If You Hate Me...

<body topmargin=0 leftmargin=0 marginheight=0 marginwidth=0> <table cellpadding=0 cellspacing=0 border=0><tr> <td valign="top" colspan=2 height=100 BGCOLOR="#CCCCFF" TEXT="#080000" bgproperties="fixed" background="04400640egdysm.jpg"> <div> <FONT SIZE="5" COLOR="#000066" FACE="Arial" ><B>Ana Angels</B></FONT><FONT SIZE="5" COLOR="#000099" FACE="Arial" ><B> </B></FONT><B>    |     </B><A HREF="index.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Ana Angels"><U><B>home</B></U></A></div> <div> <A HREF="id18.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="About Me"><U>About Me</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id19.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Tips And Tricks"><U>Tips And Tricks</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id20.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="BMI (body mass index)"><U>BMI (body mass index)</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id22.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Exercise and Meal Plans"><U>Exercise and Meal Plans</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id23.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Thinspiration"><U>Thinspiration</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id24.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Writings"><U>Writings</U></A>   |   <A HREF="id25.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="What NEVER To Do"><U>What NEVER To Do</U></A>   |   <B>If You Hate Me...</B>   |   <A HREF="id27.htm" TARGET="_top" TITLE="Letter from Ana"><U>Letter from Ana</U></A></div> <div> </div> </td> </tr><tr> <td valign="top" width=200 BGCOLOR="#0000BF" TEXT="#F7F7FF"> <bR> </td> <td valign="top" height=380 BGCOLOR="#FFFFFF" TEXT="#080000"> <div> <I>If You Hate Me...</I></div> <div> The best way to get in touch is via e-mail to <A HREF="mailto:kdixon@austin.rr.com" TARGET="_top" TITLE="mailto:kdixon@austin.rr.com"><U>kdixon@austin.rr.com</U></A> .</div> <div> Please don't flame me. Give me constructive criticism or nothing. Do you really think if you e-mail me saying; </div> <div> "YOU ARE SICK!!!!! YOU NEED HELP!!! YOU'RE PROBABLY JUST SOME FAT WOMAN JEALOUS OF ALL THE SKINNY GIRLS OUT THERE! GET A LIFE!!", I'm really going to care or even bother reading it? However, if you e-mail me something like this: taken from Fat Like Me ( http://www.lunarpages.com/jaoi/index2.html ) I'll be more apt to read it.</div> <bR> <div> "Dear Jaoi, </div> <div> I found this site disgusting, disturbing, and sad. You are obviously a very sick person, and I pity you. </div> <div> I am a recovering anorexic/bulimic. I also have a sister, a cousin, and several friends who suffer from eating disorders. And I met many other people with eating disorders when I was in the hospital recovering from my anorexia/bulimia. So when I saw pro-Ana sites mentioned in the news / on a talk show / in a magazine, I had to write to you at once. </div> <div> I used to purge and starve myself constantly. I was depressed and sad and lonely all the time. I had no friends and my hair was falling out. I was also suicidal. But now I love life. I finally realized that I'm special and I deserve happiness, and I'm proud to say that now I love my body just the way it is and that every day is a beautiful gift. </div> <div> My sister and my best friend and a really skinny girl in the hospital all died from their eating disorders, and I almost died myself. If you knew that things like this could happen then you wouldn't be promoting such behaviors on your site. How can you live with yourself knowing that you're responsible for the deaths of young girls who come to visit your site? Plus, you don't know how much damage you're causing your family and their families and everyone else in the world who's ever known anyone with an eating disorder. You should feel terrible. How can you cold-hearted bastards live with yourselves? </div> <div> Eating disorders are a weakness. If you were stronger then you'd be okay. All you're doing is making yourself more and more pathetic. You're also encouraging my loved ones and other impressionable young girls to become weak. Pull yourself together already, there's no room for weak people like you in this world and we don't want you here anyhow. You may think you're somehow strong for having these disgusting behaviors but really it's just the opposite. Eating disorders control you, and you're too pathetic and sick to control yourself. </div> <div> Why would anyone be stupid enough to kill their bodies and starve their souls? I can't understand you people. Just eat something already and stop acting so dumb. There are people starving to death in the rest of the world, how could you be so vain and shallow to starve yourself while they are begging for crumbs of food? Stop being so selfish and shallow in your futile, thoughtless attempts to starve yourself on purpose. You should be ashamed of yourself, and feel horrible guilt for the ones who are really starving instead of making disturbed decisions not to eat. </div> <div> You make me sick. Nobody cares if you're thin or fat or anywhere in between, and nobody cares about your pointless whining for attention. Why don't you just shoot yourself and rid the world of one more worthless waste of space? You obviously have no real problems. I certainly won't give a rat's ass if you starve yourself to death because there are people all over the world who actually struggle (something of which you know nothing about) to stay alive. </div> <div> You are killing your baby. And if you're not, you should be, because