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See what I once was. Laugh if you want. No, really, it's okay. I can't help laughing myself when I read some of these.
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Sunday, December 31, 2000 Blogging is good. Defining your problems and putting them down in front of you makes it easier to find an answer, and it's nice to know that someone might actually read this. I'm feeling slightly better now, but I'll take that nap anyway.
I'm feeling depressed again, lonely and bored. And hungry, too. I think I'll eat lunch and then have a nap or something. Alex-chan, that's a good idea! Do you think it would be better to use my FortuneCity account or the Geocities one? And good luck with your manga. I can see it now, Pomegranate on-line. I've been browsing around Beatles sites and read up on Ringo's biography. Quite frankly, I'm almost frightened at the thought of writing She loves you, that fic where Sailors T, G, D and M go back in time to rescue the Beatles. I just don't know how to tackle the subject. I'm covering my tracks up a bit by saying I'm using the characters from the Hard day's night movie, and not the real people, but some bits of their biographies will have to be slipped in. On one hand it would be safer to just make the band a bunch of cardboard cut-outs in the background and let my characters take over the centre stage, but that would defie the purpose of the story. But elaborating the Beatles in any way carries a high risk of getting them out of character, and that just wouldn't do. It will be really hard to write a credible, serious plot (although it's easy to be credible when compared to Help!), and harder even to find the right brand of comedy to top it off. But I want to write that story so much. What have I gotten myself into? Well mum's gone to her friends to celebrate and I'm left home to have some serious fun. She said "I'm taking a Beatles CD". After making sure it wasn't A hard day's night I said, "Well then, you're gonna party like it's 1964!"
Friday, December 29, 2000 [Ponds NBCi in frustration] Dammit!!! Let me have those Kamis already!!! When I download a 1,5 MB file, it gives me the first 200 KB. When I try a 300 K file, it gives me 15 K. AGH!!! They're doing this on purpose I tell ya!!! Other than that, I am in a foul mood due to lack of sleep and still don't know if Meg and Firefly got the Christmas presents I sent them yet. I'll write something longer when I'm feeling better. See ya. Wednesday, December 27, 2000 [After reading Unicorn Jelly episode Water from a Stone] Geez. The Red Cross, she ain't. [After From Water to Air] Monday, December 25, 2000 Get well soon, Alex-chan! It's terrible to to be sick right at Christmas. Meg, Firefly, did you two get your presents yet? Yay! Snow's here! Merry Christmas to all, especially some people, you know who you are! ^_^ Here's what I got: And the kid upstairs obviously got one of those electronic piano things that play London Bridge and Oh My Darling Clementine in highly annoying, squeaky tunes with half the scale missing. I hope they send him to bed soon or I won't be able to sleep. Saturday, December 23, 2000 I got the "A Hard Day's Night" CD! ^_^ <--- happy happy sugar mode Finally, I won't be forced to turn on the VCR to hear all those cool songs! (Early Beatles rule) There's I just want to dance with you. A good "Prince Endymion to Princess Serenity" song. Lyrics, please: Before this dance is new I think I'll love you too I don't want to kiss or hold your hand There is really nothing else I'd rather do I don't need to hug or hold you tight In this world there's nothing I would rather do Before this dance is new I think I'll love you too If somebody tries to take my place In this world there's nothing I would rather do Before this dance is new I think I'll love you too If somebody tries to take my place In this world there's nothing I would rather do And there's If I fell in love with you, which Lucas will be singing soon. Who to? Time will tell. If I fell in love with you 'Cause I've been in love before If I give my heart to you If I trust in you If I love you too So I hope you see So I hope you see Poor John died before I was even born... Hey, I might be his next incarnation! I didn't really get any flashbacks or anything yet, but if I read up on his biographies long enough and get myself hypnotised a few times, something is bound to spring up. And that nut who tried to kill George was found not guilty because of being insane. They ought to lock him up and throw away the key. I told my boyfriend-turned-pal "You know, someone tried to kill Harrison lately." He says, "What?! Harrison Ford?" I said, "No, George Harrison." "Oh, that's okay then." He's trying to annoy me, y'know. I'll cry instead is a good song for Shael. I'll put the lyrics down some day. Hey Meg-chan! Did you get my e-mail? If not, I need an adress that works!
