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    So, I've been seeing a lot of these online diaries recently.  Anyway, I decided to do one of my own!  But I will do it in my own "special" way...the low tech way...MY WAY!  Muhahahaaaa!  :c)
    Read on to see what I am up to.  This page isn't the same as my "What I am Thinking" page...that was more of a way to rant anyway.  This is the actual stuff I really do, think and ponder upon.  So, without further ado...

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10 - 29 - 2004
     Heh, yep, over six months since my last journal entry.  Let's see...  What have I been up to?  Well, I am single again.  I don't really mind, thinking about it I kinda knew it wouldn't last.  I believe in the saying, "First relationships don't last".  It wasn't my first one but I think it was her first real one.  So that means BIDS ARE ONCE AGAIN OPEN!  Woo-hoo!  LOL  :cP  Anyway, I am also back in school.  I am working on getting my MIS (Master's of Information Science).  I was originally going for an MBA but eh...MIS fits me more.  So basically school is taking up a large chunk of my time.  I have had more time to finally see my brother though.  This year was odd in that we havn't really spoken all that much.  I guess both of our lives just became too busy.  I have also finally had time to spend with my friends Laura and Jennifer.  My friend John, though, is out of town most of the time on business so I really only talk to him on the phone.  Anyway, I couldn't sleep (almost 3am now) so I thought I would take some time to update my site.  I really need to be up to complete an assignment in four more hours so I am gonna try and get some sleep now.  I will really try and update more because I can see from my site stats that people are still visiting.  So until then, then!  Have fun!  :c)
     Err...um....hmm....okay...if I didn't say so before...update on my journal...  I did get a dog her name is Chloe and she is a Schipperke.  I got her from Atlanta Pet Rescue and Adoption.  I am also still working on Naked Land.  I got a canopy bed and hung some of those hangy curtain type thingies from it.  Well, scanning my journal that is all I see that I should update.  Anyway, off to sleep for real now.  Later!

04 - 20 - 2004
     Well, I havn't done much recently 'cause I have been busy.  Work and stuff, but mostly having fun.  :c)  I am also dating and having a wonderful time with her for some months now (we met in December and started dating in January).  Has she actually seen my website?  LOL  Yes...but she hasn't gone all through it, atleast I think she hasn't.  I think my attempt at embarassing myself totally and completely on the internet isn't catching her interest.  LOL  Oh well, not that this site is all THAT important to me.  It used to be.  But now I am just too busy to really work on it.  Though I still have a TON of ideas for it.
     I have been checking out who has been coming to my site recently though.  I did see a comment about me being "self-centered" and if my being that was blue then I would be the sky or something like that.  LOL  Well thank you!  Then atleast, you get part of my joke.  Seriously, this whole site is a parody.  See it something like all of those girls offering themselves to bids on Ebay for a "virtual girlfriend" parody.  Remember, if you can't find something on this site to make you smile, then I really have failed in my mission to entertain.  Yep, this is an entertainment site!  Once and for all I will state that!  Granted it is one that is of a more "republican" slant.  But I only did that because Hollywood and a LOT of the sites I have seen on the internet are VERY "liberal".  So why not be different?  After all, I really hate following the "crowd".
     Anyway, I got stuff to do so I will end it here.  So go now and enjoy my site!  :c)

