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 Chris watched Eve sleep, seeing and feeling her
finally relaxing again. He touched her cheek gently, and he knew
that it would be a while before her time with Ryan could or would be forgotten.
She looked peaceful as she slept, as if she could finally be away from
him in her dreams. Chris only wondered how long it would last before Ryan's
memory came to torture her again.
Eve found herself in a deep sleep for the first time in a while as her head filled with images of Chris and she felt a warmth in her heart. What started off so simply transformed into a nightmare as Ryan somehow popped into her dream turning her world upside down. She tried to get rid of him, but the harder she tried the worse it was and she watched him go after Chris struggling to stop him.....finally she cried out as her eyes snapped open. "No!" she screamed drawing in a breath as she looked around the darkened hotel room. Chris had fallen asleep beside her, holding her in his arms and feeling like his being with her could provide her with the safety that she needed. He fell sleep and all he could see was Eve in the hospital when she had first been brought in. She had looked the weakest that he'd ever seen her. She looked up at his with eyes that spoke of a broken soul and he felt the rage against Ryan all over again. The instant he heard her scream, he popped up and took Eve's hand, "What is it? Are you okay?" Eve felt Chris reach out to her and it caused her to react as she turned to see him there beside her and held onto him grateful to see him here with her. She held him tightly thinking about my nightmare as she closed her eyes. "You're here." she said softly trying to get it register into her mind more than anything else. "Of course I'm here," he said holding onto her, "I told you I wouldn't leave and I'm not going to. It was just a nightmare. You're right here with me, safe and sound now." "I was so afraid," Eve admitted holding him tighter, "in my dream he'd taken you away and I couldn't help you. I tried so hard but I couldn't reach you." "You'll always be able to reach me, Eve. I"m right here and I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to be right here with you." "Chris..I hate him so much," she admitted tearfully still shaking because even though her dream had passed, the feeling had not. Ryan had invaded every aspect of her life and he would be there trying to destroy her if she couldn't let this go. He's already ruined something special between Chris and her and now he was invading her dreams. She started to cry again hating what was happening to her. "I know you do. I do too. He's not going to hurt us, Eve. We're going to get through this," he said holding her to him, kissing her forehead as he wiped tears from her cheek, "You're safe here." "But for how long Chris? How long will I be safe from Ryan? From his memory?" Eve asked looking up at him. "How many times am I going to push you away because of what that bastard did to me?" "As many times as it takes you to heal. I'm not going anywhere Eve. Ryan can't tear us apart, even this way. You know me, I'm stubborn and when I want something I don't give up. I want us to be happy together Eve. I want to see your smile and hear your laughter and to see you get him out of your system. And I'm going to be here no matter how long it takes." "Chris I don't know how long that will be," Eve said reaching out to kiss him softly. "I love you so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with you without worrying about what Ryan's done to us. I want to be able to let you make love to me without having him rip through our private moments like he's done so far," she looked away slightly. "I just want this to end and as long as he's out there....." she trailed off lost in her thoughts again. "He's not going to hurt us," Chris said bringing her eyes back to his, "Ryan's going to pay for what he's done. We don't have to worry about him. Physically he can't hurt us anymore. I'm just worried about what he's done in here," he said moving his hand over her heart, "He hurt you in a way that I can't possibly imagine, but that I can help you heal from." "I just don't know if that's possible Chris. I'm trying so hard to just shut it off...it shouldn't bother me like it is, but it just won't go away." Eve admitted closing her eyes and feeling Ryan all over again. "I just keep thinking about how he taunted me for so long...threatening me...promising to rid me of you and make you suffer if I didn't cooperate and then when he'd taken me....." Eve cried softly. "I tried so hard to get away, but the more I screamed the more he enjoyed it until I finally was too weak to fight him anymore...." Chris held her, and listened as she described the scene. He wanted to kill Ryan now more than ever. How could he have taken something so beautiful and destroyed it? Chris hugged her to him, listening to her get it out of her system. Eve sobbed lightly thinking back. "When he was finished with me, he told me how good I was and how badly I'd needed him...wanted him and how I was his," she said with tears in her eyes. "I knew that I had to get away before I let him have me again. I fought with him, but he managed to bring me back to him until I finally found the strength to run....and all I could do was run no matter how badly it hurt," she sobbed harder into his chest. "He chased me outside and I fell down the cliff just wanting to die....wanting it all to go away as he stood there taunting me....." she stopped unable to say another word as the tears flowed from her eyes. Chris wiped her tears and held her to him, "Shhh, it's alright now, Eve. You're safe. No one is ever going to hurt you that way again. He's gone and you don't have to worry about him anymore." Eve could feel herself trembling as he held her close to him. She wanted so desperately to believe that....to believe that the nightmare was over but as she felt the pain in her side from where Ryan had stabbed her, she knew part of this nightmare would be with her forever. "Eve," Chris whispered, "Look at me," he said
wanting her to come out of her thoughts.
Eve met his gaze looking up at him with tears in her eyes. "I love you," Chris said simply, kissing her tear stained cheeks. "I love you too Chris," Eve whispered softly feeling the sweetness of his touch. "So very much." Chris kissed her cheeks tenderly until my lips met hers softly, "I love you more than anything." "I love you too Chris," Eve said returning his kiss as she smile spread across her face. Just looking into his eyes she was starting to feel better knowing that she had his love....that he was really hers after all this time. "I'm going to take care of you," Chris said rubbing his nose against hers in a cuddling way, "I'm never going to leave you. I love you." "I love you too Ramsey," Eve said feeling the
closeness between them as he held her. God how she loved him and having
him just seemed to make everything so much better in her life.
