

- And...

- And that she killed Angel right in front of me.

- Well that took time to explain.

- Xander, shut up and get over it. I did put in details and it took time for him to get me to calm down.

- Ok. I'm sorry.

The bell rang and Buffy and Willow went for their fifth period. Since it was English class, Buffy and Willow spent it writing notes:

"Buffy, how come you're so red? I mean, do you have a fever or something?"

"No, I don't have a fever. If I had I wouldn't have come to school."

"Then what is it?"

"Well, the story I told you guys in the library isn't exactly the truth."

"What part of it is true?"

"That I went to Angel to make sure he was all right."

"What else did happen since you're so late?"

"Nothing that I can write to you in class. I'll tell you after school. Or at least after class."

"Ok, but you better tell me."

"I will."

The bell finally rang and they went outside.

- Well...

- Well, what?

- What did happen?

- Oh that, I um... Angel and I... um... sort of... slept together.

- What? When?

- Eh.. Will, when do you think?

- Today?

- Yeah.

- Wow, you just...

- Decided it was time.

- Wow, and he...

- Didn't push, well he wanted to... you know.., but he made sure that I wanted to... you know... and I did, so... well, you know...

- Wow...

- Yeah, it was.

- Wow... how... did it... begin, I mean... you didn't just walk in and...

- No... well, we talked about the dream and if Drusilla was alive. I was very afraid, because of the dream and was having a major panic attack... and he kissed me...

- Wow...

- You never stop saying that word.

- No, wow...

- So, I said I needed to get to school and started walking towards the door, he held me back and kissed me again. He didn't want to let me go...

- Wow...

- But then we had to... I backed a little, pulling him after. And I said that I liked to see him first thing in the morning, then he said that it was bedtime for him and then I said that I liked to see him at bedtime...

- You actually did that?

- Yeah... I don't know what came over me, because suddenly I thought to 'hell with school' and just kissed him... and then... you know...

- Oh my god...

 Later 
 At the library 

Everyone were now gathered at the library. Buffy had just gotten back from patrol. She had noticed the boxes the vampires had been moving around. She had also managed to get a hold on a box and noticed that it was an arm. And the arm tried to strangle her. She managed to get the hand back into the box when the vampires did an ambush on her. Luckily Angel had managed to save her, but the boxes and vampires where gone before they could do anything more.

- It was all weird, Buffy started. - Who in the hell would want an arm? 

- I know who and why, Angel said.

- I know who, too, but why I don't know. Tell me.

- He's called the judge. No weapons forged can kill him. It took a whole army to divide him into pieces. If he resembles we're doomed. He can kill just by a touch. He burns the soul, out of your body and kills you. Eventually, when he's stronger he can kill by the look. If he's resembles we really have a big need for an army.

- I've heard of him, Giles said. - Lord help us...

Eventually Xander and Cordelia had managed to find an empty spot where they could make out. Willow heard sounds and went to find out where they cam from. She couldn't believe her eyes. It was like they were ripping her heart out. She ran out of the library. Xander heard it and ran after her. Buffy didn't understand anything until she saw Cordelias lipstick on Xanders lips and cheeks... After she saw Cordelia with her lipstick smudged around her lips.

Willow was really upset. She had had a lot of feelings for Xander. She heard him calling her name and footstep behind her. She turned around and yelled.

- I knew there had to be something. You where fighting way more than normal. I don't believe you. Cordelia? Hello, we hate Cordelia club. I hate you!

- Willow...

Willow ran into the girls room and shut the door behind her. She was crying. 

Buffy had eventually run after Willow and Xander. She heard the yelling and she heard the door bang. She ran passed Xander. She didn't even look at him. Instead she ran into the bathroom. She could clearly hear the sobs of her best friend. It hurt her to see her best friend crying. She sat down and rubbed Willows back.

- I heard the yelling and I saw the lipstick. I'm sorry.

- How could he? I mean, he hated Cordelia and she hated him.

- I know you loved him and that it must hurt. But I don't think it's such a good idea that you sit her for the rest of your life. You have to get over him. There are plenty of fish in the sea. Take the musician, for example...

- You... mean... Oz.., Willow said between the sobs.

- It's obvious he likes you. I can see he checks you out. 

- I hate Cordelia, she's such a snob. I don't know what he sees in her.