11 - 18 - 2003
    So, yeah, once again I have been Uber-busy.  And I have noticed that I am totally addicted to saying the word, "Uber".  Like a lot.  So, anyway, I've been rather a busy boy.  Been going out a lot more.  You may ask, "Doing what?".  That's right.  You may ask.  But you know I will actually answer you so "Muhahahaaaa!"  Eh...not much exciting though...unless you count dog races...  I lost of course...I think I need new shoes.  Even daschunds can outrun me.  Eep!  I also finally lost my beloved inflatable couch.  Seems I made the mistake of placing my dartboard right above it...and I am a bad shot.  Poor couch...  I said some words in eulogy before tossing it in the dumpster.  I replaced it this weekend with a Papasan Chair!  Egads y'all!  It fit my ass PERFECTLY!  Like my ass was fated to sit in that chair!  It supports, cradles and holds me in all the right places!  It's kinda sexual!  Which explains why I go to sleep a lot on it.  Wait...hey....I think I just ripped on myself there...  I dunno...too late at night for me to know fully. 
     Well, I also decided that I am going to get a dog soon.  I want one 'cause I have a lot of love to give and I would love to recieve some too!  After all, nothing says "I Love You" more than crotch sniffing.
    Aqua Teen Hunger Force DVD's will be on sale soon!  You guys better believe I am gonna get those!  That and Brittney Spear's and Mariah Carey's movies.  The ATHF DVD's 'cause I love 'em.  The others 'cause I am a glutton for punishment.  After all I sat through the horrors of the movie, "Ravenous".  I shall curse my friend Chris to the day I die for reccomending that movie.  But I couldn't leave 'cause my friend John fell asleep there and I had to defend him against all of the roaches that were attacking him.  That theater eventually got shut down 'cause of that.  Weird, I know...didn't know that movie 'caused THAT much horror!
    I still am working on finishing Naked Land.  It's a work in progress...can't seem to get the fake foliage that I want.  But 'cause I am impatient I went out with my friend Laura recently and got some rope lighting to place under my bed.  It makes my bed look like a Super Sexy UFO Bed!  :cD  Like it is floating on an air of Sexiness!  :c)  I soo Uber-Rule!  :c)
    Hey!  I think I am babbling!  :c)  Wow, lack of sleep definately has an effect on me.  Like when I went out to play pool with my friend John and Chris.  Chris ran the freakin' table when usually it is I, the great Will, that rules the day.  I think lack of sleep made me lose.  That or my lack of underwear that night.  NOT WHAT YOU THINK!!!!  I didn't wear any 'cause, hey, I'm a bachelor, sometimes I forget to do laundry.  Better not to wear dirty underwear and go "Au Natural" the way God intended and the way that scares small animals when I do the airplane imitation.
    Anyway, I'm gonna call it a night and head to sleep.  Have fun and have an Uber-cool day!  :c)


11 - 05 - 2003
    So, I was thinking of giving any female readers an insight into the male mind.  It is nothing suprising...but none-the-less it is still educational as well as informative.  So read on to know of, "My Shopping Adventure".
    I arrived at the grocery store and ran inside because it was raining.  Once inside I did a quick mental check to see how soaked I was.  For the most part, I was dry.  So was my penis.  My penis and I entered.  Once inside we picked out the usual food items and scanned the local area for anything that was particularly interesting.  Then after 10 minutes, to our horror, we saw a sign that said "Senior Citizen Days Are Wednesdays".  I girded my loins...for old women seem to love and lust for me.  One of the ladies working to restock the shelves had a nice looking blonde friend that my penis immediately recognized as a cashier.  We moved in to get a better look only to be distracted as a Senior Citizen tried to make time with us.  My penis was dismayed by her agressiveness.  We moved on quickly.
    In the hair care isle my penis sensed something.  I quickly looked over to my left and made eye contact with a college aged blonde.  She smiled.  Mentally I counted the seconds and noted we broke the 4 second rule.  The rule that states if someone looks at you for more than 4 seconds then they are interested.  My penis cheered in jubliation!  I said a quick hello and she responded in the sexiest Eastern European accent I have ever heard.  I smiled because I love women with Eastern European accents!  Suddenly I noticed a look of horror on her face.  My penis felt it was because she was in awe of it's greatness.  But no.  For suddenly I felt icy daggers piercing my back as HER MOTHER walked between us!  My penis immediately tried to retreat!  It gave me the feeling of "shrinkage" that I only get after a very cold shower.  It was not pleasant by any means.  Her mother said something to her in what I could only guess was Russian and they walked on as she gave me a quick smile and a wave.  My penis felt uncomfortable, so I adjusted it and moved on.
    In the frozen food isle two older, though not Senior Citizen, ladies were shopping together.  One looked at me and commented on the fact that all bachelors seem to not cook and instead purchase frozen dinners as I was doing.  I smiled and agreed.  The other lady commented that her daughter was single too.  My penis screamed a warning as we had been down this road before.  I quickly and politely ended the conversation as I headed to the check out lane.  All were packed except one.  My penis did a rendition of the RiverDance as we stepped in the lane with the Blonde Cashier and the Russian College Girl!  We tried to be low key.  But it was to no avail as icy daggers once again were thrown our way by the eyes of the mother.  The Blonde Cashier noted this.  I then understood my chances were greatly decreased of anything.  My penis was sad.  The Russian College Girl smiled quickly and said, "Bye" as she and her mother left.  But before I could take any solace from that the cashier gave me a dirty look.  Somehow, it made my penis happy again.  So I smiled wearily.
    As I was leaving I noticed several other men give me sympathetic glances.  They knew.  They understood the pain my penis and I went through.  The bag boy even gave me a thumbs up for I had tried for the HOT Russian College Girl.  And even though I may have failed...my penis and I will long remember her and share many memories of her...as well as fantasies!
    So the moral of the story is this.  If there are any Eastern European women reading this...know that I am single and that I want you!  :c)