"Yes....yes we have." Eve smiled back at him thinking about how much they'd been through together. "You know, I only wish that I'd let myself fall in love with you sooner." she kissed him lightly again. "When I think back to the first time I ever kissed you...my head still spins. I just wonder what on earth possessed me to pretend as if it didn't matter at the time." "If you only knew of the times that I thought about telling you," Chris said with half a laugh, "I started to a hundred times. I wanted to sweep you off your feet and have you love me. But I was so afraid. I was afraid of driving you away completely and I would never have been able to live that way. I was content with being your best friend just so long as you were in my life, and I could spend time with you. I couldn't even leave you back then." "Being my best friend was the greatest thing you've ever done for me Chris. For so long I'd built up so many walls, but with you, I let you see the real me and you didn't care about who I was before. You always were my rock, my shoulder to cry on and the one person in my life that I knew I could always count on and your loving me," Eve started with tears in my eyes, "that was just an added bonus which makes things so much better between us. You're my everything, my lover, my best friend, my heart." "I love you so much, Eve, and I've loved you for so long. I've wanted the chance to make you happy for a very long time. And now that I'm here with you," Chris said kissing her tenderly, "I know that I can make you happy. I've seen that smile on your face and I know that I can make that smile appear." he touched her cheek gently, "I want the best for you, Eve, in everything." "Just being with you Chris is the best thing for me," Eve replied gazing into his eyes. "Loving you and having your love has given me a chance at something I never dreamt possible and with everything that I am, I want you to feel the love I have for you. You do make me happy and I hope that one day I'll be able to show you just how much and not only be able to make love to you, but allow you to make love to me as well." Chris touched her cheek gently, "One day, Eve. I'm a very patient man when it comes to you. I would have waited until the end of time if that's what it took for you to love me. And now that I know you love me," he said with a soft smile, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, "I can wait until forever." "Oh Chris," Eve replied overcome with emotion by what he'd said. It touched her heart so deeply as she leaned in to kiss him. "Thank you so much for standing by me during all of this, and I promise you that I'm going to try my hardest to move beyond my time with Ryan because right now I want to focus on working my way back to our future." "Our future is ahead of us Eve. We have all the time in the world. I don't want you to rush yourself. Cause I'm not going anywhere," Chris said before kissing her softly. "I realize that," Eve nodded trying not too sound insecure about what was happening between them, "Chris, right now you're the one thing I'm sure about in my life. I believe you and I don't want you to ever feel otherwise. I know that you love me and I love you too." "I'm sure about us, Eve. I know how you feel about me and that's enough for me. No one can convince me otherwise. I love you and I can see that you love me. I want to help you get Ryan out of your life." "I know Chris, and maybe together we'll find a way to do that," Eve said kissing him again just wanting to lose herself in the feel of him as he held her. She loved him so much and being with him gave her hope that maybe the ordeal with Ryan could be forgotten or at least moved beyond in the future. "I know we will," Chris spoke softly cradling her against him, "I believe in us, Eve. We've always been a very good team, and I know that our love is only going to make our team that much more successful." "I have that same feeling too," Eve said running her fingers over his chest as she molded against him finding herself at perfect ease in his arms. "Somehow just being with you makes everything seem right and I know together we can do anything." "We can," Chris said as he glanced down at her side, and frowned, "Are you in any pain? I don't want those stitches to tear." "Nothing that I can't deal with," Eve said letting out a sigh as she felt her stomach grumble slightly, "although I do think I could go for that room service that you promised earlier." she smiled. Chris laughed, "Time to deliver on a promise," he grabbed the phone, and looked back at her, "What do you feel like munching on, Lambert?" "At this point....anything. I'm starving," Eve said holding her stomach. "Just as long as they get here soon." she said reaching out to rub his shoulder. "You've got it," he said before ordering and then hanging up the phone, "Your food is on its way," he said with a smile taking her hand in his, "I love you Eve." "I love you too Chris," Eve replied leaning over to kiss him feeling her heart full of love for him. She kissed him once more as she heard the tapping at the door in the other room. "Wow, that was fast." she smiled with a soft laugh. "They must've known what kind of emergency it was in here." she teased lightly. Chris laughed softly as he grabbed a robe and
wrapped it around him as he went to
"Mmm.......I'm starving," Eve replied sitting up as he entered the room. She looked at him curiously thinking about how handsome he looked as he brought the food in closer. "What did you get?" Chris smiled mischievously, "It's a surprise." "A surprise huh?" Eve asked feeling a smile spread across her face as she looked at him. "Well are you going to keep my in suspense all night or are you going to show me already?" "Maybe I should keep you in suspense. I might like it .. . on the other hand, it's been a while since you've eaten, and I'm just a genuine nice guy," Chris said removing the cover. "That you are," Eve said watching him remove the cover, "mmm........it looks wonderful." she said slipping out of bed and moving in closer to him. "I guess I didn't realize how hungry I was until now." "Then let's get you fed," Chris said as he looked over the food, "mm, god, I'm hungry too." "Well then let's concentrate on getting both of us fed," Eve suggested reaching for one of the finger foods he'd ordered and took a bite. "Mmm....this is good," she said holding out the other half for him. "Try some." Chris smiled before he took the food, moving his tongue over her finger as he took the food, "Very good indeed." Eve watched the way he'd taken the food feeling his tongue against her skin and it sparked something in her. She smiled before reaching out for another one. "Have some more baby." she suggested popping it into his mouth. "I think food was a very good idea," Chris smiled, pressing his lips to her fingers again. "Here you should really be the one eating," he said taking one and offering it to her. "Thank you," Eve said taking the bite of the food
before drawing his finger into her mouth as well and sucking on the tip
for a couple of seconds before finishing up the bite. "You're right........this
was a very good idea."
