Zycie w Blekicie ver 3.0 - Detective Meagen

Wednesday, February 26, 2003

Bah... stuff to do. Problems for Discreet Maths tomorrow, and pictures of fellow roleplayers from the MT forum, and maybe even the legendary long-lost Volume 2 of Codename: SailorM!... Instead, I've just spent all afternoon on Neopets.

Bah. I really know how to avoid any kind of work, that's for sure. My only hope is that Neopets will eventually become so tedious it will start to feel like work, and then I'll drop it. But there's still nethack, and a dozen comics, and half a dozen forums, and...

Geez. Why can't I get my act together? Actually I know why. No, wait, on second thought, I couldn't get my act together before either. So it can't be that.
There is only one truth... 9:48 PM

Thursday, February 20, 2003

Gosh, is tomorrow Friday already? Time sure flies when you get so sick you nearly puke your guts out.

Well, it's finally all over. The exams, the running around, the tons of paperwork, the sickness. All the pain, all the fear is over and I just want to sit back and savour the peace and quiet. Today after lessons, I went for a walk dwon to the lake (and, since the ice was solid enough, on the lake as well), just because.

And there, between the whiteness of the snow and the steel grey sky, I finally found my peace of mind. It's the air that does it - the campus is at the far edge of town, the air there is wonderful. I suddenly felt, well, myslef, for the first time since last Saturday. I can still feel the creative energy surging within my mind - ph34r.

Right now I'm just thinking. I'm thinking about little words and phrases, and the meanings they can have.

"What would I do without you?"

So lovely, isn't it? The little understatement somehow encompasses the whole idea of love - the good kind, the kind that supports and heals, not the kind that envies and destroys. And if there's anything you don't want to hear after this, it's "I guess I'll have to find out".

"If you don't take better care of him, I'm going to steal him away from you."

This not-quite-a-quote from You're Gonna Lose That Girl can be meant as "Take better care of him". But it can also be understood, it seems, as "I want to take him away from you". Words are funny things. Being a Creatrix you come to respect the power of words, but you can't fully understand it until it turns against you.
There is only one truth... 6:58 PM

Wednesday, February 19, 2003

Finally got back home at 4 PM and went straight to bed. Had fever. Slept all afternoon and all night.

I'm feeling better right now, but still very weak. I'll go to sleep early tonight.
There is only one truth... 12:33 PM

Tuesday, February 18, 2003

Urgh. I was really sick tonight. I mean "throwing up every two hours or so" level sick. But I have something important to take care of today, so I had to dress up and go to the uni... and I'm not feeling much better yet.
There is only one truth... 9:35 AM

Friday, February 14, 2003

W00t!

Okay folks, the exams are almost done and the worse-case scenario has been avoided. I still don't know if I passed Algebra, but even if I don't its no big deal, as I'm entitled to one fail. My grades aren't exactly top of the year, but I'm not getting thrown out on my ass, and that's what counts.

Next semester I'll show them all. Especially one certain person who's way too good for it to be healthy. But that's a tale for another day.
There is only one truth... 11:52 AM

Tuesday, February 11, 2003

You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Now if only some cute guys could see this...
There is only one truth... 10:10 AM

Friday, February 07, 2003

Well, just got my new schedule. The system here is that you sign up online with a special code you get in your mail. You also get the date and time when you have to go nd confirm your choices. I missed my confirmation and had to wait 'till the very end, so a lot of the groups for my subject were already full. So I had to switch to the less-poplar groups.

Except those groups were unpopular for a reason. Namely, they got in each other's way. For some strange reason most of the first-year subjects are clumped up on Monday and Thursday, leaving only one on each other day of the week. So now I have lectures in Operating Systems and Discreet Mathematics at the same time on Thursday. Gonna have to find someone to swap notes with.

And of course, they tell me it's my fault, because I missed my confirmation time. How about making a reasonable timetable in the first place?!
There is only one truth... 12:17 PM

Wednesday, February 05, 2003

Two exams tomorrow morning, one after the next. I won't be home 'till about midday.
There is only one truth... 9:00 PM

Tuesday, February 04, 2003

Yoda was wrong!

If anger leads to the Dark Side, I can only say "bring it on!". I only have enough anger in me for about five minutes, more if I listen to the right music. And I have even less hate. But I don't think I'd make a good Jedi, because I don't like religion or any similar fictional bullshit. Which brings us to the topic of today's anger.

Unlike those Jedi wussies I'm proud of my anger. It lived only a short life, but I will treasure it always. It gave me courage to say things which needed saying. I guess I'm lessening the impact a bit by posting here and admitting I'm not angry anymore, but I was angry. And hurt. I'm still hurting, but with the present data I think I can say I did the right thing.

I may be wrong, of course. I'm always open to that possibility. Not considering you might be wrong is a trait of religion. Can't trust yourself with religion, it's always trying to sneak up on you.

But right now I did what I should, and unloaded a whole lot of anger in the process. I'm always amazed how much better I feel after being angry. I tell you, don't listen to Yoda. Anger, like sexual feelings, should not be repressed: They should be carefully let out at every opportunity.

Okay, I'm blabbling now, time to end the post. Just to confuse everyone even more here's my motto of the day: "Give me the strenght to change what I can, the courage to bear what I can't change and the wisdom to hide the bodies of those that pissed me off."
There is only one truth... 11:57 PM

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