10 - 13 - 2003
    Hmm, I have been thinking.  What idiotic stunt could I do for the benefit of the people who come and read my site?  I'm thinking....place a personal ad online and let everyone know the results!!!!!!  LOL  :c)  That would be cool!  :c)  But I need to make it a good one so as to attract 'da wemmen!  Oh yeeeaaahhh!  :c)  Anyway, I'm thinking of enlisting some 'o my female friends to help me pen a good ad!  Hell, maybe I will meet my one and only out of this?  Hey, anything is possible!  And YES I really DO have female friends!  They just tend to stay away from me as I tend to release seductive pheremonal scents after I eat baked beans...
    Anyway, will I really do the ad thing?  I'm seriously giving it thought.  I mean, at some point it HAS to be FUNNY!  I will only post those up.  I mean, honestly, this is going to involve real people with real feelings.  I wanna do this to be humorous, NOT mean.  So I am leaning towards the affirmative here.  :c)  I dunno, I have to give it some more thought.  :c)
    Well, I got NO sleep last night.  In 2 1/2 more hours I will have been up for 36 hours.  Insomnia on a regular basis really sucks.  But atleast I had fun on Yahoo IM last night!  :cD  LOL  I even got topless for a select few and danced for someone else too, all while on cam!  :c)  Aren't I the greatest?  LOL  :c)  I have also been asked by two of the people I talked to online to purchase a Devil Costume for Halloween.  One to take pics for while wearing it and the other...to dance for again but this time wearing it!  LOL  :c)  So I'm thinking that I am gonna shake my cherry devil red bottom while taking pics soon!  LOL  :c)
    Eh...gonna make some coffee.  Coffee is weird with me.  It doesn't make me alert or energized...it actually seems to be a metabolic depressent with me.  So I am thinking my general lack of it as of late is what is keeping me up.  :c)  Wish me some Zzzz's soon!  Have fun!