Chris licked his own lips before looking into
her eyes, "Want another?"
"Oh yes," Eve replied with a nod looking back at him seeing the desire burning behind them. Chris picked up another and offered it to her, watching her eyes sparkle. "Thank you," Eve accepted it from his hand taking it hungrily as she brought her hand up to his. After she'd finished her food she kissed his finger tips finally taking one into her mouth and using her tongue to remove the traces of the food still lingering on his skin. "Still hungry?" Chris asked, feeling his pulse race and his skin heat up with her attention. "Starving," Eve replied faintly kissing his hand again. Chris smiled before he picked up another one and moving it across her lips, slowly before allowing her to taste it. Eve drew it into her mouth tasting it. She finished her bite and reached for another one taking a bite, but leaving some of it still placed between her lips as she leaned over offering it to Chris placing it into his mouth. He accepted the food and their mouths met. After he'd finished the bite, she kissed him allowing her tongue to collide with his savoring the way he tasted as she moved in closer to him. Chris felt her move into his arms and he returned her kiss, holding her as she moved to press against him. He moved his lips over hers, gently kissing her then moving in for a deeper kiss. Eve continued to kiss him feeling that ache left over from earlier build between them. She wrapped her arms around him tightly feeling her wanting him return as they kissed. Just feeling him this close to her brought forth so many emotions, so many feelings that she needed from deep within. Kissing her this way brought back the familiar need for her that had been left over from earlier. Chris held her in his arms and decided that he should stop now rather than later. He pulled his lips away from hers and looked into her eyes, knowing that he wanted her....needed her so badly, but wanting to take things slowly so he wouldn't hurt her again, "Maybe we should get back to dinner." Eve looked back at him feeling a bit breathless as he pulled away from her. At first she'd felt a bit rejected as he looked at her, but seeing the look in his eyes, she knew he was trying to look out for her especially after what had happened earlier. She'd wanted him so much then and even now she wanted him, but he was right about dinner. She couldn't bring him up for a let down again especially when she loved him so much. Feeling a mixture of emotions, she took in a breath and turned away. "Yeah you're probably right." Chris kissed her tenderly, still holding her in his arms, "We'll just hold the thought for a while, okay?" he said before picking up another food and smiling, "More food?" "Yeah, that would be nice," Eve smiled weakly accepting his offer. she took the food and fought the urge to pick up where they'd left off a moment ago. She reached for some feeding it to him, but toning it down a bit as they started to focus on eating and not so much on each other despite what her heart was crying out to do. Chris fed her some more and then just stopped long enough to kiss her softly at first, but there was a lot of left over passion between them as the kiss grew in intensity. As our lips parted, he smiled, "I couldn't resist." "You don't have to explain yourself Chris," Eve said with a smile, "I'm glad you did that. It was nice.....very nice." she smiled brighter pulling him in for another kiss. "I love you, Eve," Chris said kissing her once more, "I just don't want to rush you." "I know and I appreciate that," Eve said kissing him, "but it doesn't take away this need I have for you......this wanting you....." "I know what you mean," Chris breathed in between kisses, moving my fingers into her hair, "It's the same for me." "Chris you have no idea how badly I want to have you make love to me right now," Eve admitted with a sigh. "I'd love to make love to you right now," Chris
breathed before kissing her once more, the sexual tension constricting
them both.
"Chris," Eve breathed against his lips feeling him so near and wanting him so badly. "I want you more than you can imagine." she said kissing him again feeling her whole body ache for him. "Maybe we can still do this....." she kissed him again, "just not like before." Chris kissed her deeply, his resolve fading with every heated kiss. He moved his hands down her body and spoke up after they moved apart slightly, "I want that. I want you." "I want you too Chris," Eve said looking up at
him and wanting him. Shetook his
Chris lay down watching Eve's movement as she
came towards him. He captured her
Eve watched him make himself comfortable as they
kissed. She wanted him so badly
"I love you, Eve," Chris whispered, feeling her
move more boldly with her hands
"I love you too Chris," Eve replied looking back at his eyes for a moment before kissing him. She wanted things to be so special between them, and while she couldn't let him control this just yet, she wanted him involved in their decision to make love and have some control. She moved herself above him and positioned herself ready to make them one as she placed his hands on her letting him guide her down on him. As she moved onto Chris, he could see that she was making little steps towards allowing him to take control. Just allowing him to guide her and to hold onto her this way as they began to move with one another seemed like a giant concession in the long run. Hr kissed her deeply as they moved slowly with one another. Eve returned his kiss feeling him inside her as they moved together. How she?d wanted to be able to make love to him like this earlier before the nightmare had invaded her mind, but now being with him just felt so right. she kissed him passionately before mouthing, "I love you," in a whisper. "I love you, Eve." Chris moaned softly as they moved with one another. Being inside of her was amazing any way they were together. He moved with her, letting her control the pace while she let him guide their movements. He looked up into her eyes, "You're beautiful." Listening to him saying that melted her heart as he looked into her eyes. He truly believed that regardless of how awful she knew she looked as he saw all of her. All of the bruising and scrapes didn't seem to matter to him, just the love he felt for her and the way it was between them as they made love. Eve leaned down to kiss him again feeling their bodies moving together as her heart pounded every beat with love for him knowing that he would always have her heart and soul. "I love you so very much," she breathed again feeling his hands on her. Chris kissed her passionately as they made love, feeling as if the earlier setback between them hadn't existed. He looked into her eyes as their pace increased, wanting to see all of her...into her soul....and let her into his to see that he loved her so completely and that he would never ever hurt her. Eve could see the love in his eyes as he looked into her touching a part of her that she'd never allowed anyone else to reach before. Feeling things build between them, she was swept away by the feelings he was bringing alive inside of her. He truly loved her and needed her as she needed him. With just a look he was able to alleviate so many concerns and doubts in her head and in this moment of togetherness she felt so alive and protected. They moved together feeling the intensity build again as she pressed her lips to his knowing that they were about to fall into that same magical spell together that they had earlier and in her heart she knew they always would. Chris pressed his lips to hers, moving his hands
along her body feeling things build between them. He loved her so much
and even more so now. Every moment seemed more hopeful and loving between
them despite all the obstacles that had been between them. He looked into
her eyes, kissing her once more, "I love you."