Friday, December 22, 2000 Yay! I've passed the first stage of English "Olympiada". I don't know if they have anything like it in the US. Literally translated to "Olypmics", it is a series of extremely difficult exams on a given subject (like English, Math or Biology) in three stages: school stage, region stage, province satge (making up translation as I go along here!). It's much more advanced than what you usually do in school (like I need to know perfect British grammar, vocabulary, as well as history, litterature and culture of Britain AND the US), but if you pass it, getting into college is much easier. Oh, and in case you were wondering, it's not obligatory. I've already passed the "younger" version (a "Konkurs", or "contest") when I was in [the equivalent of] Junior High, and it granted me entrance to the best high school without exams. Right now I got 47 points out of 60 in the school exam. Best mark out of the 40-or-so students from our school who applied. There's another girl who passed along with me. I'm learning about Britain's history and economy right now. I seem to be curiously stuck on page 59 of Spotlight on Britain, entitled "Liverpool and the Beatles". Un-canny. And besides that, I'm getting to know the 41 American presidents (the book I got is a bit outdated). Thursday, December 21, 2000 Mum's watching Independence Day. Apparently some aliens have decided to attack America, again. It involves a lot of model skyscrapers being slowly shaded up to build up dramatic tension, or possibly to stop the very cardboard characters from getting sunburn, whichever works. I've been riffing away for the first half, but I think I'll go to sleep now and just tell Mum to say hi to the guy named Lucas for me. I've been on a naming frenzy lately. My computer was already Elek (mark II, not you Mark), but now I also have a mouse named Jerry (Tom & Jerry) and a printer named Monica. My mini-tower is called Arthur (in A Hard Day's Night there's a scene where a reporter asks George Harrison: "What would you call that hairstyle you're weraing?" to which the guitarist deadpans, "Arthur"). My walkman is Ringo (now I can say he's always with me). My scanner's giving me a bit of trouble, but I think I'll settle for Cameron. I was listening to Ringo before History class yesterday. The teacher came up and said, "What's that you've been listening to?" I said, "Beatles." Tonight, especially from 3 AM I've been having periods of sleep and wake. Or maybe I was just dreaming that I was awake? Anyways, the part of the dream I do remember was a lightsabre battle between me and someone else. I dunno who he was, but he didn't look particularly sinister, and I wasn't feeling very evil either. My blade was blue and his was green. It must have been some misunderstanding. I hurt him a bit but was so frightened I ran away, so I don't know if he died or what. I'll finish this post with a quote from Magnesse looking at Meagen's sketchbook: "Hey, that one wasn't there a minute ago!" Sunday, December 17, 2000 I've spent the weekend at my mum's friends' new house. When we were on the way there it snowed. Although it's all gone now, it's offically the first snow this winter. About damn time, too. Let's just hope there's some snow for Christmas - the class my mum teaches makes jokes about upcoming Easter. The weather's just been like early spring lately. Spring after summer with no winter inbetween - I call that a major rip-off. All thanks to the miracles of global warming. Anyway, about the house. Some furniture is still missing, but it's really lovely. To quote Winnie the Pooh, "It's a beautiful HOUSE, tiddely pom, I wish it were MINE, tiddely pom". To quote further, "In fact, Christopher Robin, quite-between-ourselves-and-don't-tell-anybody, it's Cold." We arrived early afternoon. The central heating, working it's way up one degree each hour, would take too much time to heat it up properly before the night. Fortunately there was also a good ol' chimney, and a nice fire got the place warm in no time. Well, this weekend, although cold and snowy, was peaceful. Out in the middle of nowhere, it was really wonderfully quiet. I finally made some pics for volume 3 of C:SM. I'll get this off the ground yet. I really need to update my site, too - average daily visits have dropped from 20 to 3 lately. I'm revamping the "my work" section and worrying what to put in there. It seems I have too many ideas and do too little actual writing. I need to get back to rating, too. It seems even Alex can't dish out any reviews right