10 - 12 - 2003
    What?  Actually expect me to update on a regular basis?  LOL  :c)  Never!  LOL  :c)  Well, it is Oct 12th...by a couple of minutes and I am still up.  Been up for over 20 hours now, but I can't sleep.  So I thought I would do an update of my Journal to let anyone who cares read on about my majestic life.  :c)  What have I been up to?
    Well, for one I am still working on my bedroom makeover.  It actually looks pretty good...kinda frilly 'cause I keep on buying Wal-Mart's COMPLETE supply of vines up so I am stuck with rather...frilly stuff.  But it's cool.  :c)  It is actually becoming what I wanted, which is a place for me to go to so I can escape the world in general.  It is almost complete and I may never leave it...unless I am hungry....or have to go to the bathroom...or wanna get on my computer...or need to go out...  K...maybe I will leave it at times, but I will always return.  At first I was thinking of naming it "Will-e-lot" like "Camelot".  But it sounded too much like "Will E Coyote, Super Genius".  Which I am a Super Genious, but I don't need to flaunt it.  So instead, when I finally finish the "make-over", I will print out a sign with the name I will christen it with.  What name is that, you ask?  NAKED LAND!!!!  That's right!  The place where the magic happens!  :c)  Aren't I just the greatest?  Yes, yes I am.  :c)
     Anyway, since I graduated I had the Subway thing go sour.  Well, because of that and the flagging economy, I am making my way towards Graduate School!  That's right folks!  I'm going after an MBA with a major in either Advertising or Marketing.  Either major will help me in my dream of making goof-ball commercials or advertising campaigns!  :c)  Which do I really like right now?  Well, that whole 7UP campaign was pretty awesome!  Though whenever I see "7UP" I think "7 Union P".  LOL  :c)  Sorry, geek joke there.  Heh heh!  Discrete Mathmatics was a GREAT class to take!  :cP  So anyway, I am currently in a Saturday class to help me study for the GMAT.  Which is GOOD because I am COMPLETELY rusty at Data Sufficiency.  WOW!  I felt like a beginner working on that!  Anyway, the only problem I am truly encountering with the whole thing is trying to get an appointment to take the GMAT.  Sooo MANY people are entering Graduate School that already the test is filled up until Dec 31st!  Ouch!  My application deadline for Summer Semester is in Feb though...so I do have "some" time to play around with the schedual.
     Well, I recently also thought I had a medical problem.  I mean I felt like I had heartburn 24 hours a day and I was coughing a lot.  So I did some realistic research on WebMD and I found out that though I do have heartburn that my biggest problem is that my apartment is on the 5th floor and it is dry!  So I got a humidifier today and I am breathing a lot better.  Coughing is almost non-existant right now.  And here I thought my body was rejecting pure air 'cause I am slowing down smoking.  Eh...sometimes I am not the brightest bulb in the bunch.  LOL  :c)  As for the heartburn.  Well, that is a problem I will have from now on.  I mean, it is no suprise.  My mother always told me that even as a baby I would refuse to consume food unless it had hot sauce on it.  And I, to this day, eat something spicey twice daily.  So I need to cut that out and let my body heal for a couple of months.  Then I can get back at it!  :c)  So it's nothing serious.  :c)
     On a side note...I have a picture of my second dog, "Shou-Pung", phonetically, "Shh  Oww  Pung".  Ow, as like "Ow!  That hurt!".  (It means, "Little Fat" in Chinese.  As in "Little Fat Dog".)  I barely remember my first dog, "Jackie".  It was a little white dog that always ran away during Typhoons and Tornados in Taiwan.  And when I was in Taiwan I was a real little kid.  Anyway, Shou-Pung was the only dog that I had that I was best-friends with.  I would spend hours every day after school playing with him.  He was the BEST German Shepherd EVER!  And for a troubled little kid like I was, a best-friend with unerring loyalty meant the world to me.  Anyway, one day a Dominos Pizza Delivery guy tried to pet him, got bit, and my Pung had to be put to sleep.  It really killed me.  Afterwards all the rest of the dogs I have had I could love, but not be their best-friend.  I still dream about Pung a lot.  But today I got a really nice picture frame and put his picture in it.  It is on my nightstand in my bedroom so I can always look at him and remember him.  :c)  After ALL of these years though...I feel I can finally get another dog to be best-friends with.  It only took me 15 years to get over him. 
     See, I am weird like that.  When I love, it is total and complete.  And when things go sour, it takes me a LONG time to get over it.  Not like I am upset every day, or every week or every month.   Just that after something like that, I don't have it in me to give or to feel as much as I once did.  So after 15 years, I finally have it in me.  :c)  Heh, everyone always says I would make the BEST husband EVER!  I would never cheat, always think my wife was the most beautiful woman in the world, always be loyal, always be caring, always be devoted, always dote on her and always think the best of her.  .....I know...many people think that is very ODD of me...  LOL  But it's just the way I am.  Anyway, how I got from wanting another dog to how I would be a pretty good husband is beyond me.  Well, no, it isn't.  I'm tired right now so I am babbling.  LOL  :c)  But, for those of you who know what I am talking about.  I was over "M" a year after we stopped talking.  That happened this summer semester, it being a year after that is.  So I have it in me again to try again.  :c)  Maybe just one last time though because I think I am really beginning to enjoy this hermit lifestyle of mine.  LOL  :c)
     I am thinking I may not go all out for Christmas this year.  Lots of reasons not to in fact.  But sufficed to say, this will be the FIRST in MANY years!  I'm pretty sure everyone will be shocked.  But, eh...  :c/  Instead I am gonna do more work on my bedroom to make it more Medieval.  That would be cool.  :c) 
     Anyway, I am feeling at a loss for words.  My muse has left me.  Besides, I'm getting tired so I need to turn in.  I was called tonight to go into work tomorrow so I need my rest.  :c)  Well!  Have fun everyone and enjoy the rejuvinating Fall Season!  :c)