Eve kissed him again and felt her heart melt as things picked up between them to the point that they could no longer hold back. She kissed him hungrily as things moved on further than she'd anticipated. As their lips met in a deep kiss, she could feel the fireworks starting to explode between them as their bodies communicated with one another far beyond what either one of them could've spoken. "Eve," Chris whispered hoarsely as they completed one another so thouroughly. He kissed her lips as they lay together. "I love you Chris," Eve said laying against him feeling his strong arms around her. In his arms she felt so safe and just knowing that he was here with her, it did something to her. Everything just felt so right after they'd made love and it was hard to believe she'd pushed him away earlier when he was the greatest thing in her life. Chris held her against his and pressed a kiss to her forehead, "I love you Eve. We're good together. . . anyway you look at it." "We are aren't we?" Eve asked kissing his chest lightly. "You have no idea how much I do love you Chris. You have my heart and every part of me. I don't know how I made it this far without you." "You made it because you're strong," Chris said tucking a lock of hair behind her ear, "That's part of the reason why I fell in love with you." "Really?" Eve asked looking up at him. "Because you think I'm a strong person?" "I know you are. You're a very strong woman. I've seen you come through things with flying colors. You get shaken, but you don't let it keep you down. I admire that in you." "Yeah well it's not as easy as it used to be Chris," Eve admitted with a sigh looking up at him. "Maybe not," Chris said touching her cheek, "But
we have each other now. When
"I don't want you to feel like I'm going to break all the time Chris." Eve said hating that she still wasn't herself. "I never should've let Ryan get to me like this." "Eve," Chris said brining her eyes to his, "You didn't have a choice. You're very lucky to be alive. A lot of other women weren't so lucky. You may have scars that he gave you, and you may have nightmares. . . but you're alive. And you're going to be around to make sure that he gets what he deserves." "Chris I should've been stronger. I should've
fought harder and I should've killed him when I had the chance." Eve said
thinking back. "I was so close so many times, but I just couldn't do it
no matter how badly I wanted to."
"You wanna know why?" Chris asked moving his hand
over her heart, "Because of
"Yes but Chris when someone does that to you, you can't help but lose control. He hunted me down like an animal telling me I was his and that was how it would be." she said thinking back. "I was to please him." "He thought he owned you," Chris said putting the pieces together, "He didn't look at you as another human being. He thought of you as property." "Even now he thinks he owns me Chris, which was why he did what he did in that hospital room. In his mind I'm his and this," Eve said looking at her wound, "binds me to him forever." "Why? Because he did this to you?" Chris asked moving his fingers over the bandaging, hoping it wasn't causing her any pain. Eve cringed slightly, not because of the pain, but because of the reminder. "In his mind...yes." she said looking back at him. "He may think that. . . but that just adds to
the list of things that he's wrong about. He doesn't own you and he never
will."
Eve looked away feeling lost in her thoughts again as Chris touched her. She hated this insecure feeling that she had lingering in her. She looked up at him. "Chris I hate what he's done and until I can push it aside, he still has something over me. I mean my God, I couldn't let you make love to me." she said thinking back as she moved slightly. "I have to make love to you and while I know it shouldn't make a difference, it does. He's taken that from us." "Only temporarily Eve. We're going to make it through this. And when we do, when the time is right, when you're ready, you'll let me make love to you. And it will be just as it should be." "I hope you're right Chris," Eve said looking up at him and kissing him softly. "There's nothing I want more than to let you in on every level and show you just how much you mean to me." "You already have, Eve. By being here with me, trusting me to talk to me about what happened with Ryan, all of that shows me that you care about me." "I do care about you," Eve said looking at him. "You?re the only one who knows the truth and I don't want anyone else to find out everything that I allowed to happen." she said seriously. "I don't want everyone else to find a way to make me the whore in this because that man raped me." she said stiffening as she'd finally blurted out the words. "You are not a whore. You didn't ask for what happened to you. I don't care what led up to it, Eve. It doesn't matter to me. What matters is that you said no. . . and that should have been enough. He should have stopped. But he's a monster and he didn't. I'm so sorry that he didn't." Eve started to cry again not really meaning to, but feeling it coming back. "Chris all my life I've dealt with people using me and the whole idea of shutting off my mind in those type of situations, but with Ryan....I brought it on and I shouldn't have let it happen. You're right he should've stopped, but I shouldn't have let it get that far and that's what people are going to see. That Eve, the slut, as Lucy let them all see, was the one who did this. They'll say it was my fault for leading him on in the first place and talk about how I didn't waste anytime hopping from his bed to yours." "It's not your fault. People know how sick Ryan is and what a heartless bastard he is. They're not going to blame you. They're going to look at you and see how strong you were to survive him. They're going to look at you and see that you were lucky to live through it. And all the blame will belong to Ryan. . . . exactly where it should be." he said touching her damp cheeks, "And as for us being together, I love you Eve and you love me. It doesn't matter what people say about us. I don't care about any of that. I only care about you." Eve looked up at him feeling him wipe at her tears. "I love you too Chris and having you here with me is the strength I need to move on. I know that Ryan is still lurking around and maybe on the outside it would seem like we're rushing things, but Chris I've waited my whole life to find you and being here in your arms is the only thing I'm sure of right now. Just feeling your love for me gives me hope for the future." "I want to give you that. I want to give you everything that you deserve Eve. You've never been given a fair shake, and no one's ever looked into your heart like I