There are just those things that we think are going to "unlock" our child, but they don't..you sometimes think "this is it, if we do it enough they'll get better. Cling to that hope....

How we knew..

I was advised by my pediatrician to seek out early intervention for Cameron around his 2nd birthday..He had only a couple word vocabulary and the words he did know sometimes were lost after a short time. We called early intervention and he was evaluated, he was found to be in need of services due to his delay in speech.
He started speech therapy in June of 2001. The whole experience was something I expected to deal with easily, having a background in Early Childhoood Education. I think what surprised me most was how sad I felt. The guilt and self blame I expected to come, but the sadness really caught me off guard. I felt like I should be happy knowing it wasn't some major problem but even that didn't make me feel any better. I think about how not having the ability to speak affects Cameron and it makes me sad and angry for him. I wonder if maybe I hadn't been so wrapped up in my own problems the first year of his life maybe things wouldn't have been like this. These are feelings that have gotten better over time I think acceptance of the situation has set in and now it is time for me to work and learn all I can about the dyspraxia that has affected my son and our family. I feel now it is my duty to tell people about it , find out all I can and educate my family and strangers about this disability the one I feel has robbed my son of the basic ability to communicate with others. I feel I have learned alot in the last year about myself and about others. I know things I didn't comprehend a year ago like the fact that things do get better over time and that I am not alone in this..unfortunatley there are far too many of us.

No one is alone in this..lean on someone...You have to.