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Tannim's Religion
Mielikki 4
Regaining Personal Power from Within
The Self-Hater within is not just an internalized institution, however, nor is it an internalized person. It is a thing that embodies the relationship of domination; it makes us victim and prosecutor both. The monster is not just the agent squeezing happiness to death; it is also a sense of helplessness. We dominate ourselves more thoroughly than any institution ever could.
To reclaim our power, to change our internal landscape, we must confront the self-hater.
As a shaman descends into the place of death and dismemberment, we must also descend into fear, into terror, into despair itself. Our confrontation must be more than intellectual.
Wielding fear, despair and helplessness as its weapons, the self-hater takes its strategies from the stories of estrangement. Again and again, it tries to pull us into Good Guys/Bad Guys conflicts, by tricking us, over and over again, into defending the one truth entrusted to the Chosen Few, especially in movements that radically challenge the present authorities. Over our heads it holds the threat of Apocalypse, of the fall, i.e., the threat of annihilation.
When we think-in-things about will, we think of fire. Will is the energy of anger, aggression, of burning rage, released from the self-hater's grip and consciously directed. Its tool is the wand that channels energy, that transforms, that bridges heaven and earth. That turns ideas into realities. Fire also means expression. The finding of our will is tied to the expression of feelings; we assert our right to feel them, our right to be. Anger and rage especially fuel the self-hater when we cannot express them. We may fear that our own anger will invoke the annihilation that terrifies us - that it may cause the loss of someone we love, or cause that person to stop loving us. Yet we cannot own our power without owning our anger. For anger is energy - the deep, energy of the life force that arises in response to threat. It gives us the strength to meet danger.
In Magic, nothing is ever completely destroyed; it is only transformed. Although we treat the self-hater as if it were a being apart, it is not. It is a part of ourselves, and so we cannot get rid of it. Because it contains our energy, our power. If we split it off, we lose that source of inner power - or see it reflected back in menacing forms from others, who become the monster we fear.
The Ethics of Magic
The immanent conception of justice is not based on rules or authority, but upon integrity, integrity of self and integrity of relationships.
The world-view of immanence values each self as a manifestation of the Goddess, as a channel of power-from-within. People of integrity are those whose selves integrate the positive and the negative, the dark and the light, the painful emotions as well as the pleasurable ones. They are people who are willing to look at their own shadows instead of flinching from them. They honor the shadow because they know that its very distortions reveal the shape of the ground underneath.
Integrity means consistency; we act in accordance with our thoughts, our images, our speeches; we keep our commitments. Power-over can be wielded without integrity, but power-from-within cannot. For power-from-within is the power to direct energy - and energy is directed by the images in our minds and speech, as well as by our actions. If these are consistent, energy flows freely in the direction we choose and we have power. If what we do is at odds with what we say or think, then energy gets blocked or mis-channeled. If I think and say that I hate pollution, and yet walk by and leave trash lying at my feet, the energy of my feelings is dissipated. Instead of feeling my own power to do something, however small, about litter, I feel and become more powerless.
Directed energy causes change. To have integrity, we must recognize that our choices bring about consequences, and that we cannot escape responsibility for the consequences, not because they are imposed by some external authority, but because they are inherent in the choices themselves. If I leave the trash lying, and go away feeling powerless and depressed, my powerlessness is not a judgment imposed by an irate Goddess - it is an inherent aspect of the decision I made.
The ethics of integrity are choices based on internal consistency and inherent consequences. They are not based on absolutes imposed upon chaotic nature, but upon the ordering principles inherent in nature. Nor are they based on rules that can be taken out of context. The Pope, were he not a representative of an immanent religion, could not ban birth control without acknowledging that he is also choosing the consequences of poverty, starvation, and suffering that such a ban will bring. But of course, an immanent religion could not have a Pope who makes decisions that bind millions of others. In a religion of immanence, each individual is sacred. Each of us has our own direct line to truth; each of us is her/his own Pope, so that nobody can be invested with authority over us. Only those who must bear the consequences of a decision have the right to make it. And those who make the decisions must bear the consequences.
It is interesting to try to envision a large society based on this principle.
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