do. I see the you that no one else sees. You're a beautiful but scared woman. You're strong, but the more I see into you, the more I see that part of you that is still so scared," Chris hugged her into his arms, "I want to make that fear go away." "I wish you could Chris," she said hugging him back as he wrapped his arms around her tighter. "I wish that part of me would just disappear and never come back to me. I hate feeling helpless and that's exactly what Ryan's made me reguardless of how many times I try to convince myself otherwise. Chris, I hate having to have you see this side of me when I hate seeing it myself." she felt the tears in her eyes as she leaned up against him. "I just wish there was some way I could forget......if I could just somehow turn back time and erase that mistake I made in getting involved with him in the first place. If only I'd just opened my eyes up sooner and saw what I truly had in front of me with you......" I said sadly thinking of all the time we'd lost and all the heartbreak that had resulted from my ignorance. "Eve, we can't turn it back. If we could I would have told you how I loved you, tried to convince you that you should stay with me. I wish we could turn back time but we can't. I wish so much, but we can't. All I can do is help you now, tell you how much I love you now." "I know Chris and in hearing that, it means so much to me, but at the same time, I just feel as if I've made so many mistakes that are going to haunt you. You don't deserve to be put through all of this because of a dumb decision I made." "What I deserve is to have this chance to love you and to make you happy. Nothing is going to haunt me. We're going to take care of everything together. We don't have to face anything alone ever again." Eve looked back at him seeing the sincerity in his eyes and the love in his tone as she touched his cheek. "Promise Chris?" she asked wanting to hear him say it again to prove that this wasn't just her imagination getting the best of me again. "I promise you, Eve. I love you and I'm going to take care of you. Together through it all." "I love you too Chris," Eve said snuggling in against him loving the feel of being in his arms. She closed her eyes listening to his heart beating. "You know, I keep thinking back to that day in the oncall room when you told me how you felt. Something you'd said before that sticks in my mind though. When I was walking out, you said that I'd always been your rock, well now it seems as if the tables have turned and you're mine." she said softly. "I can't imagine life without you Chris." "I can't imagine my life without you either. I love you so much Eve. After I left you that night, I thought about you. When I got to Ferncliff and Rachel told me that Julie was being released, I felt my heart sink. I didn't want to spend my time with her. I wanted to come back to you that night and be with you and look into those eyes and know what love really meant." "You did?" Eve asked looking at him and feeling a smile cross her lips when he'd said that. "You were really thinking about being with me again?" she asked touching his face thinking back. "Chris when I left the hospital all I could think about was being with you....holding you.....touching you and what it felt like to have your lips pressed to mine. The way it sounded to hear the words I love you fall from your lips." I said moving over to kiss him. "How I wanted to be with you so desperately and when Ryan wouldn't let me go......" she sighed. "I remember calling you when I tried to get away the first time and when you weren't there....well, I didn't know what to think. I was afraid that I'd lost you..." "I kept thinking about you...back at the apartment, there are reminders of you everywhere. I'd look around. . . . one moment in particular, when I was making a martini, I thought about you. I wondered if you were thinking about me or wondering where I was. I called the hospital to see if you were there, but you weren't," he said touching her cheek, feeling so unable to help her, "I'm sorry that I didn't call you. . . come and get you. . .I'm sorry I wasn't there for you, Eve." "Chris you're helping me right now and that's what matters," she said placing her hand over his holding it near to her "If you'd shown up, you wouldn't have known about Ryan and he could've hurt you." she said tearfully. "I don't think I could've lived with myself if he did anything to you. I love you too much to ever have to see you go through that kind of pain." "You don't know how I feel seeing you go through this kind of pain. I so want to help you and I'm just not sure that I'm doing enough." "You've already done so much for me Chris," Eve said kissing him gently. "Without you being here, I don't know if I could pull through. When I saw you back at the hospital it was as if I'd finally found the light at the end of a long, dark tunnel and I knew I had to move forward and with you by my side, I know I'll somehow be able to get the strength to move on past what Ryan did to me. Your love is making me strong again." "I want to make you strong again, Eve. I want to see that proud smile on these beautiful lips again," he said tracing her lips with a fingertip, "I want to see that sparkle in your eyes when you're really happy." "You make me so very happy Chris," she whispered against his touch looking back at him. "Just being with you and having your love makes me feel stronger by the minute. In fact when I look at you, I see reason to keep going and motivation to be strong again...strong for me, for you.....for our love....." she trailed off placing her hand on his cheek. "You are the reason for my everything Chris and in loving you I've found the one thing that's been missing from my life and I'm going to do everything in my power to hold onto what we have." "Everything in our power Eve, because I'm not about to let you go. I love you and I want to give you the world. If my being here helps you, that's what I'll do. I'd do anything to help you heal." "You already have done a wonderful job," she said kissing him tenderly, "Just having your arms around me has done wonders for me and making love to you....." she smiled kissing him again, "it's amazing." "Being here with you . . .well, it's better than I thought our time would be when I saw you at the hospital. You're quite the amazing woman, Eve." "You have a knack for bringing out the best in me Chris." Eve said kissing him again. "You're pretty amazing yourself." "Do you realize what that makes us? That makes
us amazing together."
"I guess that does," Eve said with a smile feeling it widen when he looked at her with those eyes of his. Crhis moved the back of his fingers across her
smile, "Now that is true beauty."