8 - 19 - 2003
    Okay, so I havn't updated in a LONG ass time or even done crap.  I have crapped...just havn't done it...if that makes sense.  Oh well, I guess it doesn't.  But do I really ever make sense?  I say "Yes"!  But others usually say "We love you Will!".  So I guess all is well that ends well.
    Anyway, what have I been up to?  Well, I dropped the Subway idea...I calculated EVERYTHING out and I would be living at poverty level with only one store...now two stores I would be okay...but one...nope.  Anyway, I am on a slow job hunt right now.  I am not in too much of a rush.  Let's just say that financially I am always and will always be very "comfortable".  Heh heh!  ;c)    Anyway, let's begin with what I have been up to recently...'cause anything more than recently I probably can't remember...curse my Generation X short attention span!  LOL  Anyway, last Wed I went to my friend Chris's B-day dinner.  It was at a local Italian restaurant and it was pretty cool.  :c)  I got to catch up with some people I havn't seen in YEARS!  Hmm...it's late so I will keep everything short and sweet...I have insomnia but nothing will ever rid me of my laziness.  Heh heh!  :c)  Anyway, then on Sat I went with my friend John to a strip club here in Atlanta called "The Goldrush".  I have to admit...if I were to ever fall in love with ANY woman at first site it would be a dancer there named Jaimie.  Oh WOW!  I would be squishy and adorable putty in her hands!  If you are reading this Jaimie...MARRY ME!?!?!?  Heh heh!  :c)  Then on Sun I went with Chris to the gun range and learned that cheap ammunition is not good ammunition.  LOL  Damn rounds couldn't fire correctly!  Could've blown my hands away!  LOL  But as fate would have it, dumb luck still protects it's own...and I got away with no harm done to me or my gun...just to my pride for purchasing such cheap ammo.
    So, I experienced my first Yahoo IM "conference" this past Friday.  It was COOL!  :c)  Got to see people on cam and they saw me on cam too!  They are all my friends...just never seen them before.  It kicked ass!  :c)  I really enjoyed that and I hope to do it again soon!  :c) 
    Also, yep, I am still the "technical support" for my friends.  I am expecting to spend most of tomorrow evening helping my friend Kelly get her computer up and running.  What can I say?  I'm needed.  :c)
    So...I will admit it, I am addicted to the shows, "Monster House" and "While You Were Out".  Monster House RULES!  And While You Were Out kicks butt because of the sexy host and the even sexier Leslie on there!  :c)  Even got me to do the unthinkable!  Yes...redecorate my bedroom!  LOL  :c)  Seriously, I will put completed pics of it up soon.  But let's just say I am going for a Medieval Forest.  :c)  I got my medieval weapons out to decorate my room and I have TONS of plastic plants everywhere.  It's looking pretty good!  :c)  Especially because I recently purchased a SCA approved Knight's Helm...if I had the padding I could go into battle with it!  LOL  :c)  But it won't be finished until I find a cheap Scottish "Targe" Shield...so give me like another month or two before putting the pics up.  :c) 
    Well, it is 2:39AM, and I am sleepy now.  I will cut this short and get some nappy nap time!  :c)  But before I go I want to thank Ashley again for being my first ever GuestBook entry!  Yay!!!  :c)  I'm soo proud!  My little annoying website is growing up!  I've even noticed it being placed on more and more homepages and other websites!  :c)  The best line that someone put up to describe my site is on www.lyrics.com...it says   "Bid On Your Very Own Geek - Available Geek seeks bids leading to love and a lifetime of eating Twinkies.".  LOL  :c)  How funny is that?  LOL  I love it!  :c)  Anyway, next time I will regail everyone with my tales of "The Dating World".  LOL  Yep, I am dating.  But I leave that until later... So until then...  May my butt bless you all and all of you have a great night dreaming of my sweet sweet cheeks!  :c)

6 - 23 - 2003
    So, I went to see the movie about the Incredible Hulk, Sunday...today...I'm still up even though it is 2:24 AM Monday.  Anyway, the movie itself was good...but yet again I had a horrible time with the actual people that attended the movie.  Well, not all of them.  Just two.  It was a father and a son.  See, the son was talking loudly throughout the previews and then for the first hour of the movie.  The son was also kicking the back of my seat.  But it wasn't just the son.  The father was just as bad.  I guess the son thought his way of acting was not in error for his rude father was and is his role-model.  Well, my brother was sitting next to me and we tried to give the father subtle hints that we didn't appreciate the noise and the feeling of my seat being kicked (the seats are all connected so my brother felt it too).  So we kept on looking back at him everytime we felt a kick and also when they would get loud for too long.  Finally I started doing the classic movie thing of going "Shhh!" to him.  So, after 40 mins of me going "Shhh!" to him and his son, he finally gets the idea.  And what does this role-model for his son do?  He gets in my face and says,

"You wanna stop telling us to shush?  What's your problem anyway?"

I respond by saying, "I'm trying to be civil here but you two are loud and are kicking the back of my chair."

"So?  He is just a kid!" the father retorted angrily.

"And you are an adult." I stated flatly.

"We'll do whatever we want!" the father growled.

"And I will call the manager of the movie theater." I replied.

He gets up and gestures to his chest and stomach and yells, "I'll kick your ass!"

Trying to be the ONLY adult that will actually act like an adult that the child will ever see I replied, "Go ahead, and I will call the police."

He stops, flustered, and sits down with these parting words, "Whatever, punk!"

I turn around but before I do I say, "Whatever...boy.".