- Willow, who knows. She might change. I did.

- What?

- Back at Hemry, I was just like Cordelia. I was even worse. Didn't look at others for other things than what they owned or looked like. If I hadn't been called I would still be like that.

- No, I don't believe it. You are such a nice person.

- Thanks to that I have learned things. I know it's hard, but try to forgive her and him. They can't help it. Find someone who loves you, Willow.

Willow smiled with her face full of tears. The two girls hugged. They went back to the library after Willow had washed her hair. And when they came back into the library, Willow surprised everyone.

- Congratulations, she said to Xander and Cordelia.

Their eyes went wide. Then Willow noticed something funny.

- Eh guys? I think you both should correct your lipstick.

Xander stroke a hand over his mouth and noticed the deep red colour. His eyes went wide. Everybody laughed. Cordelia checked a mirror and almost fainted. She excused herself and headed straight to the bathroom. The same did Xander. After they had come back, Xander said:

- You guys, I think I have a plan...

 Later 
 At the factory 

Buffy crawled silently into the factory. She knew from a dream that that was where Dru and Spike had to be. She was carrying the bazooka with her. Xanders plan went out on blowing the judge into so small pieces that nobody would manage to put him back together, kinda like a Humpty-Dumpty plan. She wasn't alone. Angel had insisted on coming with her. They saw both Spike and Dru, and there were a lot of vampires, more than they could handle. There was also a blue person there, next to Spike and Dru.

- Is that the judge, she whispered.

- Yes, that's him. Do you know how to use the weapon?

- Yeah, Xander showed me.

She quickly armed the bazooka. And then she aimed at the judge. Now he was no longer near Spike and Dru, but she couldn't afford to wait more and she shot. The judge didn't see it coming and blew up into tiny pieces. The factory began burning. Buffy and Angel ran out, but ready with stakes they stopped outside the factory, waiting for the vampires to run outside. So when a vampire came out, Buffy fist kicked him towards Angel who had a stake ready before staking the next one coming out. They never saw Spike or Dru. They knew there were more entrances to the factory, but they had to do the work at one entrance. When no more vampire came out, they started running away. After they had gotten far enough away from the factory they heard it explode.

- That was close, she said, kissing him.

- Yeah, he answered. - Really close.

After they went towards his apartment.

 3 and a half week later 
 At Buffys house 

Buffy rushed to the bathroom to check. No, nothing this time either. Her little monthly friend hadn't come to visit for over two weeks. Not that she minded, it wasn't exactly a thrill when it showed, but something was wrong. She had been a few days late before, but not three weeks. She started to think. What if... no, it couldn't be. She couldn't, Angel couldn't... he had told her himself that he couldn't, but what if... it wasn't like it was totally impossible, they lived on the hellmouth and they hadn't exactly been protected... Could she..? Could she really be... pregnant?

 At the pharmacy 

- I don't know, Will... I mean... it's not like he's able... it's just that I've never been this late before and I'm starting to feel nauseous... maybe it's nothing... maybe I'm just so scared that I make myself believe that I'm sick...

- I know what you mean, but we're here now and isn't it better that we find out?

- Yeah, I guess... I'm just scared, because I'm starting to believe it... and it's scary...

- I know... ok, here we are, which one shall we buy?

- Eh...

Buffy looked at the shelves. It must have been like fifty different types. She never could imagine there were so many.

- Oh, god, how disgusting, Buffy said while reading the back of a test. - It says here that I have to pee on a stick.

- Eugh... this one say the same...

- So does this...

- And this...

- And this, I think they all say the same, I think it's best to check prices.

- This one costs $ 11.95.

- This one, I think it's the cheapest costs $ 9.95, but I only have five.

- I brought more so you can borrow the rest.

- Thanks.

 At Buffys house 

- Will, it should be done now. Can you tell me which colour it is?

- ...Wow... it changed colour...

- Yeah it's supposed to, but into which colour is it? Pink is negative.

There was only silence.

- Will?

- It's... blue...

- Oh my god... please be kidding...

- It's true, you're...

- Pregnant...

Buffy sat down with her hands up in her hair. She checked the test again, hoping it would change to pink. Nope, didn't happen. Willow sat down next to her giving her a supporting hug. Not even thinking about it Buffy put her hand on her belly, just feeling it. It was a baby in there, her baby. Willow hugged her again and started to rub her back.