Eve kissed his fingers feeling her heart full of love for him. "I love you Ramsey." she said feeling her smile grow. "And I hope you don't ever get tired of hearing me say that because I plan on telling you that a lot." "Please do," Chris said before kissing her lips gently, "Because I'm going to constantly tell you that I love you too Lambert." "Good because that's just what I wanted to hear." Eve said returning the kiss. "I love you....I love you....I love you...." "Muscial, just musical," Chris said before kissing
her softly once again, "I love you so, Eve Lambert. I love you more with
every breath I take."
"Chris, I don't ever want this feeling to end that I have when I'm with you. How I love you..." she said kissing him again as she looked back at his brown eyes. "Let's go away...somewhere warmer...somewhere that hasn't been corrupted by Ryan.....a place where he's never been heard of before." she wrapped her arms around him kissing him again. "I know we can't pick up right away, but when we can, let's go somewhere tropical where we can spend our days drinking those drinks with the little umbrellas and spend our nights making love down by the ocean. What do you say?" she asked kissing him again. "Somewhere just as perfect as we are when we're together? I think that's a very good suggestion Eve," he touched her cheek before kissing her again, "We'll just waste time watching the waves roll in from the ocean and holding onto one another." "It sounds so perfect Chris," Eve sighed picturing it in her head, "I just wish we were there right now instead of here in this place......not that this isn't our own little heaven, but I just wish the outside world was away for a while." "This is our world, Eve. We don't have to let anyone in that we don't want in our world with us." "You really think that's possible?" Eve asked looking back at him. "I really do. There's no one in my world right now but you. And I refuse to let anyone else in here with us." "Then this moment is ours and it belongs to only us," Eve said leaning over to kiss him again holding him in her arms. "Every moment from here on out belongs to us. I love you so much, Eve." "I love you too Chris," Eve said touching his
cheek, "so very much."
"I do when I'm with you," Eve said with a smile
looking back at him. "You make
"You are safe. From now on, you'll be safe. I'm going to be with you from now on." "I believe that Chris," Eve said pulling his arms around her as she sank into his chest, "Somehow I know that we're going to have a very bright future together."
"Yes we are." she agreed looking up at him. "You know what I could really go for right now?" she said with a smile then frowning. "Never mind.....with these sitches the idea of a warm bath is out of the question." she said leaning into him. "But I guess that these warm arms of yours will work just as nicely." "We'll get you that warm bath just as soon as possible. But for now, I'm willing to serve this particular duty," Chris smiled holding her to him. "It's very nice.....very nice indeed." she said looking up at him and kissing him again. "I love you." she said smiling at him. "Chris what about you? I mean you've been being here for me and doing everything I ask of you, but what do you want right now.....just name it and we'll do it." "I have everything I want. Holding you in my arms is perfect. It's all I've wanted for a very very long time, and now holding you here is perfect." "Well then I won't spoil it for you and I'll do my best to make it more perfect." Eve said snuggling in against him. "You have no idea how good it feels for me to have these arms wrapped around me." "Good because it feels like heaven to wrap you
up in them. I wanted to hold you in my arms like this on so many lonely
nights. I used to dream about it and then wake up and realize that you
weren't there, that I was all alone."
"I'm so sorry Chris. So many nights I lay there at the apartment wondering if that flirty joke or wink was something more, but then I thought I was crazy." she replied honestly. "I remember being in bed one night just wondering what would happen if I tossed caution to the wind and just went in there and made love to you." she said unable to believe she'd let that one slip. "I thought that might be one hell of a way to find out if you had feelings for me, but then Kevin......Ryan.....walked into my life and I let it go...." "I should have told you. But I was such a coward," he said as he looked into her eyes, "How does it feel to know that I was afraid of losing you?" "Normally it would be a shock, because I knew I'd never let that happen, but at the same time it shows me how much you really loved me Chris." she said honestly. "You were so concerned in keeping what you could in me that you pushed your own feelings aside and let me do what you believed would make me happy as long as I didn't cut you out. Granted, I wish you'd spoken up and let me know the truth sooner, but the fact remains that you did and look at us now......look at this..." she said holding him closer. "We have it all now and knowing that you'd sacrifice yourself to ensure my happiness, well, I know what that's like and somehow I love you even more." "I love you so much Eve. All I've ever wanted
is for you to be happy. All I've ever wanted is for you to be loved and
to be able to love. I thought that you might have found it for a while
with . . . . . him. . . . but that night in the on-call room. . . . after
you'd locked me in that closet to keep me from marrying Julie, I thought
that maybe it was a glimpse into
"Because it was fate Chris. That night changed our lives around and if you hadn't said that then heaven only knows where we'd be right now. I'd probably be dead and you'd be miserable." she said touching his cheek. "We were meant to be together and that night was the one thing that kept me going.....kept us going and gave me the hope that we'd be together again. I love you Ramsey and when you told me you loved me, it changed my life around...." she shifted in his arms kissing him. "You brought me to life with that confession and for that, I'll always be grateful to you. I don't ever want to lose you." Chris kissed her softly, once twice then again, "You're never going to lose me, Eve. Nothing can keep us apart. Fate brought us together and it will keep us together, from now until the end of time. I love you so much, Evelyn Lambert." "And I love you Christopher Ramsey more than you can imagine." she said kissing him again before moving out of his arms. She stood up extending her arm out to him for him to take her hand. "Come here." she suggested tugging on his arm. Chris smiled as he got up with her, "What do you have in store for me?" "You'll find out," Eve said taking his hand and leading him outside onto the balcony under the sky. "Now it's time to make a wish." she said looking into the sky. "I used to do this when I was a little kid and now I want to share this with you." "A wish? For us?" Chris asked looking at her before looking up into the sky with her. "Yeah I mean what do we have to lose?" Eve asked sinking back into him. She pulled his arms around her. "I've already been thinking about a few I've had on my mind." Chris smiled as he held her against him, looking up, "Can I hear them or are these the kinds of wishes you have to keep a secret?" "Well if I tell you, they might not come true," Eve said looking back at him with a smile before turning to the sky, "and believe me, I want them to come true more than anything." Chris smiled, "Then I can take a little secrecy," he said holding her against him and looked to the sky. "Good, did you make a wish?" Eve asked turning to look at him after a long pause. Chris nodded, "Yes I did," he said looking down into her eyes. "Was it a good one?" Eve asked turning to look at him. "The best I could think of," Chris smiled, "and
I could think of quite a lot."