The thing that I wonder about is...I wasn't the only one to go "Shhh!" to him.  I wasn't the only one to look over at him as well.  But it seems he chose me to be the target of his agression.
    Now, see, the thing that bothers me the most is that MANY parents in this day and age act exactly like that.  Meaning, what is bothering me isn't specifically his actions...but basically the actions of many parents that exist in this society.  I mean, take for example of the hazing that happened recently where a group of older highschool girls covered their fellow underclass girls with human feces, baked beans and punched, kicked and took a baseball bat and broke their bones.  The school suspended them, tried to hold those girls back from graduation and from prom.  What did the parents of these "gems" of society do?  They sued the school system to let the girls graduate, to get them to prom to not have them suspended and to make sure that this never appeared on their permanent records.  And when they couldn't get the suspension lifted...how did they punish these girls?  They sent them on cruises or all expense paid vacations to Vale, Colorado to go skiing.  Err....excuse me...but...JUST HOW IS THAT PUNISHING THEM??????????????????????  The answer is, it isn't punishing them.  In fact, these same girls are probably going to do it all again, but next time more brutal because they already got away with it once.  Not only did they get away with it, but they got rewarded for their actions.  THIS IS WRONG!
    But, back to the movie theater incident.  Now, after the incident, they both did quiet down.  But what I don't understand was why he thought that he was not in the wrong.  I mean, have morals and standards in our society degraded to the point where being rude is no longer wrong?
    When I first moved into my apartment I had the worst neighbor ever.  This guy constantly turned up his stereo at ALL hours of the day and night to the point where it sounded like I had my stereo on at full blast.  It was soo loud the neighbors on the opposite side though "I" was the one who was turning up the stereo and knocked on my wall.  It was soo loud you could hear it from the parking lot, loud enough where it knocked pictures off my wall and loud enough to leave my ears ringing for hours after he turned it off.  I averaged the amount of time he had the stereo on.  It was an average of 10 hours a day at that sound level.  The first time I confronted him about it I went over, knocked on his door and said as politely and as apologetically as possible...

"Sorry to bother you.  But could you turn down your radio please?  It's really loud."

He replied in a condescending manner, "Saturday night at 10pm is too loud for you?"