now, and no-one else gives me any unasked, except for Ribby. I hope buisness picks up once Firefly's new archive is up. Oh, and Alex? Maybe you should make an on-line manga insetead of a commercial one? Just an idea. Thursday, December 14, 2000 I'm now officially free. No, I wasn't dumped, thank goodness, mostly because I never was taken in the first place. More specifically, my technically-not-quite-a-boyfriend has been degraded to Best (Male) Friend and Old Pal. Which simply means I will stop my pathetic attempts to hit on him and just talk to him a lot, which is what I do anyway. Coming back from my anime club this evening I suddenly got the blues. There simply aren't cute, well-dressed guys who can sing well these days. There are no Beatles. All the bands either look like idiots, sing like cats, or both. There might be intelligent and cute guys available, but the way I spend my life in front of the screen, I'll never meet one and end up old, lonely and ugly. I tried to think about something to do but nothing help any appeal. "I'd jump into the river Mersey, but it looks like rain", to quote Ringo in Yellow Submarine. Whoa, hold on, I told myself. Not In Mood For Anything sighted. Depression alert, possible drop in happiness ahead. Suggest going to bed early and a change of air tomorrow. By the time the bus arrived, things were looking up again. Now I just feel tired, not sad. I mean, I'm still young, I'll find a boyfriend yet. Although right now, a good night's sleep is what I really need. Monday, December 11, 2000 At first I thought that if I were Leia, I wouldn't want to have that dopey little blond beatle-wannabe from some backwater planet as a brother anymore than I'd want Vader to be my father. But on second thought, I realised that it was either this or having him as a love interest. I think I'd accept Luke as my brother and even Vader as my father if Han Solo as my love interest was included in the deal. Jake and I made some pseudo-MiSTing, especially in the Vader/Luke fight sequence in Return of the Jedi. Vader [on-screen]: You have a sister. Your feelings have betrayed her. If you do not, maybe she... I am currently surprised and very shocked. In one post on the Kamishibai message board, Shael's darker side was suddenly revealed. Just a few weeks ago I thought I'd seen his sad, depressed face. But now it seems it was just a facade, a trick to gain someone's sympathy, or rather force it out. On the other hand, his explanation seems consistent enough. Of course, I've never met him in person, and being the wonderful judge of character that I am, I might as well flip a coin to find out what he really feels. Why does it seem everyone I know is somehow depressed and unhappy? Are we living in such a dark age? Or is it just that I've had an unusually happy childhood? It is true that my mother has been good to me - maybe even too good. She raised me with love, gave me everything I truly needed in the physical and mental departament. She still supports me as her daughter, listens to me when I have a problem, gives me her valuable advice, helps me get through the ups and downs of growing up, and respects me as a human being. I don't care if it's childish of me, I love her with all my heart. My mother and my childhood are a gift to me, a gift I am only beginning to appreciate. And I feel that I have to do something to pass this gift on. That's why I smile when I walk down a street, even if none of my friends are there. That's why I'm always trying to cheer people up. That's why I offer sympathy and a shoulder to cry on even to complete strangers. That's why I picked up the bat in the street. It's because I can't leave anyone or anything unhappy if there's something I can do. A little off-topic introspection there, but after all, this is the right place for it. Meg-chan and Firefly. From what I've read in their blogs and the MB, I think they're on their way to becoming really close friends. It seems they are similar in some ways and complete opposites in others. They can talk for hours and probably discover new similarities and differences all the time. I really hope I'm right about this. It could be a wonderful thing for the both of them. A really close friend, someone to share your life with. Someone much closer even than a lover. Just like Magnesse and me. I know what I'm saying here, I have nothing against lesbians but the thought of me kissing another girl freaks me out. And still, there's a kind of deep understanding between us. We've been in France together this summer and have