"I'll bet."Eve I said biting on her lip for a second before leaning up to kiss him. "I wonder if they were both the same." she held him close to her kissing him again. "I hope so," Chris said before kissing her again,
holding her to him as he looked
"I love you too," Eve said hearing the winds pick up around them. "Let's go back inside." Eve suggested kissing him again and leading him into the room. Without a word she pulled him into a kiss. "Hmm," Chris kissed her again, "I love you. I hope all our wishes come true." "Somehow I have a feeling they will and in fact," Eve said looking at him with a brilliant smile, "I'd even go so far to say that if anyone placed bets on our futures together, that it would be in the bag because you and I.......we're meant to be." "Yes we were," Chris smiled touching her cheek, "And I think that bets are a very good thing. Because the odds are all in our favor." "Somehow I never had a doubt about that," Eve said kissing him again. "We're going to be so very happy thanks to the people being so predictable. It's what sealed our fate." Chris smiled, "I think I like being sealed into this fate with you. And you know that I can be very, very attentive. In fact, you're all I'm going to focus on for a very long time." "Hmm......this sounds better and better by the moment," Eve said touching his face lightly, "and you are the main focus in my life as well." she kissed him gently hearing a faint tapping at the door. She smiled. "Looks like part of my surprise is here already." Chris looked into her eyes and watched her face light up with her smile, "Want to share?" "Eventually," Eve said with a grin answering the door. A few minutes later she returned with a bottle of champagne and two glasses. "I think a toast is in order.....kind of as means to celebrate our future together." "I think it's perfect. A cap off to our wishes tonight?" Chris smiled, "I like that." "Then it's a toast," Eve said filling a glass
and handing it to him, "to us."
"To us. To our future. To best that life has to offer," Chris said smiling. "I'll drink to that," she said sipping her drink as she looked at him with a smile. Once she'd finished her glass, she let out a laugh. "Now's the time when we're supposed to be at the apartment sealing this with the shattering of our glasses, but I guess we can seal this with a kiss." she said leaning towards him. "In fact it might be better this way." "I think we're on to something here," he smiled, kissing her once more, "Much better than shattering glasses, don't you think?" he said kissing her again, "No mess. . . . much more satisfying," he said before kissing her one more time. "Much," Eve agreed kissing him again before dropping her empty glass to the floor and wrapping her arms around him taking in another passion filled kiss. "Oh yes, I like this," Chris said, wrapping her up in his arms and kissing her deeply, moving his hands down her body. "Me too," Eve whispered moving her lips to his neck as they parted from their kiss. She ran her lip over his neck kissing just below his ear lobe as he held her close to him. "Playing with fire again?" Chris asked moving his fingers into her hair, holding her to him. "Perhaps I'm in the mood to test the flame and see where it takes me." Eve replied still kissing him. "Let's just say you bring out the daring side of me." "I think I like that," Chris said moving his fingers down her neck and fanning his palms out along her back. "Good, I was hoping you would," Eve said leaning back slightly before seizing his lips in hers. Chris kissed her softly at first but it progressed into something deeper. He pulled his lips from hers only slightly as he lifted her into his arms and walked to the bed, sitting down and placing her in his lap before kissing her again. Eve wrapped her arms around him as she shifted in his lap kissing him again. She touched his cheek as they parted and smiled at him. "I love you," she whispered touching his lips before moving in to kiss him again feeling him fall back as the intensity of the kiss picked up again. "I love you," he whispered when our lips parted slightly. He watched her as she looked down into his eyes for a moment. She was so beautiful and for the first time all night, she seemed completely happy without ryan distracting her. He moved his fingers into her hair, bringing her lips back to his in a loving kiss. Eve kissed him again a bit more playfully as he held her close to him. Feeling a bit bold she ran her hands over his body loving his responsiveness to her touch. She playfully kissed the tip of his nose before looking back at him. "I love you Ramsey." "Lambert," he whispered in between kisses, taken in by her brave caresses. She was so warm and tender and soft in his arms. With her body pressed to his, he moved his hands over her, feeling a familiar magic between them. Eve kissed him again feeling things build between them as she thought about their time out on the balcony together. "I love you so much Chris." she told him again meaning it more with each passing second, "and just being here with you, well, it's making me think one of my wishes is about to come true." she said flashing him a smile as she played her lips over the skin on his neck moving to kiss his chest. "This wish involved me?" Chris asked taking in a breath as he felt her lips upon his skin and watched her eyes light up with her smile. "Uh-huh," Eve nodded with a smile before kissing him again, "but I can't tell you much more because it might not happen if I do." "I wouldn't want to jinx anything for you," Chris smiled before kissing her again moving his fingers over her skin. "Well I'm grateful that you're so cooperative." Eve said with a laugh kising him again. "You're going to make this very easy for me to seduce you now aren't you?" she said casuallly running her hands over his body. "Why, yes ma'am, I am. I am totally at your disposal," he said with a smile covering her hands with his as she moved over his body. "Oh just what I like a cooperative subject," Eve said placing kisses along his skin as she moved against him. "You know Chris I realized something when we were standing out there under the balcony." she explained pressing a kiss into his chest before moving up to meet his lips. "I realized just how precious our time together truly is and we shouldn't waste it.....not a second of it." "No we shouldn't. We shouldn't waste any of it," Chris kissed her softly, moving his fingers over her cheek, "Time is something we have only a limited amount of. But my love is completely unlimited." "I realize that Chris and my love for you knows no boundaries as well," she said taking in a breath as she kissed him gently. She looked into his eyes seeing her own love reflected in them. "Chris you have no idea how much you've saved me time and time again and just how much I truly appreciate that." she said kissing him again. "You've given me something I never thought I'd find and now....well, now I want to show you just how much you mean to me and how much I trust you implicitly with everything." Chris kissed her softly, "Eve, all you have to do to show me is look at me that way. It's all I've wanted for a very long time. Just to see that look in your eyes." "They only get this way for you....this look is
