Zycie w Blekicie ver 4.0 - Blue Girl in Snow

Saturday, March 29, 2003

Gah... writing deeply meaningful e-mails late at night hurts. I'm so emotionally upset, I'm curled up on my chair and shaking. Oh wait, that's because I left the window open.
I'm so blue... 10:25 PM

Okay, this is getting silly.

I don't really mind banner ads. Sure, they're annoying, but I can tune them out. I don't mind the large ad that takes up about a third of the screen in my Yahoo mail account - I don't need to find classmates, or lose weight by May 10th, or anything like that, and they're on the right side of the screen so they don't get in the way that much. The movie ads are easily forgotten. Flash? Not particularly annoying, and at least it loads faster than animated GIFs. And Yahoo has a really good spam filter, so it's all good.

But when they start playing a whole freakin' movie trailer, well, that's when it gets silly. And slightly annoying. honestly, a whole trailer with scenes from the movie, and voice-over, and everything. For a moment there I thought I had some kind of funky sound-playing virus on my system, but no, it's just the next step in advertisment.

Memo to self: Do *not* see movie "Core".
I'm so blue... 11:09 AM

Friday, March 28, 2003

Aw, man... The funniest thing happened in english class this morning. I slipped in, and quickly glanced at my neighbour's notebook to see what kind of homework I'd missed... The topic of the chapter we're on (dramatically named "Where will it end?") is science, and the first homework question was "What is the noun derived from cloning?" My neighbor had written "maple" as an answer.

I was very much confused (maple? that's like the tree, and the syrup, and Canada, right?) until I remembered that the Polish word for "maple" is "klon", which is written and pronounced exactly like the word for "clone". Obviously, my classmate had checked an older Polish to English dictionnary where only the "tree" meaning was mentionned, not the "identical copy" one. What's most funny is that about half the class made this mistake.
I'm so blue... 9:49 AM

Thursday, March 27, 2003

Well, everything seems to be turning out fine. No, I haven't rid myself of all my problems - if I did I'd have to check my pulse - but they've become problems that I can deal with, at least in theory. Big trouble at the Anime club; me and Miz are taking tomorrow to sort out a plan of action and put it into motion on Saturday. She's been through some tough times lately too, but she's on top of things now.

Various mid-term exams start next week - still have some time to study and realise fully that if I don't, I'm pretty much screwed. What I need is a squad of heavily armed marines with orders to disembowel me should I ever spend more than half an hour refreshing the MT forums or playing on Neopets, but I guess some moral support from online friends wouldn't hurt either. (hint, hint)

Maybe moving the computer into my room wasn't such a good idea... Ah well. I'll have to learn to get to work despite distractions. About bloody time, too.
I'm so blue... 7:19 PM

Monday, March 24, 2003

Okay Chris-kun, I promise I'll blog more now. ^_^ Thanks for your kind words. We can't meet very soon anyway, so we'll just have to burn that bridge when we get there.
I'm so blue... 5:19 PM

Sunday, March 23, 2003

Nice sunny day today, spring's on the way. Went down to the Uni today to take a walk around the lake, look at the woods, that sort of thing. I have a *lot* to think about lately - all of it very confusing.

The facts are such: There's a guy. He's very intelligent, he has a great sense of humor, and he has the rare ability to mix reality and fantasy while not quite confusing them. In short, he's the third person in the world besides Miz and Egon who I can really *talk to*. Plus he can draw really, really well. Sounds like perfect boyfriend material for me, right?

Here's the catch: I know him over the Net. And as regards those god-forsaken Internet "relationships", I've been there, done that, and still have the emotional scars. It just doesn't work.

I know he lives in Texas. That's halfway around the world, so I can just forget it all and resign myself to having a good penfriend over the Net, right? Wrong. I have an aunt who lives in New York, and she's been inviting me over for quite a while now. I'm grown up now, I have enough money. It would be a simple matter of organisation to fly there, stay with my aunt and arrange to meet my Texan friend at a convention. Without the Net between us, everything would solve itself one way or another.

Unfortunately this plan could only be carried out in summer, after I finish my college term. And in the meantime, my imagination's working overtime and setting me up for a major dissapointment at the very least. I can clearly see where this is going - I'm a Creatrix, after all - but I'm powerless to stop it. It doesn't help that in the occasional role-playing we do, our characters have fallen in love.

The smart thing to do, of course, would be to tell him that the RP situation is making me uncomfortable, or generally stop RPing at all, break off all ties and so on. But here's the thing: I can't do that. Like I said, he's exactly my type of intellectual partner, and even though I realise I'm just a stupid girl obsessing over the words and pictures of someone I've never met, it's all just too much fun to stop. And despite all reason I still hope that he might actually be my soulmate, and I can't give up until I've had it proven one way or the other.

I tried to draw something that would sum up everything I've been thinking about, but all I managed was this little sketch.
I'm so blue... 3:25 PM

Saturday, March 22, 2003

Well I needed to write something or March would be very empty, so I decided to drop by the blogs I've linked (except for Miz and Egon) and find out what's been going on...

Awww, Ribby-chan still remembers me! And she's been following my blog, too, 'cause she knows my Fav Anime of the Moment! ^_^ [lotsofwarmhugs] Glad you thought of me, but the cost of sending the keychain would probably be too big to bother. I'm going to catch a train to Berlin and see if I can find any Detective Conan merchandise... Last time I was there they had loads of Digimon stuff.

Alex-chan might still be reading, since she did the "Which OS are you?" quiz. [hughugs] Good luck figuring out Flash, Alex-chan! I've seen some amazing things done with it.

Meg has already forgotten one of her first fans... ;_; I read her blog every now and then. She sounds a bit like Miz. Poor girl. [also hughugs]

Firefly doesn't write much about me, but then again she barely writes anything at all. [more hugs]

I know Chris-kun *used* to read my blog (there was a really sweet reply to one of my angsty posts on his blog a few months ago), but not anymore. CHRIS-KUN! Gimme a shout if you can hear me!

Rebo-chan only posts once in a blue moon anyway. But her latest post mentions Yellow Submarine! Yay Beatles!

Rebecca-chan... Uh... why did I link her blog again? Oh yeah, I got some hits from her and returned the favour as courtesy. Anyway it's gone now, so I might as well take the link down.
I'm so blue... 11:05 PM

Testing new layout...

Oh good. It works. "Sad Meagen" picture courtesy of Draegos-san.
I'm so blue... 5:13 PM

Friday, March 21, 2003

Finally have my cable back. I breathe again.

February archives and new bishie. New layout soon.

Miz & Egon are back together. I have nothing to say besides "I told you so!".
I'm so blue... 3:26 PM

Tuesday, March 18, 2003

Which OS are You?
I'm so blue... 12:37 PM

This picture sums up my current situation pretty well.

Need to change the BotM... update archive... and think of new layout. I'm bored with this.
I'm so blue... 11:38 AM