once stayed awake 'till four AM, just talking. She knows a lot more about people and making friends than I do. Thanks to her I've matured a lot. That's quite enough deep psycoanalisis stuff for now. To finish on a more cheerful note, here's my newest work: Sunday, December 10, 2000 It's currently 3:40 AM Middle Europe time, and I've been through a Star Wars-a-thon. Mom was visiting my pal Jake's parents and he didn't have any good computer games on hand, so we settled for eps 6,4 and 1 (in that order) instead, subbed into Polish. It's the first time I've seen the movies, and they're actually quite cool. Of course, I practically knew half of them already from countless articles, crossover fanfics and parodies I've read... I've been trying to read Polaris: Rebirth. I have already done the following: My granmother just came in asking me to go to sleep. It just seems like she'll go to the trouble of waking up at three in the morning just to annoy me. Okay, so actually she's worried about my homework, and she got up to go to the bathroom anyway. I know that she's only nagging me about things because she cares, but it's still annoying. One evening, she stormed into my room and demanded that I turn down the music or I won't be able to get any sleep. Truly a noble cause, but was that really such a good reason to wake me up? Friday, December 08, 2000 Blog blog blog. Blog all day long. Blog blog. I've been reading "The Book of Hoaxes". It's really cool. I wonder how many X-files fans know that Deep Throat was actually an "inside source" made up during the Watergate incident by Alan Abel. This man's other creations include the fake Society for Indecency to Naked Animals, "Yetta Bronstein" - Jewish grandmother running for President of the US in 1964, and a movie called Is There Sex After Death?. I finally managed to somewhat plan out Codename: SailorM. Chapter 3 will contain the vampire bat incident. (I'll need some help with the special effects... I think I'll ask Karthokrinden or Shael.) Chapter 4 will have Chris' cameo (with obligatory nosebleed). Chapter 5 gets the Beatles refrences. I'll need to squeeze the base plot in there somewhere. And of course, the random pointless gags. ::Kicks OW:: Dammit OW!! Update chapter 2 already!! ::Kicks NBCi, formerly known as Xoom:: Dammit NBCi!! Gimme those Kamis from Alex's storehouse!! And let me in there through ftp!! And for that matter, let me catch you on cable again so I can watch Jay Leno!!! ::Kicks Alex's email:: Dammit email!!! Let Alex have part 2 already!!! ::Kicks Alex:: Whoops!!! Sorry!!! Got carried away there... ^_^' Remember folks, multiple exclamation marks (not you, Mark) are a sure sign of a diseased mind!!!! I better stop writing now before a fifth one comes along... And my foot hurts, too. Sorry again, Alex-chan!!!!! Thursday, December 07, 2000 Hah! Just as I thought. I'm too lazy to make regular updates to this blog thingie. Don't I know myself well? This week our class has duties in school. That means several people get time off to help at the library, cloak-room, and assorted school type stuff. I got the whole-day (7.30-15.30) shift for the cloak-room on Tuesday. With a walkman and two cassetes full of Anime and Beatles music, it was a breeze. Plus I was free from classes. ^_^ Firefly! You read my entry? (Duh) Well that's one problem out of the way. I'll be mailing you soon. Although the Angel bit won't appear until chapter 6 at least. And just to clarify - in C:SailorM proper, you're alive and well, and in love with Lucas. (As per Meg-chan's instructions.) However, in one episode, there will appear "alternative universe" versions of Lucas and SailorM. It's in that universe that you're dead. And now, as promised, an insight into my tastes in fictional male characters. First, some general points: I like: The shy and quiet type that blushes when a girl is too openly interested in them. Boys drawn by Meg-chan. The "Second Banana" and "Sidekick" type characters. Those who are abused, put down and generally misunderstood. Those who have a sense of humour. I dislike: Gay guys. It's not that I have anything against homosexuals, it's just that if a guy doesn't like girls, there's really no point in chasing him with intent to glomp, is there? I also dislike extreme types of "shy and quiet", namely Spineless Wimps and Mentally Retarded, as well as 'hentai's and characters from overall dark series. Spider from WT Saga is a good example of a "shy and quiet", "second banana", "drawn by Meg-chan" character. It was him who caught my attention