you are clearly unfit to raise a child. How could you subject an innocent new life to such a sick, unhealthy environment and such a disturbed, selfish, heartless mother? For your baby's sake I hope he dies before you can do any more damage to him. If you had any conscience you would kill him yourself and save him from a miserable, wretched, utterly hopeless existence. You monster. How selfish. </div> <div> It's all just in your head. You're making up all these so-called problems because you have nothing better to do, and it's up to you to change your mind. Stop choosing to have an eating disorder and everything will be okay again. You're definitely a few crayons short of a Happy Meal to want an eating disorder. If you could only understand half as much about yourself as I do, then you would be able to stop thinking this way and become mentally sound. Remember, it's all in your head and therefore doesn't really exist. </div> <div> Nobody can help you but yourself and it's up to you to take control of your own life. Stop blaming your parents, the media, society, these web sites, or anything else for your disease. Stop whining, stop sitting around feeling sorry for yourself, stop wanting attention, and stop expecting someone else to save you because none of that is going to happen. If you really value your life, you have to learn how to take responsibility for yourself, your behavior, and your actions. Only you have the power to help yourself; you just have to want to badly enough. </div> <div> You're sick, and you need to get help right away. You need to see a doctor, find a shrink, talk to a priest, read several self-help books, check out my favorite healthy-living web site, join a therapy program, and be committed to a hospital before another minute passes. You may think your eating disorders are a choice, but they're not. They're a disease and if you don't get professional help then you could be dead in an hour. </div> <div> God made you perfect, and He loves you just the way you are. It's wrong to hate the body God gave you, because God doesn't make mistakes. Your body is just temporary; only your soul really matters, and when you have an eating disorder you're killing your soul. You could even go to hell. God hates sinners, you know. Finding God saved my life, and it could save yours as well. </div> <div> Being skinny is not attractive. It's dangerous and weak and unhealthy, and you could die from it. Of course, being fat is not attractive either. If you really don't like the way you look, then do something about it with healthy "good" ways instead of unhealthy "bad" ways. Eat moderately-sized healthy meals, avoid carbs, don't eat fatty foods, drink lots of water, and get plenty of exercise. Anyone can starve themselves and puke, that's too easy. It's much harder to stay slim through healthy diet and exercise, and if you can do that then it's really something to be proud of. Besides, if you stop eating then your body goes into starvation mode. Which means that you won't lose weight and may even get fatter! Obviously people who don't eat will not get any thinner. I'm normal, so do what I do and you'll be just right without putting your health at risk or becoming an ugly bag of bones. </div> <div> The media has done this to you by showing only images of skinny, perfect, airbrushed women. That isn't real life and you should stop thinking that it is. The fashion world is sad, disgusting, and unrealistic and lots of the pictures are computer-altered to make the girls look thinner than they really are. Don't compare yourself to them and don't try to be like them... you should just be yourself, and people will love you for who you are. If they don't, then it's because they've been brainwashed by society as well and you should just tell them that, so they too will be able to get better and realize that actresses and models aren't really as pretty as a normal everyday woman. </div> <div> Boys don't like really skinny girls. I should know, because I have a boyfriend who says that skinny girls are ugly and once I was a boy myself. You don't have to starve yourself to find a boyfriend, because there are some guys out there who actually prefer women with a little meat on their bones. Besides, why would you want to be with someone who just wanted you for how you looked? They're not worth it. You have to find someone who loves the real inside you, and then as long as you stay healthy and attractive you don't have to be really thin. </div> <div> Personally, I think you're really a 300 LB woman who is masking her gluttony by making a site dedicated to the thin. All you pro-Ana people are nothing but fat middle-aged housewives who have nothing better to do than sit around, stuff their faces, gain weight, and pretend to be skinny starving girls online. </div> <div> You probably think I'm writing this because I'm a fat blimp who's just jealous of you. Well, I'm not. I'm a healthy, slender, attractive person with great hair and sparkling teeth. I have three boyfriends, two girlfriends, and a dog that loves me just the way I am. It's not important what you look like, because everyone knows it's what's inside that matters and beauty is only skin deep. I also have glowing youthful skin. I'm sending pictures to prove it. </div> <div> I hope I have been able to help you and show you that you're wrong, even though you people should be locked up and I'm never going to write to you again, unless you want to write to me and learn more about how to change your life and get rid of your eating disorders. Drop dead. God bless!"</div> <bR> </td> </tr></table></body>