for you Chris and if you promise to just keep looking into them the way
you are Chris, you'll see everything there is to see between us.....you'll
see the love that I'm feeling for you right now," she said looking at him
before sitting up again never breaking the eye contact between them. She
scooted back on the bed a bit laying back into a pillow never taking her
eyes off of his as she reached for
"Eve," Chris whispered settling above her, kissing her softly then moving his lips to her cheek before closing his eyes, "You don't have anything to prove to me. Nothing at all. We don't have to rush this," he said reopening his eyes and kissing her gently. "I know," she said sofly returning his kiss, "I realize that Chris, but I just want to be close to you like this for a while." she said holding him. "We'll take all the time in the world, but I thought we could just start here for a while....." she said seeing how considerate he was being as she kissed him again. "Thank you.....for everything...." "I love you, Eve," Chris whispered, kissing her again, "Holding you like this.....well, it's very nice," he said with a smile, looking down into her eyes, "Better than nice. It's magical." "That it is Chris." Eve said reaching up and touching his cheek. "This feels so wonderful to have you here with me like this. I love you so very much and nothing is ever going to change that." she said never breaking the spell between them as she traced his lips with her finger. "This just feels like this was how it was always meant to be." "Yes it does. I've dreamed about holding you this way. Just holding you and looking into those beautiful dark eyes of yours. You don't know how many night I got lost in your eyes, even in my dreams," he said softly touching her cheek with the back of his fingers. "Well it's not a dream anymore Chris. I'm real.....this is real and nothing is ever going to keep us from being together again." she said lost in his eyes. "This is the real thing and our love will only grow stronger in time." "Our love," he smiled before kissing her softly, "I plan to spend many nights holding you and gazing into those dark eyes." "I look forward to that Chris," Eve smiled in response, "more so than you can imagine and this," I said kissing him again, "this is only the beginning." "And there will be no ending," he said with a slight smile, "Because I'm going to love you forever." "I'm going to hold you to that Chris because you're never going to be rid of me now even if you tried," she said feeling as if this was how it always should've been as if all the other stuff didn't matter now. She pulled him to me kissing him as if to seal things between them. Chris returned her kiss, slow and even but hinting
of the actual passion between them. He moved his fingers into her hair,
cupping her cheek gently as they kissed tenderly.
"I love you Eve, so incredibly much," Chris whispered moving a fingertip over her lips. "I love you too," Eve said kissing the tip of his finger gently feeling chills run through her at the softness of his touch. "Do you know what you mean to me?" Chris asked, just memorizing the way she looked, relaxed and peaceful. "I think I might have some idea," Eve smiled at him, "but feel free to refresh my memory at any time." Chris smiled before kissing her again, "I love you so much." "I love you too," Eve said with a bright smile kissing him again. "So very.....very much..." she said giving him a few light kisses before finally pulling him into a deeper kiss with more emotion behind it. Chris kissed her deeply with more passion than they'd allowed ourselves to this point, "Eve," he whispered, trying to restrain what he was feeling, what he wanted, but he gave into another passionate kiss. Eve pulled him to her returning the kiss allowing what she felt for him to flow through the surface as she held him. She loved him so much and she wanted him to see that.....wanted to feel the love between them as their kiss continued heatedly. Chris kissed her so unrestrained until he pulled his lips away from hers, "We've got to slow down." "Okay how's this?" Eve asked reaching out to him and pulling him in for a slow drawn out kiss. "Hmm," Chris murmured against her lips as the kiss continued. "You like?" Eve asked parting from the kiss momentarily as she ran her hands over his body. She kissed him again. "Chris......I want you...." "Eve, I want you," Chris breathed kissing her deeply again, "But we shouldn't. We should take this slow. I don't want to rush you," she whispered before kissing her again. "Is that what you really want Chris?" Eve asked kissing him again not wanting to stop as she'd set her mind on doing this. She pulled him closer to her. "I know you're trying really hard to do the right thing here, but I have a feeling this is the right thing....you...." she kissed him again..."....me.....us...." "Eve," Chris whispered, trying to be a gentleman, but her kisses were persistent, her hands insistent. He moved his hands down her body while kissing her deeply, "I want us to be ready." "I know Chris," Eve breathed touching him holding him to her, "Chris I'm not going to stop this again." she said meeting his gaze as they stopped for a moment, "I want you with all that I am I do and as long as I know we're in this together, I know we can do this.....I want to do this." "Eve," Chris spoke then gave in kissing her completely, moving his body along hers, wanting to feel her in the way she wanted. Eve felt him against her and she kissed him looking
back into his eyes needing him so desperately feeling as if things had
turned around for them. There was only one man that was with in her head
and it was Chris and this moment was all that mattered......all that could
matter.
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