Another time I confronted him was when he was having a party (him and 3 other people).  I was sick of three months of his radio so I banged on my wall for the very first time.  Next thing I know he came over to my door and wanted to fight me.  Seems I was in the wrong in his mind because I joined 2 of my fellow neighbors in complaining about him to the leasing office.  Once again, I was chosen to be the target exactly as I was in the movie theater.  Oh, he made a great show in front of his girlfriend about how he was going to kick my ass.  She even did the classic, "Holding him back" routine.  I saw his male friend out of the corner of my eye look at me and then take off his shirt just so he could walk back and forth behind my neighbor...like a shirtless man intimidates me.  Anyway, his girlfriend dragged him off and I went back into my apartment.  They banged on the wall, turned up the radio louder and then I heard another knock on my door.  It was the girlfriend and the 3rd member of the group...another girl.  They apologized profusely but stated that they have every right to be loud on this one occasion.  I explained to them that it isn't just one occasion, that it was, indeed, 7 days a week for me.  BUT because they were civil, adult and nice about it that I would let them be loud this one night without further complaint from me.  It was at this point that they noticed I had my Glock .45 semi-automatic pistol in my hand.  Yes, that's right.  I'm armed and am very willing to use my gun to protect myself.  I "never" start problems but I "will" end them.  They left and it was quiet for an hour.  The FIRST time it was EVER quiet in my apartment in three months!  Then I heard another knock on my door.  It was my neighbor to apologize to me.  He even shook my hand and promised to never be loud again.  He wanted to call a truce on his word of honor.  As a civilized human being, I shook his hand, accepted his word of honor and agreed to a truce with him.  Not 12 hours later he broke his word and I called my apartment's security to get him to turn down the music.  In fact, I kept on calling the apartment's security to get him to turn it down until he moved out.  I noticed that the only person to help him move was his girlfriend.  
    Morality and the standards of society...  Are they truly gone?  
    I've recieved many e-mails asking me if I consider myself a "Nice Guy" or if I think "Nice Guys" ever get the girl?  Let me answer that.  Yes, I think I am a nice guy.  No, nice guys never get the girl.
    Why don't I think nice guys get the girl?  Because women are just as much at fault as men are in society.  What do I mean?  Let me explain...
    I believe that as human beings we are supposed to look at those who came before us...our fathers and mothers, our grandfathers and grandmothers...etc...etc...  We look to them and say, "You who came before us, who toiled and bled and died to make the world a better place.  I too will make this world better and help the world to advance...to excell, to surpass all that came before.  For in doing so, I pay homage and respect to all that you have suffered for me."  In a sense, we are here to continue to evolve.  Look, you don't have to believe in evolution to get what I am saying.  What I am saying is this.  The human race as a whole has evolved a lot since the beginning.  We started off thinking the earth was flat and the center of the universe.  We evolved to know better.  We used to torture and sacrifice people on a daily basis and didn't give a second thought to it.  We evolved to know that it is wrong.  But as we have evolved, so too do I think we are at a point where we are devolving.  I think back to the movie theater incident where the father gestured to his chest and stomach and wanted to fight me.  It made me think of a gorilla pounding his chest and screaming his rage...just brainless, thoughtless and without any sentient thought as to why he was reacting with only violence.  I think to my neighbor coming over to fight me.  No thought, no reasoning on his part.  Only a reaction that spurred him to want violence.  We humans need to evolve beyond the point of "Survival of the Fittest".  We need to evolve beyond the point of needing, wanting and craving to be the "Alpha Male" of wherever we go to.  But we aren't.  Nice guys lose in the dating world because we don't crave to be the alpha male.  And women like the alpha male.  Now a days, we call the alpha male the guy with charm, with the looks, with the success, with the attitude...with the money.  All things women want...the alpha male has it all.  But what women don't like is that the Alpha Male is also violent, the type of guy that gets into arguments, into fights and that beat their girlfriends or wives...they also cheat on them, leave and divorce them and treat them with disdain.  Now I've heard a lot of nice guys say that they think women like to get beat because why else would they date these guys?  Well, that is just the dumbest thing I have ever heard.  Unless they are machoistic and like being beaten they will NOT like it.  It is just that women have just as much primitive need to find a partner as men do.  Men look for looks, women (in my opinion) look for looks and actions.  They see a physical male who looks good...then they think good mating prospects.  Men do the same.  See how men and women are both to blame?  The blame lies in the primitive aspects that we are revelling in, in this day and age.  Are we not supposed to be evolving into a race that believes in judging people by their actions, their character and their heart?  No, we seem be stuck in the most primitive aspects of ourselves.  We seem to not want to evolve because soo many other people are devolving that in order to survive in this world and fit in we have to devolve with them.  We have to be as rude, as hypocritical, as self-centered and as "Alpha" as the rest.  By doing this we lose our morals and our standards in trying to fit in or to stand out the most in the crowd.  We lose ourselves and we insult all those who came before us.  We devolve and are devolving.  We are becoming more primitive.  
    In the beginning, religiously.  Say...there was an Eden.  But call it a societal Eden.  Call it, societal perfection.  Imagine it as a dot on a piece of paper.  That is where we need to evolve to.  Where society is nice, good, just and perfect.  But look at it realistically now.  As each generation comes they push the boundaries of what is considered normal or right or just or correct just a little further away from that dot.  Imagine a circle around that dot, that Eden.  Imagine more circle being drawn around each following circle, like a bullseye on a target as each new generation pushes the boundaries of society.  Imagine enough circles to represent the hundreds of thousands of years that have passed since that first perfect Eden.  How far away from Eden are we now?
    As those that came before us struggled to make our lives easier, to help us evolve, we have lost the way.  We are so wrapped up in ourselves that we cannot see what is right and wrong.  We have lost the simple truths.  Good is not easy. Evil is very easy.
    Look at it like this.  The path to Good and Evil is like a path upon a steep and tall mountain.  To be evil, one just lets go and slides down.  It is easy and worse, it is FUN!  But once you hit bottom...you are so far away from good that you may never get there in your lifetime or even for eternity.  The path to good, though, is far from easy.  It is hard, it is stressful, difficult.  The climb upward is the hardest thing you will ever do.  Many times it isn't even fun and it seems like there is no reward.  But once you get to the top...the view...the view is breathtaking.  Not only that...but once at the top...you realize that you have wings and you can fly.
    As I sit here at almost 4 am in the morning.  I come to the conclusion that very very few people will ever attempt that climb.  Do I believe that our society is lost?  Yes.  Do I believe we are devolving?  Yes.  I believe we are in a slow state of entropy.
    The saying, "Evil begets evil." is very true.  Bad fathers create bad sons.  Bad mothers create bad daughters.  A bad generation will create an even worse generation.  Do I have hope for us?  Yes.  There are always those who break this cycle.  What I don't know is if they will have enough effect on the rest of the world.  
    People crave power and the responsiblity that comes with it.  But people do not crave or want personal responsibility.  They don't want to suffer from their mistakes or even take responsibility for their own mistakes.  The parents of those high school girls were soo arrogant that they didn't want to see that their daughters were wrong.  For in admitting that, they would be admitting their own fault...their failing at being parents in teaching their daughters right and wrong...for teaching them to be true human beings.  People even defend what they percieve is their right to be rude.  But they do not see themselves as rude.  People even defend their wrongs and the wrongs they are showing as correct to their children.  For they do not want to admit they could be wrong.
    Is it not truly human to admit we are wrong?  To learn from our mistakes?  To try and evolve?  Should we not try to be kinder, nicer and more gentle?
    I know these things as true.  That we should evolve....

