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Stabbing Westward: Wither, Blister, Burn + Peel
I DON'T BELIEVE: I'm such an asshole god I'm such a stain. I just keep fucking up again and again
you crawled inside my mind when you crawled into my bed
said everything I've ever longed to hear
so perfect so alive once inside you sucked me dry
used me up and left me here for dead
i crave it desperately a cancer eating me
an addiction to intense to be denied
worthless I'm a whore crawling back for more
pathetic how i feed off this abuse
you told me that you love me
i believed that you loved me
you swore that you loved me
and i believed now i know it was a lie
i don't believe (2 times)
i could be so stupid so naive
i don't believe (2 times)
that there is nothing nothing left for me
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SHAME: i only see myself reflected in your eyes.
so all that i believe I am essentially are lies
and everything i hoped to be or ever thought i was
died with your belief in me so who the helll am i
i'm wandering round confused wondering why i try
the more that you deny my pain the more it intensifies
i pray for someone to ache for me the way i ache for you
if you ignore that i'm alive i have nothing to cling to
i stare into this mirror so tired of this life
if only you would speak to me or care if i'm alive
once i swore i would die for you but i never meant like this no i never meant like this
i don't know if i am real without you
what is left of me without you
i don't know whats real without you
how can i exist without you
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WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO: you make it hard to breath its as if i'm suffocating
and when you're next to me i can feel your heartbeat through my skin
it makes me sad to think this could all be for nothing
i wish there was a way for you to see inside me
i've never felt this way
about anyone or anything
tell me
what do i have to do to make you happy
what do i have to do to make you understand
what do i have to do to make you want me
and if i can't make you want me what to i have to do
i know exactly what you're thinking
but i swear this time i will not let you down
i'm not as selfish as i used to be
that was a part of me that never made me proud
right now i think i would try anything
anything at all to keep you satisfied
god i hope you see what losing you will do to me
all i want is one more chance so tell me
what to i have to do to make you love me (what do I have to do to forget about you.)
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WHY: i am not here i think i've never been here at all or ever will be
i feel like a place where no one goes any more
why can't you see that everythings broken
why does it seem this lifes turned gray
i can't believe in anything sacred when i don't believe i am real
it seems so bizarre but none of this matters
thoughts disappear hope has died
now i am safe nnothing can hurt me here
why can't you see my need for forgiveness
the truth and the lies confued as one
i can't believe in anything sacred
when i don't believe in anything
i am alone locked in my memories
there's nowhere left for me to hide
but i am not real
i've made all i am with lies
why does it seem that everythings different
why does it seem that only you are real
i don't believe in anything sacred
so why do i feel so damn alone
i need someone to break the silence
thats screaming in my head
and in my soul
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INSIDE YOU: i feel your lips
i taste your skin
i need to know i need to feel you from within
as your blood burns through my skin i feel complete i breath you in
its where you end and i begin if only i could stay here forever
so much to tell you
so much to show you
so much to confide
now that i'm inside you
we are flesh
we are one
so why do i feel so much guilt for what i've done
as your blood burns through my skin i feel release i breath you in
its where you end and i begin
if only i could stay here forever
so much to tell you
so much to give you
so much to confide no that i'm inside you
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FALLS APART: i'm tangled and broken
left scattered on the floor
its useless now these pieces they can never make me whole
you wither
you blister
i watch you burn and peel
its not like you can save me its not like you even care
i'm finding it so hard to hold on
this is where it falls apart (2 times)
i feel helpless as my everything comes crashing down on me
this is where it falls apart (2 times)
i feel helpless as my fucking world comes crashing down
crashing down on me
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SO WRONG: waste thoughts of you wasted prayers to you
give me back my mind
i'm empty inside
what have i become
everythings undone
a candle burns in your honor
my soul a shrine i've built for you
i've got nothing left inside me there's nothing left but you
can't seem to pretend
this night has to end
i can't fil this hole
you are all i know
it's so wrong that i need you it's so wrong that i need abuse
it's so wrong that i need you so wrong that i'm scared i'll die alone
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CRUSHING ME:i'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
i'm feeling the weight of everyday life and it's crushing me
how much more will it take
how much more until it breaks me
this world is crushing me
i'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crushing me
i'm feeling the hate of everyday life and it's crushing me
i swallow the hate, betrayal and lies
swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me
i'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
how much more will it take
how much more until it breaks me
this world is crushing me
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SLEEP:she's been here so many times before
she can't remember when she last felt anything at all but this fear and anger
she stares intently at the door listens for his footsteps
she knows exactly whats in store and the knowing makes it worse
when he calls her daddy's litle girl she doesn't hear him
when he crushes her he can't feel
her screams are silent
hides in the corner of her mind where she plays contently
she leaves this nightmare far behind, escapes inside her dreams
floating high above her bed staring at her fathers head
wishing one of them was dead so this hel could finally end
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SLIPPING AWAY: i feel it slipping away
i gave it all and no one cared
i feel it sleeping away (2 times)
no more pain no more fear
i feel it slipping away
i just can't learn to forget
now i'm choking on the memories choking on regret
i tried but i can't find a way to untangle all the pieces after they've been thrown away
i will not suffer this loss of you again and again
i refuse to continue to live in this perpetual nightmare
i decide it ends right here
i feel it slipping away (3 times)
everythings slipping away
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