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Sorry about the language... it's kinda the title/premise of the song!!!
If
the word bothers you, don't read further... unless a Divia story makes
up
for it!!
I own not FK. OK, so I'm explaining AtA again. It had to be done. ;)
Thanks to the totally cool McLisa for figuring out LC's mortal cognomen.
Archive: fkfanfic, ftp, lisa, saundra, anyone who sends me the addy!
Bitch
By Kathy Walsh
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I hate the world today
**********
It is so not natural. I spent the first five hundred or so years
recovering
(you may not know, but it takes precious little for a vampire to recover
from 'death', except I was blocked by a sun image) from my father's
slice.
Really, he could have just walked away! But I suppose peaceful
ways are too
wimpy for Great General Crucifictor. So anyway, here I am, a
coupla
millennia old, and I nearly don't get served a drink in the local vamp
tavern! I mean, I understand the rules and all (hey, you really
can learn
stuff from people's blood, especially that of hormone-freaked teenage
boys),
but come *on*! Having mortals work in a place like the Raven
is just asking
for stupidity... or trouble. Anyway, I had to make a fuss and
get the real
bartender to serve me. He's cute! It's not fair that he's
close to Lucius
and I'm gonna have to revenge myself on him. I'd rather have
him for
myself!
**********
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
**********
Miklos -- he's the Raven bartender -- and I have been going out for
over a
week. He's really sweet, but he thinks that I'm just pretending
when I act
my normal, malicious self. I mean, he's actually almost talked
me out of
beating up on all of Lucius' friends! (He says there are precious
few.
Miklos is a funny man.) I don't know why he thinks I'm a kind
little old
girl. I mean, it's as crazy as thinking that Lucius is a 'warm-fuzzy'
type!
**********
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
**********
I feel so bad sometimes that I can't be the sweet little thing Miklos
thinks
I am. He doesn't know what I'm going to do to the Raven and his
employer.
But I guess that's okay, since I don't have any suitable corpses yet.
Perhaps I can pay some tomb-robbers to go after Qa'ra's tomb and fool
Lucius
into thinking that's when I got out....
I just collapsed on Miklos' shoulder yesterday. I feel so bad,
like I'm
using him, because he's just so sweet!!
**********
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
**********
Poor Miklos must be totally puzzled by now. After all, I *did*
fly away
really fast when I felt Lucius coming. He must wonder why I'm
afraid of his
boss seeing me....
**********
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
**********
I mean, honestly, Miklos, sometimes I actually *feel* like the sweet
little
girl you think I am!!!
I wish I hadn't been brought across in the middle of teenage PMS angst!!
**********
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
**********
You know what Selene was? Yeah, she was that, and more.
Can you imagine a
woman who would lease her own daughter to the local soldiers for a
night or
two? And people wonder why I'm demented!
**********
I'm a child, I'm a mother
**********
Be careful, Lucius.... I will *always* know where and how to find
you!
We're bonded by biology and blood. (Hey, alliteration!)
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I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
**********
Lucius, you think I'm so awful because of what I wanted from you.
All I
really wanted was attention, though, and that's the only way I could
*get*
attention in Pompeii!! I actually held up pretty well considering
all the
freaky things happening to me! I mean, putting up with Selene,
your army,
the servants, and Qa'ra... I'm surprised I didn't end up as a freak!!
**********
I do not feel ashamed
**********
Hey, just like you, Lucius, I'm a survivor. I always did what
I had to do,
even if it was a little weird or perverted.
**********
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
**********
I make you so sick, or so you say, Lucius. But you know deep down
that
you're proud of me. You'll always love and dote on me, no matter
what I do.
**********
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
**********
You never would have wanted a wishy-washy child. Even when my
mood swings
terrify you, you are still very proud of me, Father!
**********
So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
**********
Lucius, just live with it, okay?! I'm like you and that freaks
you out.
You don't like seeing the odder parts of yourself... no one does.
Just get
over the righteous anger thing, okay?
**********
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing
**********
Lucius, have I ever told you I'm sorry for what I said that night?
No,
because you didn't give me a chance! You give Nicholas all sorts
of
opportunities, but since I was *born* of you, you rejected me on the
first
try! I'm different now... I really care about you -- in the filial
way --
and I wish I could get up the nerve to tell you this for real....
**********
Chorus
Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
**********
Miklos, you're really funny, you know that? Over the two months
we've known
each other, you still get that perplexed look on your face every time
I do
something unexpected! Oh, I could laugh with you forever....
**********
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me
**********
Miklos, I really like you, although it'll probably be years before I
can
tell you. I like the way you still think I'm sweet in my own
way, even with
my demented plans and power obsessions.
**********
Chorus
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
**********
You know, Miklos, when we first met you would never have imagined the
twisted things I can think of.... I'm glad you understand me
and let me
lead our relationship.
**********
I'm a goddess on my knees
**********
Lucius, I've been on top of the world. I've seen, felt, and been
great
power. Now, with all my special blood, I'm begging you to listen
to me, the
little voice in your head, and forgive me. I will always be your
loving
daughter, no matter what happens!!!
**********
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
**********
Miklos, I saw what he did to you. I never thought Lucius would
react that
way to the bodies. I thought he'd think they were funny!
I'm sorry. I'll
trash him twice as much as he beat you!!
**********
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
**********
Now you know I'm here, Lucius. Now the revenge begins. I'm
sorry I have to
do this, but a principle's a principle! The first moral I ever
learned was
revenge.
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You know I wouldn't want it any other way
**********
Miklos, I know you don't want me to cause any trouble, but that's just
how I
am. So what if I get a little hurt? I've been killed before.
*This* is
how to live life the *interesting* way.
Lucius, I'm coming for you....
Kathy Walsh
pocket_protector@hotmail.com
Too many factions to mention within constraints of sanity....
--I've never met a vampire I didn't like.
<>You've never met a vampire, Kathy!
--That's what *you* think.
