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"ANGEL! Please wake up. I need you. We need you. Please comeback to me. I love you!" she cried........
a year later
It's been almost a year since it happened. Since...you left me. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. That was the night I lost a part of my soul. I felt like I couldn't go on. But I knew that I had to, even though I didn't want to.
Our daughter, what can I say? She's beautiful. She's almost 2. But...you know that. I can tell, she's developing some unusual strengths. I think...I think...I think she's going to be a slayer. Why? Why does she have to be given this duty? You know, every night she calls out for you. "Where's daddy? Where's daddy? When is daddy coming home?" It breaks my heart that she doesn't understand, that she can't understand that you are not coming back.
Oh g-d! I promised myself I wouldn't do this! I promised myself I wouldn't cry. But how can I not? You left me! Why did you leave me? You promised that you would never leave me again. Remember? the night you proposed to me? You promised!
< She raises her hands to her face. Wipes away the tears. Her heart pounds with anger.>
You'll be happy to hear that Xander and Anya are expecting their first child in the winter. Xander is excited, but as usual, Anya doesn't understand the whole pregnancy thing < she chuckles >. Oz left Willow. He didn't give a reason, he just left. Broke her heart. She's been doing nothing but crying. Oh g-d! I miss you so much. I lie awake at night soemtimes, still expecting you to walk in. But, when you don't? I cry myself to sleep. I know I shouldn't, but I still do. Sometimes I think I can hear you, or feel you. Sometimes i feel like I can see you.
"That's because you do." Angel? < he appeared behind her. Dressed in black as usual. Angel walked over and placed his arms around Buffy's tiny frame.> "Yeah baby. It's me. Look-" Oh g-d! Angel! Why? Why did you leave me? I still need you! I'm sorry I couldn't save you from Faith. I should have been with you when you went to see her. Oh G-d I'm sorry.
"Buffy, it's not your fault. You know I didn't want to go either, but...but it was my time. You know that if I had had a choice, I would never leave you or our daughter. You both are my life." Shhh! < She places her finger upon his lips. Brings his head down to hers, and softly kisses him.> "Mmmm....I almost forgot how you kissed. " Forgot? Let me remind you.
"Look Buffy, my love, I was sent here, now before you, to tell you that you are right. Jena? She will be a slayer. A powerful one. She will be the one to rid this world of all the demons, all the vampires, all the soulless creatures. I will always watch over you both. Never forget that. I love you." I love you too. But who will be here to watch her? "Now now, I can't tell you everything. But I can tell you that this wasn't your fault. You are not blamed for my death. If anyone should be blamed, it would be Fait. She's the one tha poisoned me. I cannot let you blame yourself. You didn't know tht she was going to attack me." Oh Angel. I swear I will make her pay. I will find her, and then she's dead.
Angel, I love you, I will find her. "No. Her time will come soon. And when it does? I will be there to make sure she will get what she deserves. But I must go now. Let me give you this first." < And with that Angel hands her a red velvet box. As she opnes the box up, a tear trickled down her cheek.>
Angel whispered into her ear, "I love you. I'll watch over you Goodbye, my love. And just remember, it's not your fault." < Buffy finishes opening the box. Inside, was a silver claddah rig, with a gold heart, and an inscription inside. It read, "I will always be with you. You are my soulmate. -true love, Angel"> Oh Angel! I love it! Angel? Angel?
Angel. I love you. Thank you. Rest in peace. We will be together again. I love you. Good bye. < Buffy kisses the headstone, and places a white rose by the grace. She turns to leave, with Angel's words echoing in her head. "It's not your fault." With that, from heaven, Angel watches her leave. Never leaving her side again.>