rather than the hot-tempered Tiirak or the sophisticated wuss Faustus. In the early era of the Kami Korner my Net-person had much fun screaming "KAWAII!!!" whenever he showed up. Ah, those were the days. ^_^ Spirou, a character from a French comic series, is just before Spider on my Kawaii-list. "Shy and quiet" (at least with girls) is the key in this case. He's actually the main hero, but his much-put-down sidekick friend Fantasio is also quite ecchci, and not drawn as particularly attractive. Anime guys... I haven't seen a lot of Anime, actually. Shinji falls right into "Spineless wimp from dark series". Mamoru is, well, too unrealistic in the manga, too bland in the anime. (I often say that all guys are either jerks, gay, or taken - he's all three. Well, sorta. "Gay" in his case rather as "girly-boy" than actually homosexual.) But there are two hunky beefcakes with whom I'd go out any day of the week. Both in the same series, too - I'm talking about Ranma and Ryouga. Well, in Ranma's case, it's more the chara design than anything else. (And only in the OAV's and movies. TV series Ranma is not cute enough.) But Rouyga is sooo sweet, going "shy and quiet" whenever Akane's around... Actually, I could almost hate Akane. Those two hunks are in love with her, and she regularly abuses one and treats the other as just a friend. Like I said, almost - there's something about her that triggers my sympathy because it reminds me of what I used to be like. But that's another topic for another rant and another time. Moving to more flesh-and-blood guys (although still on screen), we have "Singing in the Rain" - my all-time favorite movie, which I unfortunately didn't manage to tape. The main character's best friend, who did NOT make it big in movies but didn't make a fuss over it is cool in my book. "Second banana" and "sense of humor", case and point. (In the movie, it was his idea to record a different actor's voice, thus inventing dubbing. He also did the great "Make'em laugh" song&dance number.) Then we have Ringo, John, Paul and George, characters from the movie "A hard day's night", played by the respective Beatles. The shy, quiet, often-put-down Ringo, is as you can easily guess my favorite. He reminds me of a little lost doggy that you want to take home. Finally, Lucas Hathaway. Lucas doesn't actually fill many points from my "yes" list, other than being drawn by Meg-chan. But it's his blue hair that caught me. And he's straight, too. Being from a dark series is actually an advantage in his case, since I can shamelessly use him in my own comedy series that makes fun of "Angel Hunter". And you know what the best thing is? The owner of the series that I'm basing my fanfic on e-mails me saying that she likes it and wants me to make more. There aren't many fanfic authors around who can claim that. Sunday, December 03, 2000 I've been reading Meg's blog. Some of the stuff there is scary. Okay, so for me, someone in a weird costume jumping out and going "boo!" is scary, but never mind. I don't like darkness. I'm not fascinated by it. It just plain scares me. Making fun of everything dark is a defensive reacion on my part. "The Summoning", my first Kami spoof, was written after WT Saga 3. "Codename: SailorM" draws, of course, from Angel Hunter. Both Meg-chan's works. It has always amazed me how her cute, almost SD art clashes with the dark content of her stories. I wonder how "Magical Girl Deena SweetHeart" Would have turned out... I asked Meg to draw the art for me not long after she first arrived on the Kami MB. Things just happened otherwise. Okay, let's see now. How am I supposed to ask Firefly to tell me what I need to know? "Say, in one episode of SailorM I want to put in two people from an alternate universe where Lucas as an angel, Meagen as a demon, and you're regretfully dead"... No, I don't think that works. "Look, I need some info on angels in Angel Hunter, for, um..." I guess it's true what they say, dying is easy, comedy is hard. Friday, December 01, 2000 That takes care of the blog backlog. Now, for the recent events. I've finished all 400+ episodes of Freefall! It's really great. I'll have to add the link in here sometime. It's a really cool comic. I still need a catchy title for my own comic (the Sailor Senshi one), but I've already started on the images. I plan to have at least 20 eps ready before 2001. I'm launching the site in January. See you there! One of these days I'm going to post a little analisys on the cute and fictional guys I like. Good morning, Good morning... |