    But I just see another circle being drawn...



.6 - 13 - 2003
    Friday the 13th!  What a wonderful and joyous day to first start my Online Journal!  I've been up to a lot recently, actually.  Mostly business related trying to get my Subway started...  I'm still left wondering why the business world embraces the fax machine...  I mean, e-mails are much better and easier to send and recieve.  But I am going to have to purchase a fax machine soon to help speed up this whole process.  So anyway, I've finally decided on a general location for my Subway.  It will be in the Alphraretta area.  But I still need to match up with information I have gathered with the people at Subway to see if the area is all that great.  If it isn't...then I will look somewhere else.
    So, I got my new car and already I am adding things to it.  Not all that much actually, just a gas cap that can be locked, a center armrest and rain guards.  I am planning on getting more stuff added to it soon though!  What can I say?  I want it ALL!  :c)
    Anyway, it is morning here and I was channel surfing and I came across this show called, "The Other Half".  At first I thought it was one of those "talk shows" but for men...but I was greatly mistaken...  For ANY women who reads this...those men on that show are NOT representative of men in the general populace!  How can I further describe it...those guys on the show are pretty "feminine".  LOL  It's the whole truth and nothing but the truth.  Damn...what a waste of a show!  LOL
    I have recieved a couple of serious e-mails as of late from some people who visited this site.  ALL men though...to my great disappointment...  LOL  Anyway, they are wondering if I have gotten dates from this site.  My answer, "No, nope and nuh-uh!".  LOL  Why?  I've taken a poll of my female friends and I pretty much got the idea that this site is very female unfriendly.  LOL  I didn't mean it that way...but I guess this site is just as manly and testosterony as I am!  LOL  I guess I shouldn't hold back anymore!  I've been wanting to put up a couple of poems dedicated to my love of lesbians and bi-sexual women.  LOL  LOL  I've got nothing stopping me now!  LOL  ....well, except for my extreme laziness.  That's all.  LOL
    Actually, I've been meaning to state this again because I get so many emails about it.  Yes, once and for all, I am really single.  I plan to be for a couple of more months too.  I mean, hell, I am not all that great of a catch until I get my business started...too much uncertainty as to my future economic well-being until then.  Anyway, the reason I wanted to state this again is because the emails I get are along two veins...  One is the "You know you are ruining your chances for a date by being THIS weird online..." and two, "Only someone who is married can afford to be as messed up as you..."   You get the general idea.
    Anyway, back to the fax machine thing...  The reason I brought it up is because I am waiting for some documents from Subway and they said that they could fax it and when I said I didn't have a fax machine they were kinda suprised.  Then they said my documents would arrive in 5 to 10 business days.  Oh well, I guess I will go purchase one soon.
    All my friends always want to know why I want to open a Subway.  Well, I've told them all so I might as well put it up here.  When I was 21 I helped a former friend of mine open a Subway.  He asked me to be the manager there.  I was there from the beginning and it was pretty fun and simple to do.  The management aspect wasn't all that hard and operating it wasn't hard either.  So when I hit my second to last semester of college I really thought my career options and I realized that I would rather be my own boss than work for someone.  Besides, I guess the "be your own boss" gene is in me, after all, my mother owns her own restaraunt too.  Anyway, a Subway is a pretty small operation with a pretty low overhead.  If I have a great location I could really make a lot of money.  Even if I don't have a great location I can still live very comfortably.  But I don't plan to stop at just one business.  By the time I am 40 I want two Subways and one other business...maybe a store or something...I dunno...  All I know is that I want to be RICH!  I will work my butt off for it too!
    I've been giving a lot of thought recently to my future and I realized that if my Subway does do well that I want to purchase a house.  The reason I want to do that is because I really really REALLY want a dog!  I live in an apartment currently and I don't think any dog should be subjugated to living in something as small as an apartment.  Not that my apartment is small by any means...just that I think a dog should have a yard to run in and have fun in.  Especially if I won't be home 8 hours a day to play with it.
    Well, I gotta run.  I've got a bunch of errands to do today.  Later!

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