- Are you going to tell Angel?

- What else is there to do?

 At Angels house 

Buffy didn't knock, but went straight into her lovers apartment.

- Ok, Mr. I-can-never-have-kids, lets see what you'll say to this, Buffy mumbled.

Angel came towards her. He noticed the look on her face.

- Buffy? What's wrong?

Buffy handed him the test. Angel looked like a big question mark.

- What's this?

- You don't know what it is?

- Eh, no... should I?

- Oh, I forgot. This didn't exist back in your time.

- Care to tell me what it is? It looks like a white stick with a blue stain on it.

- Ok, Angel, this is called a pregnancy test. And by the way. It's positive.

- Oh my god...

- Yeah...

- But it's impossible...

- Yeah... you tell the big guys up there...

Angel gave her a kiss on her forehead and just sat there striking her face. Then he wondered.

- Are you all right?

- What?

- Are you... both... ok?

- Yeah.., I think so.., But what are we gonna do?

- I think we should think about it. It's a big decision.

- I know, but what do you wanna do?

- I don't want to push you Buffy, so I suggest that we both think about it and write down what we want to do, hand each other our own note and decide from that. Ok?

- Hold that thought.

Buffy made a dash for the bathroom and threw up the little she had eaten that day. He walked after her and held her hair so she wouldn't get it in the way. They ended up on the bed, where he rubbed her back gentle. She fell asleep with her head on his chest and dreamt sweet dreams Angel continued rubbing the back of his pregnant girlfriend. He thought about the baby. He had always wanted children, but he had been told that vampires can't have children. He had already made up his mind, but he meant that it was completely Buffys choice, since it was her body. He knew that she was young and that a baby would mean difficulties.

 2 days later 
 At Buffys house 

Joyce was recycling the trash. It had started to become a daily thing to do. Buffy wasn't exactly a master to recycle, so Joyce went through the trash once a week to resort it into plastic, paper and metal. She was almost done when she found a box wrapped in plastic. She took off the plastic and put it into the plastic pile and was about to put the box into the paper pile when she saw what it was. It was a pregnancy test box.

 At Angels house 

Buffy and Angel were sitting, part lying on his bed. She had her head resting on his shoulder and he had his hand under her shirt, over her belly. He loved sitting like that and knowing that under his hand there was a little baby growing, his baby. Buffy woke up, slowly. She had been sleeping a lot the last couple of days, maybe because of the pregnancy.

- This is nice, she whispered.

- Yeah...

- Is this how we will be? 

- When?

- When we have our family, or if. Will you love me for the rest of your life?

- Of course I will. What kind of question is that? I can't imagine me stop.

- Just wanna make sure. Because I love you so much that I don't want to lose you.

- You never will, Buffy. I love you and you shouldn't have any doubt of me loving you.

- I just want this moment to be like the rest of our lives. Passionate, loving and intense.

- I want that too. Have you made up your mind about the baby?

- Yeah.., but I want us to agree on it.

- So do I, but I also want us to be able to have our own opinion about it. So we should write it down.

He gave her a pen and a note and wrote down his own opinion. He wrote down: 

"Keeping it" 

and she wrote: 

"Keeping him / her"

They both smiled when they read each others notes. He bent down and gave her a kiss.

 That evening 
 Outside Buffys house 

Angel and Buffy stood in the moonlight. They were about to say good-night, but they had to have one other kiss. Angel bent down and kissed her gently. His hand stroke her face. The moon shined in her hair and made her look more beautiful than ever.

Joyce watched the kiss from the window. So this was the one Buffy was seeing, Angel, the college guy. Did he really go to college. He looked a little older than that. She didn't quite like it. Buffy was a minor and he had slept with her. It must have been him, lord knows how old that test was. She held it in her hands, hoping that it wasn't Buffys, but who was she fooling? The door went up and Buffy came in.

- Hi mom.

Joyce shoved the test to Buffy. Buffys eyes widened.

- Is this yours?

- Oh my god.., Buffy said, shocked and looked at her mom.

- Is this yours?

- Where did you find it?

- I asked, is this yours?

Buffy looked down at her feet, not daring to look into her mothers eyes.

- Yes.

- Buffy, look at me. Is it positive? Are you pregnant?

Buffy barely looked up, when she said:

- Yes.
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